Have Someone in Your Life Keeping you Here?

[Discharging]

I have one person stopping from from CTB.

My mother. I know it'll be too much for her but when she's gone so.am I. It may be years from now so I'm not planning anything soon.

Anyone else have someone in their life keeping you here?

 

[FuneralCry]

It is not my reason for still being alive personally, but I understand that it can be painful for many, the thought of leaving others behind. I do wish that we lived in a world where our right to die is respected and we could be open about our plans to leave and then others would have time to come to terms with the persons decision and it may make the grieving process more bearable for them.

I'm sorry that you suffer. The main reason why I am still here is because of the lack of peaceful and reliable way to exit, I have limited access to methods and it hurts me being trapped in this world. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

 

[Gyomei]

A friend of mine and my mom. That's it. 2 people who have me chained to this world :(

 

[AloneInCollege]

Honestly, no. Only me, or I guess specifically my SI and the tiny part of my brain that likes to pretend that things will get better.

 

[September5th]

My mother. Despite all the issues between us, she's doing her best and don't deserve to see her first son's dead bluish body.

 

[Zzzzz]

Probably family. I still wish for death. They can choose to be happy for me or they can choose to think about themselves. It doesn't matter to me either way. As long as I'm free from life.

 

[notenough86]

I have one person stopping from from CTB.

My mother. I know it'll be too much for her but when she's gone so.am I. It may be years from now so I'm not planning anything soon.

Anyone else have someone in their life keeping you here?

My father. It will kill him if I go before him. I don't want him blaming himself.. even if he is a significant source of anguish for me. I want him to die thinking he did great

 

[Brianiskillingme]

My daughter. She has autism and will be lost and alone without me.

 

[Cali101]

My wife and son, it will ruin their life. Dont think I can hold off too much longer though.

 

[ConstantPain]

Definitely my mother. She's lost one child already, in 2004, and has never recovered. Now she's in her 80's and has dementia and I wouldn't want my siblings to have to tell her over and over that I died.

 

[TheBroken]

One child - it will be hard for her.

 

[Sibyl Vane]

No, except for my mother and brother, I have no one, and I believe they would be in a far better position if it wasn't for me. Hopefully, I can soon find a way to obtain what I need and spare them the suffering that is having to deal with a worthless person like me.

 

[Foresight]

Yes, my husband but it doesn't feel like he's not holding me hostage to life. It's more because he asked me to stay and life is enjoyable with him. If he died I'd be out though.

 

[NoLightRemains]

Mostly my partner. Her hope and support is the only thing keeping me going.

 

[snowman626]

mother keeping me here. over the years i feel the desire to ctb to be getting stronger and stronger. im nearing the point where i just dont give a fuck anymore regardless of how badly she will feel if i do it. this love for my mother thats keeping me here, some of this love is turning into spite because if it wasnt for her it'd be so easier to just go already.

and i dont think my mother and sister understands the amount of effort i make to remain here for them. im getting this "if you really wanted to go you would have went already, so just stop acting like this" vibe from them both and its making me wanna ctb even more.

 

[downsolong]

no one left to keep me here. after disappearing over the past weeks from the last remaining few who might care, death feels close. not feeling in much of a hurry though. like my life is a snotball that I feel compelled to play with a little before flicking it away.

 

[lifetoldquickly]

my mum, brothers, and sister - they're the only reason I wouldn't ctb
i hate the thought of leaving them - just another of many mental battles to go through i guess

 

[AgiliteBuster2k]

My girlfriend, which ironically is the reason why I'm almost on the edge right now. She was everything to me, as she was the only one left I cherished most. But I caught her talking to another guy, left me for it, somehow I begged for her to stay to me as I wouldn't know what to do without her ( I know I'm fucking stupid and dumb ) but it's just hard to lose someone you always thought of as your saving grace. We're talking now, but it's not the same. I get the feeling that she's only talking to me because I forced her to. Somehow it hurts more than being just ignored. I'm losing her and if that happens then you know where I'd end up.

 

[ollo]

I have emotional connection with anyone, so basically myself is stopping me from ctb and myself also wants to ctb, it's all within...

 

[ornitier199]

Simple answer: No
Long Answer: No
Short answer: No
Detailed answer: No
TL;DR: No
Alternate Q&A :: Have Someone in Your Life at all, friends/family anyone? :: No.
Why am I still alive then? Because I'm a slug, just like he said.

 

[alwaysdopesick]

I cant help but view suicide as victimizing my current family members that I care about... kinda wish that feeling would go away and I can have a clear conscience to just be free myself

 

[outrider567]

Sure--my only brother--If he hadn't called me back in mid April that he had terminal lung cancer, my CTB would be a matter of fact by now for sure, and probably earlier like in May--and he was the only beneficiary of my will--For someone who always had money troubles his entire life, my $350,000(after the sale of the condo)would be a great gift for him---but now....

 

[Chaestergram]

My family and dog. Just the want to see them again is enough for me to force myself to not do it because i know once I'm with them it'll means i will have all the space and ressources to heal all over again but as long as I am in my situation i won't be able to think of anything else.

 

[Sweet Chainsaw]

- Our beloved 2 cats and 1 of them is half-paralyzed. Sigh...

- I really don't to be in service of my sister & her husband who will be delighted to have me dead.

 

[whereistheshnow]

My mother. She was the best mother I could have, always supporting me. She doesn't deserve to see her son dead.

 

[FatalSystemError591]

My girlfriend. If something happens to her though and I haven't caught my bus by then, it's over.

 

[James777]

It is not my reason for still being alive personally, but I understand that it can be painful for many, the thought of leaving others behind. I do wish that we lived in a world where our right to die is respected and we could be open about our plans to leave and then others would have time to come to terms with the persons decision and it may make the grieving process more bearable for them.

I'm sorry that you suffer. The main reason why I am still here is because of the lack of peaceful and reliable way to exit, I have limited access to methods and it hurts me being trapped in this world. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

Have you found any methods?

 

[HappyForever?]

Yes, but I doubt that person exists. If one day she shows up we will live happily ever after. However if it turns out she does not exist and no one will love me I would simply end my misery.

 

[FuneralCry]

Have you found any methods?

I am aware of the many methods that exist, and there is plenty of method information on this website, but I have not found an peaceful quick and easily accesible way for me to ctb as I do not think that such a thing exists. It really is so difficult to leave this world and the only methods that are available for me, are difficult and horrible sounding, so I am still here trapped in this world.

 

[coyotestark]

Yes, well I did. I made sure to offend her in a way that she would break it off with me. But I'll sure miss her.