Venting Having an anxiety attack over SN.

[Holloet]

I've been asking so many questions about SN, I feel like I should apologize for how annoying I've been. Everything goes wrong for me, so my mind is scrambling to think of every little thing that could go wrong with SN. I read Stan's guide, the FAQs, and always research with the search box but I'm still worried. I'm concerned I'm not storing it properly or that it degraded during shipment because the weather here is like hell. And the air in my room can be a bit musty or something, so I'm worried that might affect it. I don't know if it'll interact with my stomach issues. I have stomach polyps, which are extremely rare, especially for my age. And since they're rare, nobody knows if they'll interact with SN. I don't even know what caused them, since they seem to be caused by underlying gastric issues. So I just have to take a chance with that, and I have extremely bad luck. You might say this isn't the method for me if I'm worrying this much, but this is pretty much my last idea. My other plans already went wrong, it feels like the world is trapping me here.

 

[esse_est_percipi]

I've been asking so many questions about SN, I feel like I should apologize for how annoying I've been. Everything goes wrong for me, so my mind is scrambling to think of every little thing that could go wrong with SN. I read Stan's guide, the FAQs, and always research with the search box but I'm still worried. I'm concerned I'm not storing it properly or that it degraded during shipment because the weather here is like hell. I don't know if it'll interact with my stomach issues. I have stomach polyps, which are extremely rare, especially for my age. And since they're rare, nobody knows if they'll interact with SN. I don't even know what caused them, since they seem to be caused by underlying gastric issues. So I just have to take a chance with that, and I have extremely bad luck. You might say this isn't the method for me if I'm worrying this much, but this is pretty much my last idea. My other plans already went wrong, it feels like the world is trapping me here.

Are you just worried about failing, or about failing and the possible long-term effects of failing?
Because from what I've read, sn failed attempt causes no long-term ill effects.

 

[Holloet]

Are you just worried about failing, or about failing and the possible long-term effects of failing?
Because from what I've read, sn failed attempt causes no long-term ill effects.

Both. Even if there's no long term effects, I'll end up in worse spot.

 

[Zappfe lover]

I've been asking so many questions about SN, I feel like I should apologize for how annoying I've been. Everything goes wrong for me, so my mind is scrambling to think of every little thing that could go wrong with SN. I read Stan's guide, the FAQs, and always research with the search box but I'm still worried. I'm concerned I'm not storing it properly or that it degraded during shipment because the weather here is like hell. I don't know if it'll interact with my stomach issues. I have stomach polyps, which are extremely rare, especially for my age. And since they're rare, nobody knows if they'll interact with SN. I don't even know what caused them, since they seem to be caused by underlying gastric issues. So I just have to take a chance with that, and I have extremely bad luck. You might say this isn't the method for me if I'm worrying this much, but this is pretty much my last idea. My other plans already went wrong, it feels like the world is trapping me here.

There's nothing to apologize for. You are afraid of feeling pain, so you are trying to get information that is going to help you reduce the risks. Being afraid is completely natural.

 

[snuff]

indeed, feeling afraid is natural. for 1st problem that you worrying about your quality of SN you can do a test (i think someone gave a tutorial too for that in this site) it might need some effort from you but hey a little effort to make you feel sure and calm is not a big deal i thing. for 2nd problem that stomach polyps im sorry i can't say anything about that since i dont even know what it is and how it effect you

 

[Holloet]

indeed, feeling afraid is natural. for 1st problem that you worrying about your quality of SN you can do a test (i think someone gave a tutorial too for that in this site) it might need some effort from you but hey a little effort to make you feel sure and calm is not a big deal i thing. for 2nd problem that stomach polyps im sorry i can't say anything about that since i dont even know what it is and how it effect you

I know it's said you can open it for a sec to test it, but I'm still afraid that opening it will degrade it. As for the polyps, I wanna think it's okay because they're not causing pain... but I don't know.

 

[LostandTired]

According to this guide, don't open in a sauna otherwise it would appear to be safe to open to test it if you needed to.

 

[Tigeress Lost]

I've been asking so many questions about SN, I feel like I should apologize for how annoying I've been. Everything goes wrong for me, so my mind is scrambling to think of every little thing that could go wrong with SN. I read Stan's guide, the FAQs, and always research with the search box but I'm still worried. I'm concerned I'm not storing it properly or that it degraded during shipment because the weather here is like hell. I don't know if it'll interact with my stomach issues. I have stomach polyps, which are extremely rare, especially for my age. And since they're rare, nobody knows if they'll interact with SN. I don't even know what caused them, since they seem to be caused by underlying gastric issues. So I just have to take a chance with that, and I have extremely bad luck. You might say this isn't the method for me if I'm worrying this much, but this is pretty much my last idea. My other plans already went wrong, it feels like the world is trapping me here.

I really understand how u feel I want SN As My Method To ctb but I have stomach problems and I have read Stan guide I already take stuff for gastritis and my overdoses failed cause of vomiting despite taking anti sickness medication so yeah but also I'm having problems getting SN cause the ones I've seen are 0.06% which is not strong enough
I don't want to fail with SN I want to finally find peace and ctb successfully & leave this Place

 

[Holloet]

I know you're supposed to keep it out of sunlight. I'm keeping it in a black drawer right next to a window. Not in front of it, but just beside it... Is that alright?

 

[Emily123]

The only thing that can goes wrong is when you vomit it all before it kick in(less than 10 minutes after drinking ). it can also be very uncomfortable / painful . i don't have the courage to use it and it may not be my method .

