hatred

[ravenx]

don't you happen to be completely destroyed inside?

this is my case! im rotting beneath my organs and skin, in that invisible spot named "soul" and "spirit".

and the ones who caused this? haven't they apologized? NO!!! cause no one gives a fuck!.

life is so funny, to go and destroy someone's life. right? i fucking hate you.

 

[Blue Dream]

If you were truly destroyed you would not be able to type.
And the apologies of fools will not heal you or undo what happened, forget them.

 

[ravenx]

If you were truly destroyed you would not be able to type.
And the apologies of fools will not heal you or undo what happened, forget them.

im filled with anger and i cant forgive or forget, it's just looped in my mind once someone breaks what i think of them. the anger is so uncontrollable

 

[VoidAetherium]

don't you happen to be completely destroyed inside?

this is my case! im rotting beneath my organs and skin, in that invisible spot named "soul" and "spirit".

and the ones who caused this? haven't they apologized? NO!!! cause no one gives a fuck!.

life is so funny, to go and destroy someone's life. right? i fucking hate you.

I suffer from bpd so rage is quite my best jester enemy inside. I've this infamous desire when i look on the mirror to just see that infamous rotting soul spot so i could crush and kill. It wouldn't need to have a second quick time event while having to worry to kill the second part of myself while the first primordial shell is already consider a threat to get use daily. I personally quite never had use anger on outsiders, saving my infamous female reproducer who gets my temper on ups on every conversation. I had lost counts how many belongings i had destroyed on this damn old house and we plan to move soon so i already had warn her, that "the first thing the new neighboors will hear will be the crash of those awfull old vase plants you buy to pretend to have a life somehow on the so awfull living you dare to deluded everyday with this sick positivity of yours". She's tha awfull fake smile mask christian facing expression. Had gasp my pains to her lot of times and receive in return just "accept as it is this childish pain of yours until you die naturally because you've to take care of me in the end" as she confirms she had never EVER understood how i felt inside. As my outside rage is a concerning consequential masking one as knowingly how things will end, i wouldn't bother trying to kill those who laugh at my back or say this at my back because then going to another inside prison or ward( no thanks). I try my hardest when i get out of home to go on a buddhist mode but even among the whole rage compatibility i feel this bomb pain on the chest like waiting to put out, wanting to break and kill out but again, knowingly the consequences of what will happen, i remain silent and on my own while the whole sick world spin of sick laughings and distortins around me, One night i had vomit lot of time just because this pain of my chest had increase on a level no support. Couldn't even walk for days because every step would make me spit another corrosive vomit rage/anguish outside my mouth. Is terryifing when you put out your rage out of control but even more terryfing when this rage consumes me inside by the time i keep living and aging while my whole sensitivity devours me among the cannibals that enriches this condemn planet. I hope the word miracle invades my ctb plans when it comes the moment so i would not endure this poison and sickness no more!