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Giorgiandrea

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Nov 21, 2023
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I've always been curious about death since i was a child, the mistery behind on what comes next always have floated my mind and started questioning myself stuff like "what happened if someone dies" or "what if i died?".
At first was just some thoughts, but then it happened that i dreamt about it sometimes, deaths and deaths about me, family, friends, strangers and even people that might or might not exist.
It slowly not only be a usual thing everynight, but it had patterns i could notice as the years passed by: Events that happened before death - sometimes other people die - i die.
I know, not as detailed patterns as i would expect but everytime it's something different, i might dream of hours or sometime can pass years or even decades; the people that might die during this time can be either by something or even my own hands; my death can also be different, maybe sometimes it can be repeated like if i jumped from a building in a dream a mouth ago i could probably jump from a building tonight.
I don't know if i'm the only one that have this kind of dreams, sorry for the bad english as it is not my first language.
 
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the_path_of_sorrows

the_path_of_sorrows

Different routes, same destination
Nov 26, 2023
119
I have, far too many times. My dreams tend to be about death only, shit looking quite vivid and haunting me for weeks after. I still remember that one dream that I had 2 or 3 nights before trying to ctb back in 2021 when our plane crashed and I actually thought that I died to the point where I kind of felt my soul leaving, that insane peace, darkness suffocating the insides, felt my heartbeat getting slower and even been thinking "that's it. Now I gotta do better in my next reincarnation".. Pure insanity, still feels surreal. So, I get what you mean.
 
MyLifeisHell

MyLifeisHell

I'm in hell
Jul 23, 2022
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They say life is but a dream...
 
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Morte

Morte

Specialist
Nov 23, 2023
397
I remember a dream I was still in high school and a planet similar to Earth was about to collide with us. Everyone at school decided to have a farewell party and at the end of the party the planet finally hits us. I wake up and theres only lava around me and I can't understand why I didn't die. So I simply say to myself "that was a hell of party, time to go home" and the dream ends.
 
tiger b

tiger b

AI without the I
Oct 24, 2023
1,229
Oh yeah, and I usually wake up.

Hoping for the same again at the end of this one!
 
zeldalover

zeldalover

Everybody agrees 👏🏼
May 16, 2023
95
Many many times. Ironically there was one dream I had when I was in middle school where I had to CTB and I was very close to being successful and I was surrounded by my friends at the time - I passed out in the dream and literally within the dream dreamed I was getting on a school bus when I didn't even know that was a phrase associated with killing oneself. I dreamed I was getting on the school bus, people on the bus were giving me photos of my life, and then I got off the bus and was surrounded by darkness. I remember feeling like my chest was suffocating, literally just walking further into darkness, and felt myself stop breathing. And then I woke up. Still to this day I wonder if that night I almost did die in my sleep, but I didn't do anything to cause that.
 
mashka9

mashka9

Member
Oct 4, 2023
47
i recently had a dream where i ctb with a friend of mine
 
SleepySept

SleepySept

Member
Nov 7, 2023
61
It's weird for me, in that the only dream I have died at the end was during the only year in my life I learned about wanting to live. I was in the front seat of a car, and I was going to crash into a wall and I was terrified of the impact and my life ending suddenly without being in control or any time to process it. During that period of my life I was constantly scared of accidents because I couldn't trust how happy I was to last forever.

Otherwise, my other nightmares never have me dying. I'm always running away in them despite how frightening it is to, and I honestly wish in them I would just give up.
 
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user56765567

In recovery and getting help
Oct 1, 2023
153
I've had a lot of different death dreams like that especially when I was younger. I remember this one week when I had the same exact death dream for five days in a row where I just kept getting hit by the same truck in the middle of nowhere on some desert road before things went black and It felt like I was falling and losing myself and then I would wake up in a terrified cold sweat.
 
hopelessoceanic25

hopelessoceanic25

Agony.
Nov 29, 2023
68
I've been having consistent dreams recently where it's always me trying different ctb methods. Not sure if it's foreshadowing something. I hope it is.
 
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ropearoundatree

Experienced
Nov 9, 2023
212
Yes, but ironically... it usually isn't involving suicide, but rather--for whatever reason: more, "natural causes!" Now these tend to be rather violent means to ends, but... Or the last moments before impact of a fatal collision, things like that. Some one coming to shoot me. And they're aiming the barrel at me. Good times-
 

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