Have you ever thought about killing someone?

[Lifeless mindset]

There're times where I get so angry that I just want to kill someone, times where I'm calm and quiet but my thoughts are flooded with visuals of me doing some pretty horrible things, especially to the persons body after killing them. Have i ever killed anyone? No. Do I plan on killing anyone? No. Do I fantasize about it sometimes? Yes but I always have to tell literally tell myself "shut the fuck up" or "you know what will happen if you keep entertaining these thoughts". I made a promise to myself id kill myself before I ever killed or injured anyone else. I love people but at the same time hate them with a burning passion, its weird.
Have you had any thoughts like this?

 

[Darkover]

sure i have a few times in the past we have primate minds in a fit of rage it's normal to want to kill someone for revenge, we have dirty and dark minds we fantasy about lots of crazy shit there's no harm caused so long as you never act it out. sounds like you might have a bit of psychosis

 

[marinekiwi]

I think everyone at some point fantasized with the idea of killing someone.
As with everything, the key here is those who just fantasize, and those who actually act on it.

 

[lobster salad]

Yes, I am thinking about killing people once in a while. I just want to hurt them, curious To know what it will make me feel. Usually I just want to kill my mom, but sometimes I fantasize about killing others who turned on me in the past. Get the death penalty. Kind of feel I'm crazy. Honestly though I will never have the balls to follow thru with killing someone who's not me, and actually it's a good thing

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

Sometimes.

 

[phoenixx]

Yes. I've been very homicidal in the past. The thoughts and urges still come back every now and then. I even had a visit from the police one time because I talked to someone and told them that I had these types of thoughts. Bad idea. Thought it was confidential, obviously not. But I was doing really bad at the time, had strong urges and I really thought I was going to go outside and kill someone.

 

[AtMostOkay]

Oh, hell to the yes.

 

[FuneralCry]

No. I have known some horrible people over the years, but I have only ever thought about killing myself. I do not have any anger towards anyone at this point. I am just tired of being alive, all I want is to be at peace.

 

[Mashedout]

I would only want to erase all life and end suffering. Taking only a few out just perpetuates it.

 

[Hangman]

Many times. Though as time goes, the less I want to kill anybody else, and the more I want to kill myself. Most problems in my life are my own fault. There have been people who have bullied me, threatened me and misjudged me, but I don't really hold grudges that much towards them anymore. I'm pretty much as bad as they are. I'm the problem. Also, I wouldn't probably be able to kill anyone... and I don't think it would be in any way enjoyable.

 

[Huntfish34]

Yes I have had thoughts about this every now and then.... Came pretty close to actually doing it around a year ago though. Glad I didn't. Was a very chaotic and scary situation to say the Least.

 

[NormaJeane]

I think that all people can kill someone - it is just about being pressured into it, but more men than women are criminals. I believe that all carnivores are programmed to kill in order to survive - that was what the stone age man had to do.

 

[Ch92921]

Yes my bully.

 

[Someone123]

There are people I know who deserve it and if I was determined over time I probably could get one of them, but I won't do it because if you do this and shoot yourself and you don't die you'll go to prison- it's not worth that risk for me, so I guess I'll have to leave any justice in the hands of god.

 

[blueclover_.]

Yeah, my dad. Because he tried to kill me, my sister, and my mom multiple times. So i would've tried to do the same out of impulse had i didn't think through the consequences. I hate that i'm similar to him, physically and mentally. Being alone makes me feel calm.

 

[Someone123]

Yeah, my dad. Because he tried to kill me, my sister, and my mom multiple times. So i would've tried to do the same out of impulse had i didn't think through the consequences. I hate that i'm similar to him, physically and mentally. Being alone makes me feel calm.

I understand this, having been through hell with my family and then with false friends/bullies, but the biggest curse of this situation is that over time you may not realize the this calmness you get from being alone gradually becomes loneliness and this becomes deeper and more of a trap over time; being alone too much, when people are designed to talk to talk each other and laugh with each other, etc. So it would be a good idea to look for chances to reach out and connect with people who are nice to you.

 

[blueclover_.]

I understand this, having been through hell with my family and then with false friends/bullies, but the biggest curse of this situation is that over time you may not realize the this calmness you get from being alone gradually becomes loneliness and this becomes deeper and more of a trap over time; being alone too much, when people are designed to talk to talk each other and laugh with each other, etc. So it would be a good idea to look for chances to reach out and connect with people who are nice to you.

Yeah i get it. I do feel lonely sometimes, but it'll pass. I still talk to people about school and stuff, but anything personal? only to my ex... she's the only genuine person i know, lol.

 

[ascetic_]

I've only ever thought about it in the context of fantasy, like imagining myself in a John Wick movie or something.

 

[ClownMe]

My mum, because she is an abusive and manipulative bitch.