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- Aug 18, 2020
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I just had this thought when I took a walk. I think I stepped on an ant accidentally. Yeah I thought I have just killed a sentient being. Maybe it had no pain I don't have much knowledge about ants. I think many here in this forum have experienced abuse, torture, horrible pain and traumata. Some people like that develop strange and counterproductive ways to cope by that. I think many sociopaths torture animals in their childhood. Though I don't think there are many sociopaths in this forum. Hopefully.
I think some children kill animals for fun. Just another reason for me why I don't like children. I can remember that a friend of my sister killed a lot earthworms on accident. He did it in the most brutal way possible. I think he wanted to impress her by that. Yeah children can be pretty sick.
But maybe I am just hypocritical. I can remember I think on 1-2 days in my life as a child I killed some ants on purpose. It really was more for fun. I wanted to feel mighty. I know that is pretty disgusting. I immediately regretted it after I did that. But I repeated it on another day I think.
Obviously I regret it.
I don't know why but for killing these ants for fun is different than killing spiders because I am scared about them. Spiders are important animals for our environment though I still can't sleep with one hanging over my bed. And I can fully understand why people want to kill bugs.
What are your thoughts on that? It also reminded me about my hypocritical relation to eating animals. When I eat them I try to distract me from the fact that they were once sentient beings. Otherwise I get the feeling to throw up. I don't eat much meat but it would be difficult for me to abstain from that fully.
I think some children kill animals for fun. Just another reason for me why I don't like children. I can remember that a friend of my sister killed a lot earthworms on accident. He did it in the most brutal way possible. I think he wanted to impress her by that. Yeah children can be pretty sick.
But maybe I am just hypocritical. I can remember I think on 1-2 days in my life as a child I killed some ants on purpose. It really was more for fun. I wanted to feel mighty. I know that is pretty disgusting. I immediately regretted it after I did that. But I repeated it on another day I think.
Obviously I regret it.
I don't know why but for killing these ants for fun is different than killing spiders because I am scared about them. Spiders are important animals for our environment though I still can't sleep with one hanging over my bed. And I can fully understand why people want to kill bugs.
What are your thoughts on that? It also reminded me about my hypocritical relation to eating animals. When I eat them I try to distract me from the fact that they were once sentient beings. Otherwise I get the feeling to throw up. I don't eat much meat but it would be difficult for me to abstain from that fully.
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