Has who felt the same?

[SuicideYulx]

I have always felt the disapproval and disgust of others towards me, my family is no exception, since since I was born I have felt its abhorrence and disapproval, hatred, many things more towards my. You would say that that is nothing, that sure I am bad playing, but my dad left me, and said that the was because I didn't have a daughter like me. My mom and dad see me as the cause of all your problems, I am his only daughter, but also the unwanted, but my problems don't end at home, but also at the College, which I have always been rejected by others.

I'm fed up with feeling sad, angry and rejected.
I want to put an end to this disgust of life, hopefully others will understand me or leave me in peace.​

 

[akiyue]

I've realized those negative energy has been keeping me from achieving something great, like graduation, better career, etc, for the past 5 years. I lost faith in myself, not to mention I trust a doctor. I dump away stuff in my room. I cut off all the social media accounts,lost interest in everything I used to enjoy. I just want to stay away from rest of the world. I no longer care how people see me. They won't change the fact that I want to quit this planet.

 

[0blivi0n]

Total isolation; just lingering stares from those around you, but no idea why their expressions only mean hate towards you. The rejection, which its' after taste sits in your gut, leaving you hating yourself for something you didn't even cause.

 

[granny1!]

I remember growing up poor (still am!). My father always told me that I wasn't as good as my classmates and other relatives. My mom was just quiet all the time. I have forgiven them for this but not forgotten. I realize I was not the best parent and understand why my children do not react toward me they way they do anyone else. I wasn't the worst but definitely wasn't the best. I want to blame it on my upbringing and maybe I should. But I should change and I have. I let my oldest daughter talk me into living with her. She gave valid reasons. I have to hand it to her she tried to make me feel like we could get along. She has mentioned several times things that she remembers about her childhood and I have apologized many times. Now the situation is that she doesn't talk to me and she never smile around me. I think it was too much on her to change her behavior toward me. Don't get me wrong, she has never smiled or been talkative around me but we didn't see each other but once a month and it was tolerable. It isn't tolerable for me any longer. I find myself feeling like a squashed bug. Sometimes it makes me truly physically sick and I have to really talk to myself out of being depressed and anxious. Mostly I do that by giving myself options like getting a camper and putting it in my brothers' yard or just taking off and committing suicide. Thank you for being patient and reading this.