MisterOGBongWater
Student
- Aug 30, 2023
- 148
i hate mine. i always end up feeling more invisible than ever. and it feels so stupid and petty and childish but its my birthday today and no one gives a shit. i dont really have anyone, my girlfriend but were dead flat broke this month so theres nothing she can do for me that she really wanted to do. but im not mad at her. weve only been together for 2 years. theres people ive known my whole life who just dont give a shit. including the people whos birthdays i took the time out to acknowledge. nobody remembers me in return. is that a lot to ask? maybe its my fault that i dont make myself important but how much can i really do of that. at the end of the day i cant seem to connect to anybody. i dont even know why my girlfriend really loves me but im grateful so does. im sure ill enjoy my day with her money or not. its a good day if shes around no matter what but i just wish i had friends who cared like she did, People dont think about me and i have to accept that i suppose but it hurts a lot. like really hurts. my chest hurts typing this. i think i hate my birthday because it affirms the belief that i dont matter. i mean do i really matter at all?