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-nobodyknows-

-nobodyknows-

I will face my fate.
Jun 16, 2024
645
I'm kind of curious if anyone else has experienced this. For me, it pretty much disappeared after my first attempt.
 
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Leiot

Leiot

Coming back as a cat
Oct 2, 2024
342
I don't know about fear but a respect for it.
 
destinationlosangel

destinationlosangel

Specialist
Feb 16, 2024
300
Yes. Especially after i lost a friend i made here.

I have come to accept it as normal and also having seeing others in my life pass, i realize its just a part of life. I never had that realization in the past
 
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monolog

Student
Oct 29, 2024
101
I fear pain, not death
 
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grungy自殺

grungy自殺

The hell is this?
Jan 9, 2024
149
It's incredibly hard to not have a single prospect of fear in it

Because it's the unknown, how can i be sure or anyone be sure that it doesn't lead to a undesirable place to rest.
 
yellowjester

yellowjester

Arcanist
Jun 2, 2024
428
Only when I had severe anhedonia. But it also made me lose all motivation for ctb, so that was kind of a bummer.
 
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Pryras

Pryras

Last hope
Feb 11, 2020
622
Yes I no longer fear death or the dying process. I know death is inevitable and there's nothing I can do to change that.
The method I am choosing (SN) will be uncomfortable but I'll be unconscious for the actual dying process which is a relief. Just some moments of feeling uncomfortable and tired and then I'll be done forever
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
3,256
I have no fear of Death. I know it's like going back in time to when before i was born.

i know Death is non-existence forever. That is the ultimate bliss

There can be no pain, suffering , problems , bad memories in non-existence. why would i fear that ?

plus it's going to happen anyway.

We are all going to be corpses being eaten by worms. But luckily we won't see it or feel it because we won't exist.

non-existence forever to me is the best thing by a trillion times better than evil life and this evil world.

I don't fear it I long for eternal non-existence which is certain for all

 
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Kitsunekia90

Kitsunekia90

Member
Oct 2, 2024
56
Unfortunately I am afraid, of death but more than anything of suffering with SN. But now my life is as if it is no longer giving me a choice, I have been locked in the house for 6 months, I don't wash, I spend my days in bed crying and having anxiety attacks. I ask myself is this life? I tried to get help but since last November I'm starting to get tired, you can't not have life at 34, no longer be the same person you were 15 years ago...
 
Rational man

Rational man

Enlightened
Oct 19, 2021
1,481
I've experienced life-long fear of death until about three Years ago. I witnessed several people die but also my own physical illness..I realised then that how can I fear something which everyone alive today will eventually face. Cessation of life is simply the natural conclusion of all things. I call it impermanence. I do fear the dying process but I hope the Assisted suicide bill will gain successful traction in UK law. Regrettably, Im not sure it will be made legal before this disease kills me.
 
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nomoredolor

nomoredolor

Specialist
Sep 7, 2024
370
I'm not afraid of death more afraid of the survival instinct kicking in right before dying

Otherwise I just feel relieved when I think about death and dying
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,801
I'm not afraid of death. I'm afraid of pain and there will unfortunately be a lot of pain for me during the dying process
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,891
I've never feared such at all rather death has always been the only relief for me, I believe death to be nothing more than an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering and to never suffer again is all I hope for. This existence that is so cruel and torturous to me with no limit as to how much agony one can feel is what I fear instead, I'd never wish for existence rather I'd prefer to cease existing as I want all to be gone and forgotten about for me.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
11,238
I don't think I'm really going to know until I attempt. Most of my life, I've felt like I was comfortable with it for myself. Maybe it's different when it comes to crunch time though. I've certainly felt fear in what I perceived as dangerous situations and an odd desire to live at that point- I guess that was SI.

So, did you experience SI (survival instinct) when you attempted- may I ask? Or, were you quite calm and resolute?
 
-nobodyknows-

-nobodyknows-

I will face my fate.
Jun 16, 2024
645
So, did you experience SI (survival instinct) when you attempted- may I ask? Or, were you quite calm and resolute?
No, my SI has faded as well.
 
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failedmind

failedmind

Member
Oct 31, 2024
80
I'm not. Especially after my boyfriend passed (he didnt take his life). But after that I stopped being scared. Also, I literally want to die so badly, anything is better than this hell.
 
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L'absent

L'absent

Banned
Aug 18, 2024
1,391
When the end comes it will be wonderful. Afraid of what? To let go of all this horror? Absolutely not, my mind is still equipped with logic and earthly life is a mass of dissatisfaction and pain to be abandoned as soon as possible.
 
Zanmato

Zanmato

Student
Apr 4, 2024
132
Unfortunately, somehow, yes.
Sometimes is less, tho.
But I have also fear of failure.
 
LostinTime24

LostinTime24

Discharged&Defeated
Mar 26, 2024
55
I have memory problems which have helped a lot I don't really remember being young or my desires of what I wanted my life to be like. My only hang up is how it ends and working up the courage to CTB with various means. The reality is once your gone ur gone no more pain.
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

The one who has lost a lot, fears nothing.
Oct 21, 2024
352
I don't recall ever having a fear of death. As I've gotten older, I wish it would just suddenly happen.
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,312
I have memory problems which have helped a lot I don't really remember being young or my desires of what I wanted my life to be like. My only hang up is how it ends and working up the courage to CTB with various means. The reality is once your gone ur gone no more pain.
Me to . My memory issues make it so I cant remember a lot of my younger years
 
folly_

folly_

on my puter (´ρ`)
Oct 28, 2024
37
i was terrified of death as a child but i think that i really was only afraid of pain. probably the same now. i believe that there is absolutely nothing after death, thinking about it brings me peace
 
broken_stoic

broken_stoic

Member
Aug 21, 2024
50
I had a severe mental break and lost all fear of death but didn't have the means or capacity to do anything about it and made the mistake of messaging friends because I was out of my mind. They intervene and now my fear of death is back. Wish I had acted when it was gone. I would give anything to have that freedom again.