Have to postpone my ctb for a couple of days.

[LetzteAusfahrt]

I don't like it, but I will probably have to postpone my ctb for a few days.

Too much is not going according to plan so that I can properly document my SN experience.

The ctb partner and the observer no longer report. I have to reschedule.

Until October 4th I can max. move, then it's over. Even if my last wish would not come true to answer open questions about SN.

 

[TheQ22]

Oh well at least we get the pleasure of your company a little longer.

 

[Homecoming]

Hey @LetzteAusfahrt or anybody here... I have a question: Does SN Grade matters? Here in my town, I cannot find Food Grade SN, but I can find Technical Grade SN easily and already bought one with 99% purity. Is this suitable for CTB purposes or not?

Thanks in advance!

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

Hey @LetzteAusfahrt or anybody here... I have a question: Does SN Grade matters? Here in my town, I cannot find Food Grade SN, but I can find Technical Grade SN easily and already bought one with 99% purity. Is this suitable for CTB purposes or not?

Thanks in advance!

Well, whether you swallow 25g SN with 99% or 100% purity, only means a difference in the SN amount of 0.25g.

That has absolutely no influence on whether you can do ctb with it or not.

 

[Homecoming]

Well, whether you swallow 25g SN with 99% or 100% purity, only means a difference in the SN amount of 0.25g.

That has absolutely no influence on whether you can do ctb with it or not.

Sorry if my question are not clear to you... I was asking if Technical Grade SN is good enough for CTB purposes or not?

(Anybody here might also help with the answer, thanks!)

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

Sorry if my question are not clear to you... I was asking if Technical Grade SN is good enough for CTB purposes or not?

(Anybody here might also help with the answer, thanks!)

Now I understand.

Yes, technical grade SN works too, it's the same stuff

 

[Homecoming]

Now I understand.

Yes, technical grade SN works too, it's the same stuff

All right, thank you @LetzteAusfahrt

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

Oh well at least we get the pleasure of your company a little longer.

thank you

I will do my best to make good use of the extra time in the forum.

I know how much I would miss it. Fortunately, I won't be able to do that.

All right, thank you @LetzteAusfahrt

You'r welcome.
I am always happy when I can help

 

[Incorrigible77777]

I've been thinking about you recently because I remember your intro says "exists till September 2020". And then I see this thread. How's everything going?

I'm also postponing my CTB date once after another due to different reasons. I primarily scheduled my CTB date at Sep. 18th and expect that N from A comes. However, N has been at the clearance stage of import for ~10 days. And then I got a helium tank and exit bag and planned to CTB on Monday if I could find a suicide partner. However, I didn't find one so I postpone again.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

I've been thinking about you recently because I remember your intro says "exists till September 2020". And then I see this thread. How's everything going?

I'm also postponing my CTB date once after another due to different reasons. I primarily scheduled my CTB date at Sep. 18th and expect that N from A comes. However, N has been at the clearance stage of import for ~10 days. And then I got a helium tank and exit bag and planned to CTB on Monday if I could find a suicide partner. However, I didn't find one so I postpone again.

Well, I'm not doing that well right now, I'm more pissed off.
Everything was planned perfectly, but I can't do it alone. I need at least the observer and electricity.
I don't want to do it at home, so I was happy to have a partner who could offer me the infrastructure.

Let's see what I can do in the few days

 

[lobster salad]

I will miss you, @LetzteAusfahrt . Been thinking about you quite a lot this week even though I'm rather new to the forum. For me it's nice to know you'll be here slightly longer. But don't keep living in agony, a horrible life needs to be dealt with, your way. It's all your decision, never let others control you.

 

[Regen]

I'm very glad, that you will stay with us a couple of days!! I like reading your texts. I hope to postpone your ctb is not too much stress for you.

 

[Ghost2211]

I'm going to miss you. I really enjoy reading your perspective, and that you confidently voice a differing opinion on matters. It's awesome that you have a very unrestricted pro choice philosophy. I'm sorry life has brought you to a point that it has become unlivable, and that you've been made to postpone your desires even longer. It was a pleasure to have met you, and I'm selfishly glad we get a few more days of your company.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

I will miss you, @LetzteAusfahrt . Been thinking about you quite a lot this week even though I'm rather new to the forum. For me it's nice to know you'll be here slightly longer. But don't keep living in agony, a horrible life needs to be dealt with, your way. It's all your decision, never let others control you.

Fortunately, I know that you too will soon have forgotten me and that I won't leave you with long grief. As you say, my life has to be ended my way

I'm 52, I haven't let others tell me what to do for a long time. It is my own wish to postpone my ctb so that I can give something back to the users here.
That would at least give my life some meaning.

I'm very glad, that you will stay with us a couple of days!! I like reading your texts. I hope to postpone your ctb is not too much stress for you.

Many thanks.