 

[autumnal]

I've been asking so many questions about SN, I feel like I should apologize for how annoying I've been. Everything goes wrong for me, so my mind is scrambling to think of every little thing that could go wrong with SN. I read Stan's guide, the FAQs, and always research with the search box but I'm still worried. I'm concerned I'm not storing it properly or that it degraded during shipment because the weather here is like hell. And the air in my room can be a bit musty or something, so I'm worried that might affect it. I don't know if it'll interact with my stomach issues. I have stomach polyps, which are extremely rare, especially for my age. And since they're rare, nobody knows if they'll interact with SN. I don't even know what caused them, since they seem to be caused by underlying gastric issues. So I just have to take a chance with that, and I have extremely bad luck. You might say this isn't the method for me if I'm worrying this much, but this is pretty much my last idea. My other plans already went wrong, it feels like the world is trapping me here.

Please tell me you have also read the PPH? It provides a more reassuring narrative compared to Stan's Guide.

 

[Sensei]

You shouldn't apologize for asking many questions. To end your life by your own hand is arguably the most important decision of your life, so you should make sure that you get it right.

 

[falloutcarter13]

Ugh, I know how you must feel...to be out of options and then find a method that sounds downright pleasant compared to most, only to have to worry about your health issues causing a fail. My two cents on it...the main thing to keep in mind is we're poisoning ourselves to death with SN. Your stomach polyps won't stop the poison from killing you, but it may keep you from being able to hold it down for very long (I'm not sure, I know next to nothing about the condition.) But the vast majority of the SN enters your bloodstream after it passes the stomach into the intestines, like most drugs or poisons. Many people vomit from SN poisoning whether they take meto or not. It just depends on how committed you are is how I see it...I plan to hold it down for as long as humanly possible, and if/when I puke, take another drink down. Rinse and repeat until I'm either unconscious or unable to do so. I totally understand your worry, but as @worried_to_death said, there don't seem to be any major physical consequences for failing with SN. I understand there are other factors, like getting caught or whatever else you may be worried about. But in the end, its a choice where you'll just have to weigh the possible pros and cons and make a choice based on the best available info. I wish you the best!

 

[Aap]

If they aren't causing issues, they shouldn't be an issue.

 

[Holloet]

Please tell me you have also read the PPH? It provides a more reassuring narrative compared to Stan's Guide.

I have. I don't really see what's in it that's not in Stan's Guide though.

 

[alexit]

I've been asking so many questions about SN, I feel like I should apologize for how annoying I've been. Everything goes wrong for me, so my mind is scrambling to think of every little thing that could go wrong with SN. I read Stan's guide, the FAQs, and always research with the search box but I'm still worried. I'm concerned I'm not storing it properly or that it degraded during shipment because the weather here is like hell. And the air in my room can be a bit musty or something, so I'm worried that might affect it. I don't know if it'll interact with my stomach issues. I have stomach polyps, which are extremely rare, especially for my age. And since they're rare, nobody knows if they'll interact with SN. I don't even know what caused them, since they seem to be caused by underlying gastric issues. So I just have to take a chance with that, and I have extremely bad luck. You might say this isn't the method for me if I'm worrying this much, but this is pretty much my last idea. My other plans already went wrong, it feels like the world is trapping me here.

yeah the best way is to do a purity test

 

[falloutcarter13]

If you're not in any great hurry, here in the US, you can contact the chemistry department at a college/university close to you, even a lot of community colleges have one. They sometimes provide a service to test chemical compositions and purity for cheap or free, as a way of getting their chemistry students real world experience. Something you could look into, maybe!

 

[Holloet]

If you're not in any great hurry, here in the US, you can contact the chemistry department at a college/university close to you, even a lot of community colleges have one. They sometimes provide a service to test chemical compositions and purity for cheap or free, as a way of getting their chemistry students real world experience. Something you could look into, maybe!

There's no way I can do that.

The brand seems to be trusted(LW), I'm just worried that I myself am degrading it. Taking it somewhere to test it would make me worried about that.

 

[falloutcarter13]

There's no way I can do that.

The brand seems to be trusted(LW), I'm just worried that I myself am degrading it. Taking it somewhere to test it would make me worried about that.

From what I've read and understand of the chemical, its very stable until/unless exposed to high humidity for extended periods of time. I have the same product, its professionally sealed and I can tell by tapping on the side of the bottle, the powder is dry because it doesn't try to cling to it.

I understand the anxiety, the SN is the last thing you have to be able to have absolute trust in on this earth, and failure isn't an option for many of us. But its not possible to be able to trust in something like this 100%, it just isn't. There are variables in everything, this included. Personally, I make myself feel better about this method by reminding myself that if it were to fail, I wouldn't be too incapacitated to try again with a more reliable (but less pleasant) method.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

According to this guide, don't open in a sauna otherwise it would appear to be safe to open to test it if you needed to.

I've had mine for a couple of months and I open it from time to time just to look at it for a bit. Can this damage it?

 

[Meditation guide]

my overdoses failed cause of vomiting despite taking anti sickness medication

I haven't read one account yet where someone didn't vomit so it's a given that you will vomit if you try it again. The thing is this from my research: some people are much more susceptible to this method and die from it even if they vomit, and some can survive it and there is no way to tell who the ones are who die or survive in advance.

I read recently here of a young lady who first vomited, moaned a little then died. Then read of a male who took it, vomited, was in terrible stomach pain and passed out then woke up in pain and was thinking of calling an ambulance. So it varies a great deal.