Discussion have you ever made promises to someone that you won’t ever ctb?

[bunny_brownie9]

saying 'no' raises suspicions.

Do you feel bad that you're going to break them?

 

[N33dT0D13]

Only to myself, when I was a teenager. It doesn't count if I just die from drugs or drink or doing dumb shit lol

 

[null_blank]

I've promised my partner that I won't do it

and yes it doesn't feel good that I'll make myself a liar :c

 

[Praestat_Mori]

No.

I was never in such a situation. Such a promise puts you into an agonizing trap. That's why I would never give such a promise.

 

[iloveunicorns]

The first one i made this promise to already CTB herself
I feel bad about the others i made this promise too, but i can't take it anymore

 

[kunikuzushi]

Yes and I honestly might've stayed alive for them, but they don't care about me anymore

 

[SilentSadness]

I haven't, such promises mean nothing anyway, you can't promise away basic human rights.

 

[ThatGuyOverThere]

When I tried to CTB as a 12 year old my mother was concerned, that I would try it again, and so to relive any of her suspicions, made a promise to her that I would Never Try something so "stupid" ever again.

I of course lied, as I did have, and still do have intentions of Catching The Bus, needless of what her opinions are.

 

[nir]

I have. I was going to a funeral for a friend with my sister - the friend had killed himself - and my sister made me promise I wouldn't ever kill myself. She's not a very emotional person, so seeing her suddenly so desperate and pleading made me promise on the spot. The entire funeral, I had this pit in my stomach. I kept imagining I was at my own funeral, and how awful it would be to put people through this.

Still might ctb some day, but I would need extenuating circumstances. I don't like breaking promises unless I have a crazy good reason to do so. I'm definitely not anti-suicide, I think we all have a right to live and a right to die too, but the funeral had a real effect on me. Almost like a "Scared Straight" scenario.

 

[Shinobu]

I think I promised my mom, and maybe some friends but that doesn't matter now as I've made a promise to myself to CTB no matter what, I gave life too many chances to improve and every time I did it got worse

 

[notsohpy]

saying 'no' raises suspicions.

Do you feel bad that you're going to break them?

I Would Never Promise that but again ive Never been asked that question. But i feel Bad knowing they will suffer Like i do when im gone.

 

[vesisika]

no. I don't make promises that I can't keep.

 

[Gangrel]

yeah, i promise all the time to my partner but i think of breaking that promise all the time...it's not really fair to hold up someone to that promise

 

[baller]

Yep, maybe 2-3 years ago. We're not as close anymore and I doubt he remembers it

 

[VentureOverwatch]

I made a promise about 2 months ago too my close friend from work after another coworker CTB. She struggles with her own thoughts of CTB, and she has told me my death would break her, but I'm getting tired of living for other people.

 

[ThisIsMe1357]

No I have not promised any such thing to anybody and even if someone asked me directly to promise them, I think I am 80% sure I would not...I might do it during certain circumstances (you never know), but it is much more likely that would not happen.

And I would not care at all if the word "no" raised suspicions, I might just explain that with the following answer: "You never know what might happen to you later in life, even after 20 years from now, what if something horrible happens to me and it destroys my life completely?"

 

[Lady Laudanum]

Yes. But that person probably hates me now and never wants to see or hear from me again. So maybe my promise doesn't matter anymore.

 

[avalonisburning]

I never make promises unless I'm absolutely certain I can keep them. If someone asked me to promise them that, I would flatly say that I can't.

 

[Ramsay Fiction]

I made the promise in the past, even relatively recently. I've come to the realization that I'm not going to make the promise any further. The exception maybe being if I think being truthful is going to be a bigger headache.

 

[Oyasumidanny]

Yes, I promised my grandmother so now I'm just condemned to live until shes not longer here neither

 

[Soupster]

no. I don't make promises that I can't keep.

This. Granted refusing to lie about it has gotten me admitted to the hospital in the past, but I'm not going to promise anyone that I won't ctb.

 

[GuessWhosBack]

No promises.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Not anymore.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

The second girl I ever liked I promised her that I wouldn't kill myself over her not choosing to be with me. She assured me that if I had just been faster then I would have had a chance but maybe that's just wishful thinking on my part. I held off on feeling any suicidal tendencies for about 4-5 years until joining this site because she made me promise. She even gave me a story about someone who killed themselves when she was in third grade and how even though she didn't know them that well, she was saddened by how emotionally affected everyone else around her seemed. I'm sure that third grader wasn't an evil person like me though. When I CTB I can only hope more people will be grateful that a miserable incel virgin like me has finally been eliminated.

 

[LittleMoose]

The only time I've ever promised not to CTB is when I was seeing my trauma therapist. She would make me promise that I would see her for our next appointment.

 

[qu13t5l33p]

If you count telling psych ward doctors that you won't after they discharge you, then a bunch of times. Otherwise no. That's not a promise I'd want to make in earnest.

 

[3/4Dead]

Nope, only ever for short periods of time and I have always been clear about it. "I will not kill myself tonight, you can go to bed" never that i wouldn't do it ever though.

 

[etherealspring]

ive told ppl that i wont promise anything, but ill try to hang on. i was never trying. i have full intentions of CTB, and i feel terribly guilty for lying. but i just dont know what to do. i want to be honest and open towards ppl ik but they just jump to insisting that they need me to stay alive instead of trying to understand me. i feel trapped

 

[Kavka]

I'm pretty sure I haven't and I don't intend to. Although I have made promises for shorter periods of time so that people don't initially panic or are left in a constant state of worry and uncertainty.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

No I promise now that I will kill myself soon