Has anyone here lost a child?

[DreamEnd]

Just curious to see how people are coping? I just want to know what it will be like for my parents to lose me.

 

[UserHussein]

Why does it matter how your parents will feel? You're going to be gone and not conscious AT ALL of how they feel.

 

[DreamEnd]

Why does it matter how your parents will feel? You're going to be gone and not conscious AT ALL of how they feel.

nobody knows whats after death and whether or not consciousness continues now cannot be answered

 

[Quantum Particle]

That would honestly depend a lot on what parents you have. We're they loving, abusive etc. I'm not prying by the way these are question you have to ask yourself. Nobody is better equipped than yourself to know how they would feel. As a parent I would be devastated and I would be feel so guilty for having let them down for not being there

 

[DreamEnd]

That would honestly depend a lot on what parents you have. We're they loving, abusive etc. I'm not prying by the way these are question you have to ask yourself. Nobody is better equipped than yourself to know how they would feel. As a parent I would be devastated and I would be feel so guilty for having let them down for not being there

Well it's very complicated. They are trying to help me get better but nothing is working. They are working very hard to help me. I'm pretty sure it's gonna devastate them.

 

[permanently tired]

Just curious to see how people are coping? I just want to know what it will be like for my parents to lose me.

I'm planning on keeping my message to them short. There is a lot I could say and spectulate abt why I ended this way so I'm just going to tell them I blame society and that they must keep going until my sister has accomplished everything she ought to. Even if they can't bear the pain one day and decide to self exit I'm entrusting they will complete their duty to my sister. This will at least be another decade so that buys some time ig

 

[Quantum Particle]

Well it's very complicated. They are trying to help me get better but nothing is working. They are working very hard to help me. I'm pretty sure it's gonna devastate them.

When I first replied I didn't thank you for asking how people were coping it's really nice that you thought about others before discussing your own problems so thank you so much for that. Because they are working so hard to help you, it makes it difficult for you to tell them it isn't working because it's like you're not appreciating their help. How long have they been helping you recover

 

[Unknown21]

I suggest you this subreddit: https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideBereavement/s/4kMhX7BBzJ

 

[DreamEnd]

When I first replied I didn't thank you for asking how people were coping it's really nice that you thought about others before discussing your own problems so thank you so much for that. Because they are working so hard to help you, it makes it difficult for you to tell them it isn't working because it's like you're not appreciating their help. How long have they been helping you recover

2 years now

 

[mortuarymary]

I lost a baby. He died inside me. The pain never goes away.

 

[walkingdead2023]

Just curious to see how people are coping? I just want to know what it will be like for my parents to lose me.

They are going to suffer, sad, crying all the time, and lost! My mother cousin lost her husband he was young and that lady is not herself! disconnected from others and feel guilty.. my family brought her one week to spend time by us and I swear I could hear her crying at night… however, this is one of the reasons I'm taking my time I honestly don't want to do that to my family.. I learned that you will be able to see their suffering so you won't enjoy peace like everyone saying.. I'm Christian and believe in God and I believe he will forgive us but suicide is very painful on those we leave behind. I get so confused about my CTB decision giving all the consequences I'm not a selfish person and I do care about my parents they try to provide everything to make me happy

 

[DreamEnd]

They are going to suffer, sad, crying all the time, and lost! My mother cousin lost her husband he was young and that lady is not herself! disconnected from others and feel guilty.. my family brought her one week to spend time by us and I swear I could hear her crying at night… however, this is one of the reasons I'm taking my time I honestly don't want to do that to my family.. I learned that you will be able to see their suffering so you won't enjoy peace like everyone saying.. I'm Christian and believe in God and I believe he will forgive us but suicide is very painful on those we leave behind. I get so confused about my CTB decision giving all the consequences I'm not a selfish person and I do care about my parents they try to provide everything to make me happy

Really? So no peace in the afterlife?

 

[walkingdead2023]

Really? So no peace in the afterlife?

