Has anyone here ever had someone close to them in real life commit suicide?

[Lara Francis]

I really hope so too hunny. It's been a rough few weeks. I'm really struggling as I know the effect suicide has now and I don't want to pass that onto my family. But I don't want to be here either x

I can totally relate to how you feel.my husband died suddenly and without warning.I do not know what it is like to lose a partner through suicide and can only empathise but I have felt that torn feeling between life and death for the past 2 years since his passing despite having a beautiful son together.
I feel guilty as a mum to have these feelings but depression and grief take you to the darkest of places and in some cases ,the point of no return.you are in the position to see and feel from both perspectives and should take some time to think.you must still be in shock at the moment and my thoughts are with you.x

 

[Duqu]

Several people. My best friend from age 11 up till KTB 3 years ago. I had several online friends KTB (at least 3) and one who died in her sleep of a heart attack (I think) from her eating disorder.

 

[hunter_lewis]

My mother. It made me question everything I thought I knew (suicide was wrong, those who killed themselves would go to hell, etc.), and now, here I am. I share no beliefs with my grandmother, though she's totally unaware of it. She most likely still thinks I'm a Christian who wants to live despite all the bad shit that keeps happening.

Did you ever get over your mother's suicide? I'm really sorry about your loss.
I personally could never get over something like that, not in a million years but one can find some ways to cope with the pain

 

[Brokenanddeadinside]

Not yet but i have a feeling my father will in a couple years which I've come to accept.

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

Last month my friend CTB. She had been hurting herself and going in and out of hospitals for so long that it was kind of inevitable.

It hurt, and everyone feels/felt guilty because it seems like noone was really there for her when she needed it. Her funeral was hard. The first Christian funeral I've been to. When they played music for her I couldn't stop crying.

I am envious that she's in a better place now.

 

[samhelloall9]

a friend. train. not so long ago. heard about it a few days later. more the shock than anything, if that doesn't make me sound less of a friend or a little heartless. i just didnt know how to feel and still quite don't. but i don't judge him. if anything, i'm glad he didn't end up alive yet brain damaged, etc. etc. you know.
note: it's played no influence in my own desire, it just happened, and i've moved on. that's life. everyone just sort of ignores or usually moves on. i find it a little weird, somehow, that people do that. they'll have the one day for a historical day of mourning or something, but the other 364 days of the 365 of any given year, they're living their normal lives, most of the time happy. guess that's what's hardened me up, mostly. you know, that people in general, can be that 'fake' in a way, they're sad but yet they manage to keep going on with their own lives, most of them can i say.

sigh. you get what i mean.

and yes, i managed to get over it quickly. i'd even like to think, because we sort of were similar personalities; he'd have moved on just as easily, if the shoe was on the other foot, particularly after the funeral. just as i did.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

How did you feel when you found out? Do you still remember them? Did the people around the deceased get over it quickly?

fucked like shit I missed the bus wait for me ass holes . no it hurts years later.

 

[windingdown]

No one close to me, although some 2nd degree of separation cases I know about. During some method research yesterday, I read on a news site that there's a 65% greater likelihood of ctb amongst people who know someone who's committed suicide. I don't know where that stat comes from, but I can understand it. Perhaps it's because of devastation, or perhaps because knowing someone who did it gives a person courage to do it themselves. I often think of famous people (eg Robin Williams, Kate Spade) to give myself courage.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

It leaves a whole lot of holes to fill

 

[samhelloall9]

I'm always glad to this day that at least the train took him out and he didn't end up a vegetable. Note he did not tell me his intentions or give any hint. He seemed totally fine to me and never seemed in a bad state.