Discussion Has anyone else tried nearly everything trying to recover before CTB? (treatment resistant depression)

[MoonShadow]

I have severe treatment resistant depression. Going on 7 years of it. Can't identify any root causes. I've been in therapy for years and tried all the major modalities. I've done intensive group therapy. Been hospitalized many many times. More meds than I can count or remember, all the major classes of antidepressants and whatnot. A long list of personal coping skills. ECT, TMS, ketamine. None of it has helped - at least not in the way that I need.

I'm beginning to suspect that the help or resources that I would need in order to recover does not exist.

The only option left is CTB.

Anyone else experienced this?

 

[apearl]

Yeah I have been struggling with other mental illnesses since childhood but my depression didn't come around till 2019ish, since then it's been just getting worse and worse. I use to feel better during summers, hell I even got diagnosed with seasonal affectiveness disorder, but now its all the time. And 10x worse then it was in 2019. I've been in therapy for 11 years, seen multiple different professionals and been on/off pills for 9 years but none of it has helped me enough to think my life is worth all this burden.

I think I might have been born to kill myself.

I'm sorry you havent been able to find the help you need, I hope you can at least feel a little peace knowing some people on here are in the same boat.