If you believe in God, there isn't suicide is a sin in Christianity and Catholics

 

[Onomatopoeia]

My husband was shot and killed by police. The only reason they stopped firing shots was because I jumped in front of him. We were both 31-32 at the time. We were pregnant. I would have continued on in life if our baby was born. But I miscarried a week after my husband was murdered. We were 5-6 month pregnant. Loosing my husband killed me. Losing our baby killed me a second time. I have to go too.

 

[sserafim]

I lost my pets that I practically considered as children: my bird, fish and hamsters. I also have a dog who is basically my child, and unfortunately one day I'll eventually lose him too.

 

[DreamEnd]

If you believe in God, there isn't suicide is a sin in Christianity and Catholics

I thought there is a big difference in what causes one to ctb. If it's from pain or mental illness it's one thing, if it's to enact revenge on someone it's another

 

[walkingdead2023]

I thought there is a big difference in what causes one to ctb. If it's from pain or mental illness it's one thing, if it's to enact revenge on someone it's another

I'm not expert and I never died and came back but I am Christian and I do know suicide is a sin and we will be punished after death how true is this? I'm not sure some also some people say God is not going punish us because we struggle in life we can only find out when we die… I don't care about punishment after I die if there is any I just need to get the fuck out of this "life"

 

[Raven2]

My husband was shot and killed by police. The only reason they stopped firing shots was because I jumped in front of him. We were both 31-32 at the time. We were pregnant. I would have continued on in life if our baby was born. But I miscarried a week after my husband was murdered. We were 5-6 month pregnant. Loosing my husband killed me. Losing our baby killed me a second time. I have to go too.

Sorry to derail this thread but I'm really sorry for both your losses

 

[Chelsea Leng]

The question that you asked here means that you care them so much that you're not ready to go
try not to CBT, but if you failed
they'd know that you had tried so hard( if souls exist afterlife, they'd know)

 

[divinemistress36]

My husband was shot and killed by police. The only reason they stopped firing shots was because I jumped in front of him. We were both 31-32 at the time. We were pregnant. I would have continued on in life if our baby was born. But I miscarried a week after my husband was murdered. We were 5-6 month pregnant. Loosing my husband killed me. Losing our baby killed me a second time. I have to go too.

I'm so sorry you went through this

 

[Onomatopoeia]

I'm so sorry you went through this

The worst part is that it was all over media. They talked about my husband like he was a criminal, like he was a murderer. We were both teachers who never even got traffic tickets. We didn't even drink alcohol. But because he was black and I'm white, they made the whole thing a sensational fucked up story that has forever traumatized me. I cannot even get on social media very much anymore for fear I'll see one of those stories about the love of my life, and all the nasty comments again. All these random people were calling my husband racial slurs, calling me awful names, and cheering on his death. I cannot live in this world.

 

[divinemistress36]

The worst part is that it was all over media. They talked about my husband like he was a criminal, like he was a murderer. We were both teachers who never even got traffic tickets. We didn't even drink alcohol. But because he was black and I'm white, they made the whole thing a sensational fucked up story that has forever traumatized me. I cannot even get on social media very much anymore for fear I'll see one of those stories about the love of my life, and all the nasty comments again. All these random people were calling my husband racial slurs, calling me awful names, and cheering on his death. I cannot live in this world.

That is so messed up you don't deserve to go through all that pain

 

[walkingdead2023]

I lost my pets that I practically considered as children: my bird, fish and hamsters. I also have a dog who is basically my child, and unfortunately one day I'll eventually lose him too.

I'm so sorry for your loss! I love animals I have Robi my dog I can't live without her.. I used to have a fish but because I'm not that good cleaning the tank daily, she died. I had 2 love birds two years ago decided to go to the mall before I visit my friend in Florida so I took the birds with me so I can drop them off by my brother house until I come back from Florida, anyway, I left the birds in the car while shopping at Dillard when I went back to the car they were dead! I screamed and cried all day because I basically killed them it was hot and I forgot to open the windows…see how horrible Iam. I deserve to die I'm just not good at anything like my mom told me once.

 

[Onomatopoeia]

That is so messed up you don't deserve to go through all that pain

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