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Already_dead

Already_dead

No alarms and no surprises
May 16, 2025
10
Sometimes I want to be more open with my friends about my feelings to ctb, but I have a feeling that once I do I'm only gonna regret it. I have a feeling that their whole perception of me would change- and while it might be more accurate- that's not exactly the perception I want them to have of me.
 
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Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
3,748
Slf am nt in contct wth mst irl frnds n.e.mre bt hve tld apprx 3 of thm whn thy vistd - 1 of thm sd 'slf d/ nt blme u' & 1 othr usd 2 b a Samartn s/ thy r usd 2 thse convrsatns & anothr 1 = educ8td in m.h & hs suffrd suicdl feelngs mst of thr lfe - s/ ws nt an issu & thy wre mre concernd abt spport & wre opn abt dscussng

Famly also knw & try 2 spport

S/ depnds on maturty & emotnl intellgnce of ppl arnd u tbf - sme ppl knw hw 2 hndle tht info & sme d/ nt

Perhps if thre = n.ethng tht thy cn hlp u wth 2 hlp u fl bettr thn tht info wld b easr knowng tht thy cn d/ smethng wth tht infrmatn
 
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alwaysalone

Specialist
May 14, 2025
331
I have a few people in my life who know I'm suicidal. I don't think they understand how close I've come in the past but they try to understand.
 
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eattwinkiesseejesus

eattwinkiesseejesus

Praying for death to a God that doesn't answer
Jan 18, 2025
130
Friends? I had one, didn't tell her but she found out after I landed in the pysch ward- haven't seen her since.
Partner? I asked the man to stop killing me slowly and just put me out of my misery, he laughed and refused.
If I had it my way, no one would know - I regret every conversation I've had about my mental health, I just get labeled as crazy
 
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bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
Discuss it with the people here as much as you can. The problem with discussing it with the people in your personal life is that you never know when it can come back to bite you. Stay anonymous and stay safe. The day you can actually be happy is always a possibility. But don't make it harder on yourself☺️
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
831
I did open up to certain woman. I took that risk...for my surprise, she told me she has been suicidal all her life and had many trips to mental hospital. SHe will keep it private.
 
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LaetumCat

LaetumCat

I like to play with sharp items
May 11, 2025
116
I havent told my irl friends because we havent been friends long enough for me to trust them about it yet, but my online bsf knows. I've been pretty open abt it ever since I met him, since he was also highly suicidal when we met. I dont know. Sometimes we still talk abt it, but he's gotten better and has will to live now so he just encourages me to keep livng. Which is honestly okay I suppose, I mean, who would want their best friend dead, right...
 
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Michelstaedter

Specialist
Feb 25, 2025
319
I don't regret it because I want to prepare them psychologically. Besides, you might think it's crazy, the typical thing of seeking affection or attention, but in reality, my idea has always been to prepare them. I've even done it unconsciously, no matter how much I intend to, I don't know, generate pity? No, my idea is to prepare them and, if it happens, to make them understand that it was an inevitable event.
 
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Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
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Scythe

Lost in a delusion
Sep 5, 2022
769
Yeah, all my close friends know, they know because they are all mentally ill and have been suicidal at some point. There was also a time in my life where I was openly suicidal because it was the constantly on my mind and I was obsessed with it. That was before I got on SS I believe. It was also because the group I was in at the time seemed more or less chill about it. Some ppl other than me talked about it before. Ppl were concerned but nobody pulled the "it gets better" card.
 
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barkbark

tired
Jan 22, 2024
73
my close friends almost all know and i've gotten a surprising amount of support from them. i don't regret telling them at all—i think it let me share a part of myself with them and opened up conversations that i think are important. several of my friends ended up telling me they're also suicidal, or depressed, or they self harm, and that's let us become closer and understand each-other better. i've gotten some mixed and some misguided support, but its support nonetheless.

overall my rule of thumb is, i think it's worth sharing if you think the people you're sharing with will understand, but you should only do that after you've become close enough to share that kind of stuff comfortably. a lot of this is unfortunately very vibes based though, so take that how you wish.
 
XdragonsoulX

XdragonsoulX

Vengeance Incarnate
Apr 13, 2022
166
I regret telling those closest to me, maybe if I didn't tell them my life wouldn't be in such shambles right now
 

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