I think the postponement takes some of the stress out of me because it frees me up for rescheduling

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I'm so sorry. You've been very kind to me during the last weeks. If you wanna talk pm me.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

I'm going to miss you. I really enjoy reading your perspective, and that you confidently voice a differing opinion on matters. It's awesome that you have a very unrestricted pro choice philosophy. I'm sorry life has brought you to a point that it has become unlivable, and that you've been made to postpone your desires even longer. It was a pleasure to have met you, and I'm selfishly glad we get a few more days of your company.

I am very happy that my texts and my views are valued. That motivates me to write more in the forum again in the next few days, even if I can now spend the whole day on PM's.

I already see the necessary shift more positively, as it gives me more time to look forward to ctb. But above all, having less stress. Fas life was one single stress, then the ctb can be a little more relaxed.
I'll prepare the worst case on October 4th and just try to find a better way beforehand.

It was an honor for me to get to know you and the whole SS family and I will enjoy the additional time here

 

[nitroautnz]

I know how much you where looking forward to this so I'm sorry you have to postpone, but like everyone will enjoy your company and wisdom for few more days

 

[rt1989526]

Appreciate your insight as always. Your plan is to have someone observe you after you take the SN?

 

[Smellanie]

I will fucking miss you man. Sorry for what you're going through. I also remembered the "exist until September" the other day and thought about you. Glad I didn't miss your goodbye. I hope you are still able to document everything.

 

[inflammed123]

I don't like it, but I will probably have to postpone my ctb for a few days.

Too much is not going according to plan so that I can properly document my SN experience.

The ctb partner and the observer no longer report. I have to reschedule.

Until October 4th I can max. move, then it's over. Even if my last wish would not come true to answer open questions about SN.

we still enjoy you. sending hugs

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

I know how much you where looking forward to this so I'm sorry you have to postpone, but like everyone will enjoy your company and wisdom for few more days

Thank you for your kind words.

I'm slowly not sure what to say anymore, I'm not used to so many kind words.

I'm just a suicidal writer, like many others

Appreciate your insight as always. Your plan is to have someone observe you after you take the SN?

That would be the plan that obeys all laws and is legal.

So that he can write for me in the forum when I can no longer do it myself.
To shed some light on the time after the contact in the goodbye threads breaks off

 

[Forgotten]

A partner and an observer? Wow, that sounded cool. But hey, take your time, you have all the time in the world to make it perfect. I've always liked your posts around here, so I will definitely miss you.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

Appreciate your insight as always. Your plan is to have someone observe you after you take the SN?

That would be the plan that obeys all laws and is legal.

So that he can write for me in the forum when I can no longer do it myself.
To shed some light on the time after the contact in the goodbye threads breaks off

I will fucking miss you man. Sorry for what you're going through. I also remembered the "exist until September" the other day and thought about you. Glad I didn't miss your goodbye. I hope you are still able to document everything.

A partner and an observer? Wow, that sounded cool. But hey, take your time, you have all the time in the world to make it perfect. I've always liked your posts around here, so I will definitely miss you.

Many thanks.

But after October 4th the problems will explode because I put everything on after September.

I can do without that if I've waited 6 months for the one day

 

[Deleted member 19654]

We haven't interacted much but I've always enjoyed reading your posts. I always go back to your thread about not being scared of death and it's one that I have read several times. It was an insightful and well written post. It's helped me to feel a little more at peace with the idea of death.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

We haven't interacted much but I've always enjoyed reading your posts. I always go back to your thread about not being scared of death and it's one that I have read several times. It was an insightful and well written post. It's helped me to feel a little more at peace with the idea of death.

I am very happy if I can help you and other users with this thread to better deal with the fear of being able to deal with it better.

Not necessary to do ctb earlier, but more peaceful

 

[nitroautnz]

Thank you for your kind words.

I'm slowly not sure what to say anymore, I'm not used to so many kind words.

I'm just a suicidal writer, like many others.

Haha it's ok nothing need to be say, I can understand how it can feel, I've havent been so accepted and welcome in my life.

Yes but your writing has something special, I dont say other are less good, but yours has something different.

 

[AvaAdore]

I don't like it, but I will probably have to postpone my ctb for a few days.

Too much is not going according to plan so that I can properly document my SN experience.

The ctb partner and the observer no longer report. I have to reschedule.

Until October 4th I can max. move, then it's over. Even if my last wish would not come true to answer open questions about SN.

I have always wondered is your avatar actually a picture of you?

 

[esse_est_percipi]

Happy that you can stay for a bit longer, and will also be happy for you when you are finally free.
I certainly won't forget you.
I hope to join you soon.

 

[Captive of Mind]

I am very happy that my texts and my views are valued. That motivates me to write more in the forum again in the next few days, even if I can now spend the whole day on PM's.

I already see the necessary shift more positively, as it gives me more time to look forward to ctb. But above all, having less stress. Fas life was one single stress, then the ctb can be a little more relaxed.
I'll prepare the worst case on October 4th and just try to find a better way beforehand.

It was an honor for me to get to know you and the whole SS family and I will enjoy the additional time here

You make us feel like a family here. Sometimes I forget that until I read posts like this.

 

[Ready2GoNow]

You seem like a beautiful soul. I hope you find everything you seek on the other side. You will be very missed by us all