HereToday

HereToday

Arcanist
Dec 27, 2019
437
Either before or during. How did the person react, and treat you afterwards?

I was 'saved' by my narcissistic psychopath ex. By saved I mean that after establishing that I'd overdosed he drove me half an hour away from the hospital to my parents house to get praise for helping, instead of just helping. He continued to be an abusive asshole afterwards, treating me like shit and using me for money. He even made me book him a weekend trip for his birthday, then ghosted me out of nowhere 3 weeks after my attempt (before the trip and without paying me back). Why save someone just to put them through even more shit, then ghost them?! If you care so little about me that you ghost me, why not just fucking let me die in the first place.

My parents (also abusive) also continued with the same behaviour they had before the attempt, but had the audacity to use it for attention and pity from others. They then went on a 2 month vacation and text me twice a month letting me know what they're doing. No sign of asking how I am or what I'm up to though. Lol.

Has anyone else had any experience of being found or 'saved'? More positive than mine, I hope
 
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MysticPerception

MysticPerception

I'm back and I'll still smile for you
Dec 31, 2019
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Never been saved since I'm very careful about when I think about making an attempt even on impulse in the past. That's horrible though that you were treated like that. I hope that you can go out on your own terms if you choose to do so and don't have anyone abusive taking away your freedom like that again.
 
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enlightened_suicide

enlightened_suicide

How do you know, this isn't all a dream?
Jan 4, 2020
112
I'm so sorry you had to deal with this that seems awful...

One of my most notable attempts I drank &huffed paint thinner, slit my throat and wrists and tried to set the house on fire while I passedout from the fumes and blood loss, and was ultimately found from the smoke of my house burning down... I was so close to ctb it was'nt funny I then spent the next 2 weeks in a hospital getting the methynol pumped from my blood and having to suffer by myself with only a single nurse who was actually nice to me. who did not work every day..Then after the chemicals were drained from my blood .. they sent me to the ward.. again. (which just fucked me up like usual .. just wanting 2 get out and try a more effective way...)
That's the hardest part not being found.. I guess next time I will just find some woods to get lost in.

But they treated me like I was an actual human being for less than 2 weeks, then it was back to the screaming.. arguing.. me being worthless and being blamed 4 everything all over again ... people don't care bc they are not on the same emotional level & have never felt the emptiness tht controls us.. they buy into the lies humanity offers.
 
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HereToday

HereToday

Arcanist
Dec 27, 2019
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Never been saved since I'm very careful about when I think about making an attempt even on impulse in the past. That's horrible though that you were treated like that. I hope that you can go out on your own terms if you choose to do so and don't have anyone abusive taking away your freedom like that again.
Yeah mine was definitely impulse, the only reason I've waited around since then is to make sure I get it right this time. My plan is SN in a hotel room.
It's crazy that people think they're doing you a favour by 'saving' you and then going right back to old habits, or even abandoning you. How tf is that going to make me change my mind and want to live? Unless they don't care about that, just their 'hero' status... Society sucks
 
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Fragile

Fragile

Broken
Jul 7, 2019
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yeah, i was saved from my first attempt and it completely changed the way my family treated me.

at first they treated me like a wounded pet, a lot of care but with constant surveillance and such. it completely changed the dynamic and even to this day they treat me in a similar way.

too bad that all the love in the world can't cure my chronic illnesses. makes me feel guilty to feel suicidal.
 
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enlightened_suicide

enlightened_suicide

How do you know, this isn't all a dream?
Jan 4, 2020
112
Yeah mine was definitely impulse, the only reason I've waited around since then is to make sure I get it right this time. My plan is SN in a hotel room.
It's crazy that people think they're doing you a favour by 'saving' you and then going right back to old habits, or even abandoning you. How tf is that going to make me change my mind and want to live? Unless they don't care about that, just their 'hero' status... Society sucks

Society REALLY sucks ... it's all just a gold star syndrome..
 
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TheOA

Student
Jan 5, 2020
101
My first attempt was interrupted by an impromptu and unannounced visit from my best friend at that time. She basically had access to my home and came right in where she found me at the table with the empty bottle. She did not force the situation but suggested I go to the ER. I did and by the time we arrived, I remember the taste of charcoal and then....nothing until I awoke in ICU 3 days later.
 
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HopeDiesLast

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Dec 28, 2019
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@HereToday, I'm so sorry you were treated so badly after your attempt! That's horrible.

