Discussion Have you set a date? If so, how long do you have left?

[cujoh]

I'd love to set a date but I'm not sure when my next depressive episode will happen. My default state is passive ideation however every few months I'll wake up totally miserable and ready to die, i just never plan in advance. This time i have and i'm waiting for my next random episode to hit so SI doesn't get in the way.
Do you have a set date? I admire those of you who are such brilliant planners.
Btw i'm looking for someone to dm (preferably on discord) who could discuss suicide and advise me! my messages are open :3

 

[JustA_LittlePerson]

I've set many but never went through, but I think this time will finally be it

 

[Onelegman]

I have 9 days and a few hours left

 

[cujoh]

I've set many but never went through, but I think this time will finally be it

i wish you luck this time anon. bless :3

 

[Saturn_]

I'll probably never set an exact date. As for when I can expect to be six feet under: I don't even know anymore.

 

[TheLastBoyOnEarth]

35 days left. I'm waiting till all my relatives come to my city so they will be there for each other to grieve.

 

[Amnesiac_88]

I'm planning to live through the rest of the year and killing myself in January next year, I'm still afraid but hopefully next year i'll be ready

 

[tary]

January at the latest, I should run out of money then.

 

[Beyond_Repair]

About one month. Have the supplies and hotel booked, just waiting for the date

 

[Contraband]

9 days, next friday

 

[nozomu]

I've set multiple dates and missed my departure every time. Though, I'm running out of the option to wait...

 

[DolerDolerDoler]

assuming my mind doesn't change, it'll be on my birthday since you can only buy guns at 21 where I live

 

[thealteredmind]

January 2025

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[natthebrat]

dec. 22 of this year, which will be the day before my 28th birthday. hope I decide on a method soon

 

[divinemistress36]

January 2025

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Im thinking around then as well

 

[jbear824]

Idk. I don't want to get older than 50.

So if I somehow find myself alone by the time 50 rolls around, I'm doing it.

Can't right now because dying would put two people's lives directly into harm's way. And my stupid conscience and SI won't allow me.

I fucking hate this

 

[maneose]

i don't have a date but i'm thinking of september or october of this year, just far enough from my sisters and friends birthdays i hope <3 got three months at most if i decide to go through with it

 

[yxmux]

I'm thinking before school starts. Probably gonna place my SN order soon. If not that then maybe sometime before my 20th birthday, or 21st. I feel pretty old already so I don't care. I'm unsure how I'm going to deal with my parents and younger sister though.

 

[Sylveon]

About 6 months, if everything goes according to plan.

 

[thealteredmind]

Im thinking around then as well

why in your case? which conditions lead to that date?

 

[divinemistress36]

why in your case? which conditions lead to that date?

I want to get my disabilty back pay and blow it so waiting on that. Depression and brain injury. You?

 

[Cruelhearted]

As soon as I can figure out how to not screw up the desired result as much as I've let life get screwed up. It shouldn't be this hard.

 

[DeIetedUser4739]

No

 

[thealteredmind]

I want to get my disabilty back pay and blow it so waiting on that. Depression and brain injury. You?

(see my threads for more details)
depression (untreatable) + insomnia (also untreatable) + pssd + protracted benzo withdrawal

so basically.. pain + pain + more pain + eternal pain

I'm giving myself this year to try 1-2 more experiments... I already know they won't work but... I have to try. just at least to say to myself "I told you so, nothing works" or at least see if I miraculously recover from pssd and benzo.

 

[divinemistress36]

(see my threads for more details)
depression (untreatable) + insomnia (also untreatable) + pssd + protracted benzo withdrawal

so basically.. pain + pain + more pain + eternal pain

I'm giving myself this year to try 1-2 more experiments... I already know they won't work but... I have to try. just at least to say to myself "I told you so, nothing works" or at least see if I miraculously recover from pssd and benzo.

Benzo withdrawl is hell i wish you luck some say gabapentin can help with benzo withdrawls

 

[enduringwinter]

I have something that I want done before I go but it's sadly not up to me.

 

[LostSoul1965]

Benzo withdrawl is hell i wish you luck some say gabapentin can help with benzo withdrawls

It can but the withdrawals from Gabapentin are no joke either. Just as bad as Benzos in my opinion. Been through both. Both are hell on earth. Why I am here. Been damaged beyond repair by psych meds but the medical community will deny that's a real issue with these meds. they prescribe like candy.

 

[thealteredmind]

Benzo withdrawl is hell i wish you luck some say gabapentin can help with benzo withdrawls

nah this is protracted... which means hell forever. however it's not BIG HELL, it's small annoying hell but if you combine it with the rest of the things then... well... fuck it

and no... NO MORE DRUGS. EVER.

It can but the withdrawals from Gabapentin are no joke either. Just as bad as Benzos in my opinion. Been through both. Both are hell on earth. Why I am here. Been damaged beyond repair by psych meds but the medical community will deny that's a real issue with these meds. they prescribe like candy.

I mean if you (not you, it's a way of saying) start using gabapentin after being on benzo withdrawal then it means you are an idiot and haven't learned shit

FUCK PSYCH MEDS! FUCK PSYCHIATRIST, maybe I kill one of them before I go (just kidding, death is not enough for them)

 

[m1ll1pede]

Till july 4th, fireworks will be to loud to for people to here me choke

 

[countdowntoecstasy]

Not yet

I'd love to set a date but I'm not sure when my next depressive episode will happen. My default state is passive ideation however every few months I'll wake up totally miserable and ready to die, i just never plan in advance. This time i have and i'm waiting for my next random episode to hit so SI doesn't get in the way.
Do you have a set date? I admire those of you who are such brilliant planners.
Btw i'm looking for someone to dm (preferably on discord) who could discuss suicide and advise me! my messages are open :3

Not yet. Like you my episodes are pretty random. I decided only to only ctb if I'm absolutely certain.