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diy-event

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Nov 16, 2024
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I have watched a number. Each time, I watch as if it were me and try to learn from it.
I find, in a detached way, that I am learning. But when I am not detached, I wonder if they were genuinely lonely as they died
 
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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

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I watch it all the time. Executions too. I barely feel anything anymore. I initially started watching it to try to feel something other than the pain of my spouse leaving me. I needed some anxiety by seeing people dying to stop myself from impulsive suicide attempts.
 
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Tommen Baratheon

Tommen Baratheon

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Dec 26, 2023
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I think it's morbid and won't watch things like that, but 'for science sake' they could be informative.

What method is used? If something is ingested, how much? How long until death? ...
 
Moniker

Moniker

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Nov 1, 2023
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I have. I don't remember why I watched them, but I didn't watch many of them. The ones I remember used firearms and those videos aren't very pleasant to watch with how messy it can be.
 
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I don't exist

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Tbh I stumbled upon this kind of thing on rotten.com etc. as a very, VERY young child and ever since I became sort of addicted to these videos in a way I still don't really understand.
 
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diy-event

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Nov 16, 2024
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I watch it all the time. Executions too. I barely feel anything anymore. I initially started watching it to try to feel something other than the pain of my spouse leaving me. I needed some anxiety by seeing people dying to stop myself from impulsive suicide attempts.
Do you think they would have been comforted if you were watching or witnessing at the time of the CTB - in person or on webcam?
 
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ma0

How did I get here?
Dec 20, 2024
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I watched the Ronnie McNutt suicide a few times, but I really ought to watch more.
 
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diy-event

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Nov 16, 2024
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Tbh I stumbled upon this kind of thing on rotten.com etc. as a very, VERY young child and ever since I became sort of addicted to these videos in a way I still don't really understand.
How do you feel if you were actually there when it was happening - would it comfort them, in person or on webcam?
I watched the Ronnie McNutt suicide a few times, but I really ought to watch more.
Did you learn anything from it?
 
KillingPain267

KillingPain267

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Do you think they would have been comforted if you were watching or witnessing at the time of the CTB - in person or on webcam?
The suicide ones yes. I think that's the reason they chose to film it. I never watched any livestreams ones though. Only what had been uploaded later.
 
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diy-event

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Nov 16, 2024
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The suicide ones yes. I think that's the reason they chose to film it. I never watched any livestreams ones though. Only what had been uploaded later.
Would you watch a live stream if asked?
 
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death_bed221

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Sep 23, 2024
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The only one I watched in full is of the girl taking sn. I wanted to see how it looks. Didn't seem that bad tbh
 
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I've watched death on camera before, not because of any immoral needs, or anything that is tragic. I have been a person that is absolute neutral, and people don't have to die alone; I didn't leave even till the last breath, but the most I can do, is show that I am there, with no judgement.
 
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diy-event

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I've watched death on camera before, not because of any immoral needs, or anything that is tragic. I have been a person that is absolute neutral, and people don't have to die alone; I didn't leave even till the last breath, but the most I can do, is show that I am there, with no judgement.
That is quite a beautiful statement. You seem very much like someone who would provide the support some would need in their final hours.

Thank you for responding to this thread
 
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I have watched some gory videos in the past of both people dying from accidents or even CTB and I suppose part of me is morbid curiosity. After seeing it, it gave me some idea and knowledge of what it looks like when someone is dying, however, no one except for the individual themselves dying would really know what it is like. The most evidence and experience we have of what 'dying' really feels like comes from those who either have NDEs (Near Death Experiences), or those who failed to CTB and somehow survived.
 
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diy-event

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Nov 16, 2024
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I have watched some gory videos in the past of both people dying from accidents or even CTB and I suppose part of me is morbid curiosity.
I understand the morbid curiosity - even if I have a "higher" reason to look at sucide videos, the curiosity is always there

After seeing it, it gave me some idea and knowledge of what it looks like when someone is dying, however, no one except for the individual themselves dying would really know what it is like.
Agreed - but you do learn how your body might respond


The most evidence and experience we have of what 'dying' really feels like comes from those who either have NDEs (Near Death Experiences), or those who failed to CTB and somehow survived.


Do you ever think that had you been there in person or on webcam, you would have made it a less lonely experience
 
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Forever Sleep

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Only really the ones made at clinics. I don't seek out gore or anything like that. I guess I was curious really as to how fast and painless it was.

I can see why people do it to prepare themselves for their method. I think it might scare me too much though. If I'm going to do it, I'll go through whatever it is either way. Maybe some forewarning would be good but too much and it might put me off all together.
 
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Yes, to learn how to do it correctly.
 
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vercabow

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Nov 22, 2024
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i've watched people hang themselves just to see what it'll be like for me. honestly i think it's mandatory if you want to ctb because i feel like it mentally prepares you for the attempt.
 
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Dec 23, 2023
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The only suicide video that has shaken me was of two schoolgirls jumping off a rooftop together. The fact two people with the exact same idea found each other and carried out a suicide without hesitation really surprises me. I do not think I have interacted with a person that experiences genuine suicidal intent apart from some users of this site.
 
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I used to. I think maybe I was trying to talk myself out of killing myself.
I can't watch it anymore. I'm a deeply empathetic person & can't stand watching human suffering or death.
Its life changing in a very bad way for me. That stuff just cant be unseen 🤗🌹💔
 
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L'absent

L'absent

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Videos of that genre offer a unique perspective that written documentation can't always capture. It's true, we shouldn't take everything at face value, but seeing other people's experiences enriches us and allows us to learn in a more concrete way. Thanking those who share their experiences is essential, because it helps us grow and deepen our knowledge. Continuing to explore and learn is truly a never-ending journey!
 
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Did you learn much

If you had seen it live or on webcam, do you think you would have added comfort to person dying>
Not really if I'm being honest.

It depends. I won't be comforting someone who is hanging themselves, I don't think that will work. Those who ctb by sn might benefit from it though. I'm not fit for such a thing either way anyways.
 
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diy-event

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Videos of that genre offer a unique perspective that written documentation can't always capture. It's true, we shouldn't take everything at face value, but seeing other people's experiences enriches us and allows us to learn in a more concrete way. Thanking those who share their experiences is essential, because it helps us grow and deepen our knowledge. Continuing to explore and learn is truly a never-ending journey!
Do you think it would comfort the person if you had witness lived on a webcam - just knowing there are people are there
 
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Do you think it would comfort the person if you had witness lived on a webcam - just knowing there are people are there
I do not know. It probably depends on the type of person. I have assisted many people in death, both at home and in hospital. But in this case I couldn't answer you.
 
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diy-event

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Nov 16, 2024
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I do not know. It probably depends on the type of person. I have assisted many people in death, both at home and in hospital. But in this case I couldn't answer you.
Have you ever done an assisted suicide in a hospital or health care centre