Have you considered that you're already dead after your first attempt?

[Cyagangy]

I attempted 14 times in September before realizing that either my method sucked or I sucked at doing it but now something has occured to me. What if I'm already dead? My brain can't comprehend that my life ended so it just continues on like this. I find the notion kind of pathetic but also it sounds hellish. Maybe it's because of how similar it is to quantum immortality as a concept. Which I also believe, technically in your perspective you never die you never see it and your brain for the most part can't process it. I look around me and take in signs and call backs on my life and some to this very forum. I like the graphics they have here and how I can find similar stuff in the real world. I personally think I'm dead and beyond this point nothing is real. Technically I have no reason to do anything but I do just because I feel like it and because I need to occupy my time. I dunno this was just a thought that I felt needed to be expressed.

 

[Lily6759]

Quantum immortality is a really interesting theory to me, and I constantly think about it. I recently had a flurry of attempts, so if it were a correct theory, I'm the unfortunate 1 out of 20 or so versions of me that stayed alive (though, I'm staying alive for someone now, who I'm glad to stay alive for).
You theory is really interesting, but I think it depends on your perspective of what happens after you die. If there is an afterlife, like hell for example, I believe many of us would end up in a reality no different from a continuation of how we currently are living, which would support your theory.
Personally, I see death as a complete ending. Your brain shuts off and everything goes dark and then you are at peace, no longer existing in any way.
The thing is, if you are right, it would likely be impossible to confirm if you are dead or not. It's a decision you have to make as to whether you believe it.

 

[RoseGirl]

I'm still alive and when i last tried to kill myself SI said that it wasn't my time yet :c

 

[22yearsbroken]

Its quite a good philosophical question... but if had truly died 10 years ago... then i guess, i would then have to question being an agnostic atheist... and except that i have an answer... and that i have not made it skyward bound but ive travelled down to the extream darkness of below...and my pain and torture will never end...

 

[timechained]

What if it is your subconscious preventing you from CTB by "tricking" yourself into believing your "dead" so that you keep "living"....???

 

[set0553]

I do alot of deep thinking like this, actually very often, and its driven me close to insanity to consider every possible outcome my life could've taken, and yes, its a very real possibility we could all be dead already, and this is all just our imagination, our minds at work, but also everything we've experienced in our entire lives could also be the figment of a higher beings imagination, and it can go on and on, but unfortunately reality is hell in of itself..

 

[Average Joe]

I often thought i was invincible, however have you contemplated the thought that your suicidal attempts had been for a cry of help rather than death?
I admit that many of my attempts to take my own life had been to seek help, rather than to seek death.

Edit: Just found the term I meant, it's called Parasuicidal Behavior / Suicidal Gesture
Also known as parasuicide, a suicide gesture is defined as: "self-injury in which there is no intent to die, but instead an intent to give the appearance of a suicide attempt in order to communicate with others."

It's an uncomfortable topic among people with suicidal thoughts and ideation.

 

[Rynalia]

The title describes my relationship with life pretty well.

After the very first attempt some long, long time ago, my relationship with life never really recovered.

I relinquished my right to ever have anything good in my life because I already sought death; I already reached out for death, therefore, I passed the point of no return.

I died on that day, but my body remains. I vacantly walk through life as the clock keeps ticking down. But a body alone can't comprehend all the experiences that it goes through...

So empty, so empty. A body that moulds itself to its surroundings. An accessory meant for other people. There had no longer been a person in that body, no. Emotions but a collection of masks hastily put together. It looks like a smile, but doesn't feel like a smile. Anger with no heart. Sadness with no depth.

So now the body too yearns to return to nothingness, to reunite with that which gave it meaning.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I don't believe in anything like that.

A human is just another brain

Brain is working = ur alive

Brain stops working ur dead forever after that

The you is created totally by ur brain. No more brain no more you

 

[Griever]

I'm dead inside

 

[Forever Sleep]

Spoiler Alert!

Donnie Darko

I found that film so fascinating or, another spolier:

The Sixth Sense

I've never attempted suicide but I have wondered if I was dead and didn't realise it. Those automatic doors never seemed to sense me. I'd have to wave my arms about like an idiot. Then, seeing as I'm alone for vast amounts of time, I'd have to start trying to remember the last time I interacted with someone.

It low key annoyed me though. Like, if I am dead, why am I continuing to live such a boring life? Why don't I quit my job and all my chores and, just have fun? Nah, I'm depressingly alive with all the same depressing responsibilities.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Absolutely. I think Ive commented this in a "Are we in hell?" thread, or three. Maybe I was successful? As my mental health deteriorated over the past two years, or so I did consider that maybe I was dead already? It just kept getting worse for me. Its gotten better now, because I had to slowly accept my reality, but its no picnic. I know Im messed up.