SilverFog
Walking red flag
- Mar 28, 2024
- 11
I don't know how else to describe it, but about 7 months ago I had a feeling where I was fully committed to killing myself. For a while I was too scared to die and had more friends. But just one day I got the feeling of pure numbness and I was 100% going to kill myself ,It felt like I had lost my soul, I said my goodbyes and everything. I when I was coming home to hang myself I had to take another person home, and after that the feeling dissipated. I've never felt like that before or after, and it was wild. I want to feel that way again, I want to have the determination to kill myself again. Life has gotten so much worse since then, I've been betrayed so hard and I want to die out of a need to and of spite. Idk if y'all know of any way to get back to that point, but sorry I just had to tell someone about this.