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- Sep 12, 2020
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For me, it started earlier this year after my former therapist abandoned me. That threw me into the deepest abyss of depression, where every breath to speak took too much energy. It felt like I had to force every single word out of my lungs and it was easier to stay silent. On top of that, neither my family nor my former therapist understood me when I finally opened up about suicide or even blamed me. My trust was completely shattered, so it taught me to shut up in real life.
Independent of this, there were also other situations before that where I was unable to speak due to dissociation, and my therapist in particular accused me of deliberate silence and aggression.
Meanwhile, I no longer talk to my family at all and have also withdrawn as far as possible. The only people I say hello or goodbye to are people I have nothing else to do with (such as mailmen or neighbors).
What's it like for you?
Independent of this, there were also other situations before that where I was unable to speak due to dissociation, and my therapist in particular accused me of deliberate silence and aggression.
Meanwhile, I no longer talk to my family at all and have also withdrawn as far as possible. The only people I say hello or goodbye to are people I have nothing else to do with (such as mailmen or neighbors).
What's it like for you?
