Have you given up? If yes to what certain degree?

[noname223]

I think there are different levels of giving up. One can fully give up and do nothing or hoping for nothing. But I think there are also other levels. Just to give up on certain issues and not on the whole life as such.

I feel ashamed but I don't care much about the household or independence. It is kind of embarrassing but I don't care spending my energy on annoying chores. I concentrate my energy on not getting manic or psychotic again and not to fail college exams. If you are as ill as me this is really not easy. But I should be more independent. I rely a lot on the help of my parents.

If I met a girl who was interested in me and we would have a partnership I would change. Just so that she does not recognize my faults. But having a girlfriend is not really in reach. So I don't really feel like being forced to become more independent. If I cannot get a girlfriend why should I spend my energy on that.

But I have to say I care about hygiene and other things.

I just have the feeling if no wonder happens I will be forever alone. This lets me become apathetic about some issues. But this could change if this certain miracle happened. I have partly given up about finding a gf. I don't spend active time on finding one but I try to get into conversation with different people.

Are there certain things you have given up on?

 

[Suicidebydeath]

Just trying to convince myself to ctb now.

 

[FuneralCry]

Living never really interested me in the first place. My existence has always been very empty and I haven't really done much in my life. There hasn't been that much to give up on, but I continue to endure life and do what I feel a need to do until the day in which I will finally be free from it all. I don't like to think as suicide as 'giving up', as suicide could never be wrong, it's a human right and for me it's the best possible thing that could happen. Death is freedom from all problems and suffering.

 

[Ringo]

Studies, become independent again, live without guilt... I don't want to try again, I just don't have the desire or the motivation to get my life back on track after so many things, so far what I do is to keep up appearances, I want to plan my exit calmly and leave when I feel ready. I was never meant to be born anyway, I don't want to continue to be a cause of pain and disappointment.

 

[Hollowman]

I've given up on mental health professionals aka con artists.

 

[IfyouareamanWinston]

I have given up on the idea of living with out suffering constantly. I just assume everything is going to be difficult and I won't get a positive result or experience. Even though its depressing it make me feel safer then getting hurt emotionally every time . I am also 'lying flat' and not doing anything extra in life.

 

[ratgirl40216]

I think there are different levels of giving up. One can fully give up and do nothing or hoping for nothing. But I think there are also other levels. Just to give up on certain issues and not on the whole life as such.

I feel ashamed but I don't care much about the household or independence. It is kind of embarrassing but I don't care spending my energy on annoying chores. I concentrate my energy on not getting manic or psychotic again and not to fail college exams. If you are as ill as me this is really not easy. But I should be more independent. I rely a lot on the help of my parents.

If I met a girl who was interested in me and we would have a partnership I would change. Just so that she does not recognize my faults. But having a girlfriend is not really in reach. So I don't really feel like being forced to become more independent. If I cannot get a girlfriend why should I spend my energy on that.

But I have to say I care about hygiene and other things.

I just have the feeling if no wonder happens I will be forever alone. This lets me become apathetic about some issues. But this could change if this certain miracle happened. I have partly given up about finding a gf. I don't spend active time on finding one but I try to get into conversation with different people.

Are there certain things you have given up on?

Yes. I am basically just existing from one day to the next. I am dead inside

 

[outatime_85]

Yes. I am basically just existing from one day to the next. I am dead inside

This thought and (feeling) sound familiar.

 

[hellispink]

I gave up completely. I can't lie to myself. The world would still be disgusting even if good events were to happen to me. So regardless, my choice is to be gone. I don't wanna deal with humans anymore.

 

[Inkling]

Completely given up, too much of a coward though so I just let things get worse through stagnation hoping that one day they're so bad that I have no other option.

 

[Mofreeko]

Yep. Walked out of my job a month ago and never went back. Ignored the calls. I have more than enough money to make it to my planned date and I'm just taking it easy until then.

 

[PrisonBreak]

I have given up to my Illness. I think if I had it cured or treated, I would have persevered longer. Unfortunately, I cannot continue because I suffer from the illness(es).

 

[Life_and_Death]

like 99% given up. bpd has this stupid thing about holding on or else i would have completely given up a lot sooner

 

[timetosleep]

Yep. Walked out of my job a month ago and never went back. Ignored the calls. I have more than enough money to make it to my planned date and I'm just taking it easy until then.

I admire the courage to do such thing! I wish I can do the same. Instead, I am looking for a job at the moment, and it hasn't been easy.

 

[gh0stt0wn]

Ready to drift asap. My life is beyond repair and reputation forever tarnished.. Sad to say but ctb is the light at the end of the tunnel for me.

 

[Celerity]

I have given up on happiness and am very close to giving up on love before I ever even tried. Just edging toward a better life than this current bullshit requires a lot of energy.

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

I have given up on almost everything that ever mattered in my life. I am at that point that even if those health and other practical problems which were the final nail in the coffin for me last year, are somehow magically solved, I would still be unable to live my life and choose ctb.
I just exist because I am unable to ctb due to some reasons atm.