I hope you don't mind if I add a slightly more humorous experience:

I had a family member call the police after I overdosed on OTC meds (NOT a well planned-out attempt, obviously). When the cops showed up I hid under the bed. One of the officers grabbed my ankles and tried to yank me out pretty forcefully. I was holding on to a bedpost and it broke, and the bed collapsed on top of me, hitting me in the head! When I got to the hospital I was first treated for the overdose. The doctor then ordered an MRI to make sure there was no brain bleed from getting hit in the head. Well, it turns out I'm allergic to the contrast dye used for MRIs and I went into respiratory arrest and had to be intubated! No brain bleed...but the MRI almost killed me. Oh the irony. :pfff:
 
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Nem

Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
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Made a plan to die due to hell I've suffered from a dangerous med reaction, was brought to the hospital and sociopath ex broke up with me the next day. My ex is the reason that my life is fucked
Peace/hugs
 
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HereToday

HereToday

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Dec 27, 2019
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@HereToday, I'm so sorry you were treated so badly after your attempt! That's horrible.

I hope you don't mind if I add a slightly more humorous experience:

I had a family member call the police after I overdosed on OTC meds (NOT a well planned-out attempt, obviously). When the cops showed up I hid under the bed. One of the officers grabbed my ankles and tried to yank me out pretty forcefully. I was holding on to a bedpost and it broke, and the bed collapsed on top of me, hitting me in the head! When I got to the hospital I was first treated for the overdose. The doctor then ordered an MRI to make sure there was no brain bleed from getting hit in the head. Well, it turns out I'm allergic to the contrast dye used for MRIs and I went into respiratory arrest and had to be intubated! No brain bleed...but the MRI almost killed me. Oh the irony. :pfff:
You hid under the bed? IT COLLAPSED?! I feel bad for laughing at this but that's hilarious! Wow I think I've finally found someone as unlucky as me! Glad you're still here to tell the tale. Ideally you wouldn't attempt again, but if you do make sure you pick a better method/hiding place next time :pfff:
 
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HopeDiesLast

self-banned
Dec 28, 2019
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You hid under the bed? IT COLLAPSED?! I feel bad for laughing at this but that's hilarious! Wow I think I've finally found someone as unlucky as me! Glad you're still here to tell the tale. Ideally you wouldn't attempt again, but if you do make sure you pick a better method/hiding place next time :pfff:

It's okay to laugh! This was 10 years ago...and in hindsight, it's really comical. The cop probably thought "Oops. I think I just killed her." :haha:
 
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Lotus

Lotus

Experienced
Dec 17, 2019
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@HereToday, I'm so sorry you were treated so badly after your attempt! That's horrible.

I hope you don't mind if I add a slightly more humorous experience:

I had a family member call the police after I overdosed on OTC meds (NOT a well planned-out attempt, obviously). When the cops showed up I hid under the bed. One of the officers grabbed my ankles and tried to yank me out pretty forcefully. I was holding on to a bedpost and it broke, and the bed collapsed on top of me, hitting me in the head! When I got to the hospital I was first treated for the overdose. The doctor then ordered an MRI to make sure there was no brain bleed from getting hit in the head. Well, it turns out I'm allergic to the contrast dye used for MRIs and I went into respiratory arrest and had to be intubated! No brain bleed...but the MRI almost killed me. Oh the irony. :pfff:

And I was thinking of hiding under the bed if the police would break into my apartment again. I will definately reconsider. :)) Thanks for sharing your story though. I really needed it on a night like this.:hug:
 
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TotallyIsolated

Mage
Nov 25, 2019
590
I stood on the railing of a motorway bridge. I wasn't going to jump, I just wanted to feel something. It was late at night but someone driving past must have seen me, and they pulled up to 'rescue' me. By the time he got there I had already gotten down and was just sat there - heart pounding and adrenaline racing. He very kidly offered to drive me home, which was kind of annoying because I just wanted to sit there, but I agreed out of embarassment!
 
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HereToday

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Dec 27, 2019
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I stood on the railing of a motorway bridge. I wasn't going to jump, I just wanted to feel something. It was late at night but someone driving past must have seen me, and they pulled up to 'rescue' me. By the time he got there I had already gotten down and was just sat there - heart pounding and adrenaline racing. He very kidly offered to drive me home, which was kind of annoying because I just wanted to sit there, but I agreed out of embarassment!
As annoying as it may have been at the time, what a kind stranger! What was the conversation like in the car?
 
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TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
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I have never been saved from an attempt per se, mainly because I never really made a "real" attempt. I've planned and contemplated CTB before, but never actually got to attempting. Since my method is going to be a one-shot attempt, I don't have the chance to attempt, only the chance to get used to the positioning of the weapon.
 
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enjoy

Creature
Dec 20, 2019
337
ironically enough, my ex saved me from ctb on countless occasions while her and i were still together. my friends have also saved me before. a little over a week before i joined ss, i'd tried to catch the psychogenic bus before winter break. one of my friends broke in and forced me to eat and shower. it was pretty humiliating.
 
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