Discussion Has anyone written / Is anyone planning to plan a note for when they ctb?

[höstdepressioner]

I'm curious about other's reasonings for why they will or will not do this. Will it be to say goodbye positively or to say all the annoyances you never could before? Who is it for?

 

[beelzebul]

yes. i want to leave positive notes for my loved ones and a truthful note to my abuser. i want to tell him exactly what his actions did to me… but i don't want to be overly cruel or mean. it'll enrage him to hear me being levelheaded and the bigger person in my letter and that's more satisfying than bitching him out for being literal scum.

 

[höstdepressioner]

yes. i want to leave positive notes for my loved ones and a truthful note to my abuser. i want to tell him exactly what his actions did to me… but i don't want to be overly cruel or mean. it'll enrage him to hear me being levelheaded and the bigger person in my letter and that's more satisfying than bitching him out for being literal scum.

i think i will likely do the same honestly ... it would be cathartic to go knowing i have said what i need to say to the people who pushed me this far

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

Yeah, I've already written mine.
It's short, and positive.
It just states the basics, such as " nobody is to blame for my death " and " my decision is based on logic rather than a sudden emotional decision ".

 

[hermestrimegistus]

I have a few notes. I'd never use them. I don't think it matters what is said in a note. It will just be misinterpreted most likely and I'd rather avoid that happening

 

[bunny:)]

I think i will leave a positive note although in a way i feel it could make my loved ones sadder if they were left with a note which they would probably read over and over.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

I think i will leave a positive note although in a way i feel it could make my loved ones sadder if they were left with a note which they would probably read over and over.

Yes, it can be a terrible dilemma knowing whether to leave a note or not.
Yet, I think that giving others the peace of mind by letting them know the truth is important.
This way, they won't spend the rest of their lives wondering about questions that cannot be answered anymore.

 

[bunny:)]

Yes, it can be a terrible dilemma knowing whether to leave a note or not.
Yet, I think that giving others the peace of mind by letting them know the truth is important.
This way, they won't spend the rest of their lives wondering about questions that cannot be answered anymore.

yes this makes sense, i had never actually thought about the fact it could make the whole thing sadder until me and this boy were talking about suicide in an xbox party once and he said that leaving a note is cruel and unnecessary which made me rethink it but i think i will leave a positive one just explaining why ive done it and so on.

 

[densvensken00]

I think i will leave a positive note although in a way i feel it could make my loved ones sadder if they were left with a note which they would probably read over and over.

If you dont leave a note they might not know the reasoning for your decision to ctb, and that could end up in them blaming themselves

 

[EternalShore]

When I do, it's probably just going to say what to do with my stuff~ Stuff to save, etc.! ^_^

 

[groucho]

I plan on leaving a few notes, mostly to tell my loved ones it's not their fault and some final wishes. I don't want any doubt that it was my choices and unfortunate mental state that have led me to this point and not something anyone else did or didn't do.

 

[Mäximum]

I once tried to write notes to two people and even tho I am usually good at writing texts, this type of writing was hard. I had trouble finding good words and writing them down in good sentences. I have to try again another time.

 

[Tokugawa_Yoshinobu]

I thought about writting a poem for when I die.

 

[bunny:)]

If you dont leave a note they might not know the reasoning for your decision to ctb, and that could end up in them blaming themselves

Yes thats true, for me personally i dont think my family have the slightest clue anything is even up with me because i keep everything to myself so if i didn't leave a note theyd be completely shocked confused and like u said would most likely blame them selves and think they missed signs or smth.

 

[TheSuicidalLlama]

Yes, I'm going to write a letter to my sister who hates me telling her that I remember every time she hurt me and that I'm dying mad at her.

I'm writing a letter to my father telling him that nothing of it is his fault and I hope he doesn't feel that bad about me given I'm in peace now.

 

[bunny:)]

I once tried to write notes to two people and even tho I am usually good at writing texts, this type of writing was hard. I had trouble finding good words and writing them down in good sentences. I have to try again another time.

I feel as though a suicide note is definitely never something to be rushed, maybe make a plan of what you want it to contain before hand, even just a small list of the main points and really take your time!

 

[Erik.t.f]

i dont have anybody to write to so no

but i gong to write to a suicde chat one in my country have one that have the option for a more longterm support, its not a live chat so they answers after 12-24h so i be dead when they read it, just going to inform that i have ctb and where i am since nobody is going to even think about me in monts, just want to be found before my body is roten, my landlord would probobly prefer it over whatever damege a roten corpse would make lol

 

[densvensken00]

Yes thats true, for me personally i dont think my family have the slightest clue anything is even up with me because i keep everything to myself so if i didn't leave a note theyd be completely shocked confused and like u said would most likely blame them selves and think they missed signs or smth.

exactly what i was getting to. Its the same for me because im pretty sure nobody around me has any clue, so if i didnt leave a note they would most likely blame themselves for not seeing it.

 

[Agon321]

I don't plan on writing a note. I don't even know what to write in it. No words will calm anyone down. I just want to leave this world behind and not think about it anymore (or at least I hope I do)

 

[QteStimBnnuy]

Something along the lines of it being a more logical death and some form of discouragement to people from claiming they were there, cared or helped me when it was the major opposite for most of my life. Say about any abuse, ectectect. One main target of this would be the mother and some I used to know. I'd prepare a seperate note to the close friends I have about my reasons and to not feel so bad, as I'll be free. May add an additional section of how they made me enjoy my time a lot more, but it's now time to pass

I'll die on reasons away from them, but I also won't allow the morons to get as much sympathy for them knowing someone that died. However it looks like my logical reasoning may be slowly fading as I'm closer to it improvement. In the worst case it doesn't, this will be the general idea of my note. If it weren't for the current changes over the years, I'd have written no note and choose to simply not care what they attempt to gain from my death

 

[ApostleOfPain]

I just wrote mine. Wrote one for each of the people I care about (4 letters it is) and I mainly convey that it wasn't their fault and thank them for the things they've done to try and help me

 

[zebrazebra123]

I've been thinking about it, but I'm scared of upsetting/traumatising the people who read it. I don't have anyone close to me, but I want to 'speak' to someone before I go after spending so much time by myself.

 

[filthystray]

My plan is to write one for everyone I love to give them a more personalized goodbye. So for me that's like 9 people. Then I'm going to write a main note that explains everything so I don't have to include that in the personal notes. Then I'm going to write one for my coworkers. I hate my job but I know there are people there who would want an explaination. So yeah... Pretty much on my way to writing a short story here

 

[girlwithflaxenhair0]

everyone would already mostly know my reasons so I don't think there's anything that I need to clear up with a note, and idk what I'd want to say, I'm too indecisive I'd be stuck rewriting it forever

I've thought about leaving behind a poem or a song though just to get some of my emotions and thoughts out, but I probably won't, I just don't have the energy for any of that