Venting hate waking up

[Darkover]

I hate waking up to this reality every day. As soon as I open my eyes, the pain hits me even harder, making the act of getting out of bed feel like the hardest part of my day. Each morning, I'm deeply disappointed to find myself facing another day of misery. I long to drift away in my sleep, as I've forgotten what it feels like to experience a truly good day.

 

[offbalance]

Same.

 

[uglyugly]

I hate getting up because it means I have to go to work, which I hate. But even on days I don't go to work, the best thing I can do is stay in bed. My bed is about the only thing that makes me happy any more.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I am so jealous of the dead that get to sleep all day, every day.

 

[render]

yeah, i'm in the same boat, i'm sorry man. for me the only thing making me get out of bed is having to take medication, and i keep catching myself wishing i'd died in my sleep. if it wasn't for that then i'd just sleep forever if i could

 

[peaceandlove]

I feel so horrified hopeless depressed most mornings that it actually makes me afraid to go to sleep at night because then I'll have to wake up Doesn't even make sense to me. I wanna wake up dead

 

[syde44]

Good morning
As I understand you, I am also in great pain, abandoned by everyone and misunderstood, and every time I wake up I have anxiety attacks and I don't understand why I am still here, why am I still suffering?
I'm tired of fighting, even against those who should support me.
In this world, when we do not follow the path laid out by the system and the people, then we are excluded, treated like sick people when it is this world that destroys us.
I am going to leave around September 15 at the latest and I am desperately looking for SN because I would like to leave without suffering but I cannot find the famous DMC to place an order, so if I cannot find it I would choose partial hanging with a very thin rope, but I know it will be hard for me and for those who find me.
I hope soon to stop suffering and find peace.
I can't even remember the last time I felt at peace...

 

[ThatGuyOverThere]

Same, I take every opportunity to sleep that I get, Necessary, or unnecessary, it doesn't really matter.

I sometimes just lay in bed with my eyes closed, until I have developed a migraine, and am forced to wake up.

 

[divinemistress36]

Especially waking up after a good dream to horrors of reality

 

[Pluto]

 

[Manfrotto99]

Yep, I am not sure anymore if i am awake or in some horrid lucid nightmare that Im unable to wake from. Infact I want to cbt to see if I am dreaming. I grieve and miss my dog and have to deal with abusive family members every day who yell at me and think its there right to treat me like dirt because i have no money or job. I feel
Like am stuck in lucid nightmare, that im unable to wake up from.

 

[kkamasal]

I hate getting up because it means I have to go to work, which I hate. But even on days I don't go to work, the best thing I can do is stay in bed. My bed is about the only thing that makes me happy any more.

If I dont do CTB I might have to go to work for the rest of my life, and the reward for that is as small as the poop my neighbors dog took

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I relate so much. I hate waking up too. I wish I was dead. Every second of me being sentient is a second where I'm suffering. I hate being alive

 

[badtothebone]

Me too!

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

Would definitely relate if I didn't have insomnia induced by my housemate from hell. I am lucky if I sleep okay one night per week.

 

[DoneWithThisLife]

I hate waking up to this reality every day. As soon as I open my eyes, the pain hits me even harder, making the act of getting out of bed feel like the hardest part of my day. Each morning, I'm deeply disappointed to find myself facing another day of misery. I long to drift away in my sleep, as I've forgotten what it feels like to experience a truly good day.

I can so relate to this. I dream of just going to sleep and never waking up again coz I know today is gonna be worse than yesterday and tomorrow will be worse than today and so on for ever.