Have you ever feel that the universe conspires against you?

[niki wonoto]

Literally in almost everything you do, no matter how good your intention or what you're trying to do, in the end eventually sooner or later everything just keep failing & crumbling down to nothing. I don't know why. It's like I have bad lucks even in small little things. Everything doesn't work out, even when I've already at least tried. Nothing matters.

I don't even know anymore what to do, or even what to believe. I don't know what I did wrong. I don't even know anymore, if god does exist (or any 'spiritual' system like karma or "law of attraction" thing etc etc), what is my sins that somehow the universe just keep punishing me again & again & again, even when I've already at least tried to do good. Of course I know I'm far from perfect. I even admit that. I'm just only a human being, who can make mistakes. But why all of these happened to me?

Of course people will have different opinions about this, depending on their belief system, worldview, background, mindset, etc etc etc. So I don't even know anymore which one is true?

Why the universe seems so cruel to me?
Why some people have all the 'good lucks/fortune' basically living their dreams, success, & happiness, but somehow, the universe just doesn't allow me to experience the same thing?
Am I really cursed, or a jinx, or something like that? I don't know anymore

Am I really that bad of a person, that somehow god (or universe etc etc) just keeps bringing me down?

It makes me even much more depressed.

Why?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

That's a good topic! I can fully follow up with you! Yes I have that feeling since years, but I didn't say to myself it's the universe behind it, it's destiny that does everything to destroy me and my life and my future (Universe / Destiny / God whatever, in the end it's the same). It feels like there's a power behind it, that makes me feel like "Now you could have a turn around, now it's getting better, just a little bit more luck and you're outa this hole" But then it crushes me even deeper into the whole.

Yes I have that same feeling since years like you, since my downward spiral started, there's no way out unless destiny is in favour to me again. But maybe this isn't gonna happen soon, probably not before I CTB ....

 

[Forever Sleep]

I have mixed experience with this really. I often think I have bad luck- like- if there's 50% chance of something being right or wrong- I'll get it wrong. Still- maybe that's because I focus more on my failures.

In terms of the universe though- we are specks of dust. I don't think fate/the universe particularly cares about us- stuff just happens randomly I think.

What I would say though is- life FEELS worse if you are convinced you are being persecuted. If you feel like you constantly fail- or, things conspire to make you fail- that's bound to knock your confidence. Even if you are incredibly resilient and keep trying in life- perhaps you won't be quite as commited- feeling sure disaster is on the horizon to someone who is super confident and likes their chances.

I think TO SOME EXTENT- manifestation is a thing. If somewhere inside you- you think you were born to struggle- chances are, you probably will- because you're looking for new evidence that you ARE in fact cursed. I guess the real question is- can anyone really get over this? Can a pessimist become an optimist? I'm not so sure.

 

[Vizzy]

Literally in almost everything you do, no matter how good your intention or what you're trying to do, in the end eventually sooner or later everything just keep failing & crumbling down to nothing. I don't know why. It's like I have bad lucks even in small little things. Everything doesn't work out, even when I've already at least tried. Nothing matters.

I don't even know anymore what to do, or even what to believe. I don't know what I did wrong. I don't even know anymore, if god does exist (or any 'spiritual' system like karma or "law of attraction" thing etc etc), what is my sins that somehow the universe just keep punishing me again & again & again, even when I've already at least tried to do good. Of course I know I'm far from perfect. I even admit that. I'm just only a human being, who can make mistakes. But why all of these happened to me?

Of course people will have different opinions about this, depending on their belief system, worldview, background, mindset, etc etc etc. So I don't even know anymore which one is true?

Why the universe seems so cruel to me?
Why some people have all the 'good lucks/fortune' basically living their dreams, success, & happiness, but somehow, the universe just doesn't allow me to experience the same thing?
Am I really cursed, or a jinx, or something like that? I don't know anymore

Am I really that bad of a person, that somehow god (or universe etc etc) just keeps bringing me down?

It makes me even much more depressed.

Why?

God doesn't exist!

humans are so good in creating something which doesn't exist and good in spreading that stupidity to others

We all see what happens when someone die still we make up things with no proof, you and me are just in a cycle of life, we born, we die and nature does the process after we die!

Life is not fair to everyone even successful people have their own problems and you are not a bad person!

 

[The anhedonic one]

I don't believe in a god in the religious sense.
I do believe however that there is a possibility of something like the archons existing.
In gnosticism, the archons are a group of extremely sadistic supernatural beings who love to feed off our negative energy that is produced by all human suffering.

If that is the case then they have had a lot of fun with me because everything of any value in my life has all gone horribly wrong.
And all for no logical reason whatsoever.

 

[Artictart]

I don't believe in a god or a higher power of any sort, can't really say if there's an afterlife or anything like that so i'm skeptical. I just think there's something wrong with me and the way i think/approach things. It feels like i'm not meant to be happy, bad things happen so often and even if good things happen i'm still unhappy and anxious.
If there is some higher power then they sure pick fucking favorites.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just no deeper meaning or purpose to the way that existence is, everything is cruelly determined by chance and we exist in a world where existing beings suffer all through no fault of their own, existence is just so chaotic and random after all.

And I think the need for people to try and find deeper meanings behind this is a result of their ability to be conscious and aware, but if people ask those kinds of questions then they just won't find any answers. This is because the reality is that existence is just meaningless suffering and senseless cruelty, we are enduring this pointless existence all because other people were selfish enough to procreate and we are destined for nothing but to cease existing and return to the ideal state of non-existence with everything finally forgotten about.

 

[leavingsoon99]

It feels like this reality is programmed against me, but there's some force that also helps me out every now and then. Not enough to make me stay, but it makes this experience somewhat not as terrible. I feel you.