have you told anyone in real life that you want to ctb?

[sadworld]

I thought this could be interesting. I haven't told anyone and i think i'll never be able to

 

[Spitfire]

I have talked to my sister about the plans I have in detail. I know it saddens her. I have a really good feeling when I am gone she will appreciate the conversations we had.

 

[Lupgevif]

Does it count if it has been over 6 months?

 

[BrokenGirl]

My therapist

 

[Mm80]

Yeah its a waste of time most people dont get it.

 

[Viro_Major]

I had and despite not supported, it was understood. Lucky me

 

[inactive]

Only 12 votes so far but woooow, I am surprised that the overwhelming answer is affirmative... I don't feel very safe revealing my suicidal feelings to anyone in real life.

 

[SipSop]

Yeah, I keep dropping bombs to my mom and sister.
Like I tell them to keep the pictures I send them or tell them about my plans.
They never get used to it. It is painful for them and at some extent they do not want to believe it.
Till it happens.
In a way I desensitise them to it. But it will hit just as hard when, I hope, I will be gone.

 

[Wayfaerer]

No, why would you? I think people who do this secretly want to be rescued and not CTB.

 

[Mm80]

Only 12 votes so far but woooow, I am surprised that the overwhelming answer is affirmative... I don't feel very safe revealing my suicidal feelings to anyone in real life.

I think at some point many of us woukd have shared it with someone, maybe when we wanted help.
As time goes on it becomes pointless to share it as it doesn't help anyone.

 

[raindrops]

Yeah I've told lots but I say it in a jokey way.
The thing is I've disappointed a few people over the years, I would love to mend everything with those people then do it, I'm selfish like that.

 

[Blueman]

No, why would you? I think people who do this secretly want to be rescued and not CTB.

Correct in my case don't really want to CTB but just so depressed am seriously thinking about it

 

[Sinkinshyp]

I've said more days than not since my son died I want to die. I've recently warned my mother I have found a way that will peacefully bring me to my son. I ended up double teamed 2 days later by her and my bro. All I could do is tell them if you could feel the extent of the pain I live with every second of everyday if you could feel it for 5 minutes you would understand and see how selfish it is to want me to stay here. The conversation went a bit deeper. In the end after my mom discussed my home and animals. I think she really understands my existence is to painful. I didn't tell them to get caught - hospital discharged me on od due to not taking my insurance. Family knows I will just be released immediately upon psychiatrist seeing me. I want them warned, to lesson the blow when it does happen. My sons car accident was a shock. If he had been sick and I knew the potential outcome I think it would have been easier to address. I don't want my family to be shocked. I always tell them when I die don't cry for me- I will be reunited with J.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I have had conversations with my mom for a while now because I didn't want it to be a shock to her. I know she will handle it better...and she already has been. She knows my problems can't be solved by slapping me in psychiatric prison so I have never feared that. She also knows this has been a lifelong struggle for me. I would rather live but if nothing improves I'll ctb.

No, why would you? I think people who do this secretly want to be rescued and not CTB.

That's not true for everyone. I for one did it to help a family member come to terms with it vs shocking them and they are left wondering if there was anything they could have done. I don't secretly want to be rescued.

 

[Red]

I've told people so it's not a shock - I don't think they take it seriously though. I most certainly do not want to be "saved" from my choice.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I have told people that I wanted to do it in the past, but it's been a while since I've shared that kind of info with anyone I'm not going to do it ever again. As far as those people know, I have no intention of doing it anymore (even though I do) and it has to stay that way.

 

[Wayfaerer]

That's not true for everyone. I for one did it to help a family member come to terms with it vs shocking them and they are left wondering if there was anything they could have done. I don't secretly want to be rescued.

One could always leave a detailed note explaining everything. That's what I'm going to do and I've already gotten started on it.

 

[TheSkyIsBlue]

Yes. A waste of time. They don't get it until you actually do it.

 

[Ghost2211]

Yes, it wasn't to be helped or saved. It wanted to let him know I couldn't cope with him treating me like trash while also happily getting ready to go hook up with the home wrecker he divided the family for. I didn't want to be impulsive and unstable, and wanted to die on my terms rather than because he pushed me over the edge.

 

[Life_is_comedy]

Yes, and most just shrug it off not taking it seriously until it's too late or trying to deflect it in another manner by talking about another topic altogether. Trust me, this isn't unique in any way. Our stories are mostly just a copy-paste of one another. Most human beings don't like hearing these things so they don't give a flying frick until it's already too late. Then comes the "He/she should've opened up" or "I wish I could be there for him/her" when the suicide goes through. F**k off. It makes my blood boil whenever I see empty platitudes from what should've been a support network like these on the news. You only give a damn when they're dead, not when they're alive.

 

[snowdrift]

I've been weirdly open to my family and a few acquaintances about wanting to end my life soon. It's interesting because no one is really outwardly bothered by it. Maybe they think I'm just talking shit. In any case, I hope they don't act too surprised when it inevitably happens... Shrug Emoji.

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

i've said "i want to kill myself" in response to minor inconveniences, and have threatened to kill myself hundreds of times, but i've never seriously discussed my ideation or plans. i don't fancy being shipped off somewhere.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

One could always leave a detailed note explaining everything. That's what I'm going to do and I've already gotten started on it.

Yes. I'm also leaving a note myself. I have most of it finished. I just knew in my case my mom would take it much better if I had told her ahead of time. I feel that it was best and I did all I could do in my set of circumstances.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

 

[muffin222]

No. When I was a child around age 12 and the suicidal thoughts began to emerge, I did tell someone. The drama and chaos that ensued afterwards was enough to put me off of ever telling anyone again.

 

[Meditation guide]

I realized afterward it wasn't fair to them to put that kind of uncomfortable burden on them. It can't be pleasant to hear someone tell you that. Also they might just think you're crazy if they don't know you well.

 

[Deleted member 94]

Told about another person not me to my sister in law about how that person was saying stuff like ending up in front of train, she replied good let her do it and be done with it but don't let myself be emotionally blackmailed, different strokes for different folks, my mum would have said the complete opposite like help her in any way you can.

 

[Futile]

I don't have anyone to talk to irl

 

[dec132013]

In 9th grade I had two equally depressed friends, we'd talk about our plans a lot. All of us have attempted but none of us succeeded, since then I haven't told anyone off here.

 

[Darrenloses]

I told my gf during a fit in an argument that I ordered something to off myself with, I never told her what it was (SN) but I've now lied to her that I disposed of it as it's hidden in my house