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Thefuture
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- Feb 28, 2022
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I used 1400mg which I've since found out isn't enough. Nonetheless, I was awoken in ICU with a tube down my throat. I was also hallucinating while in the hospital and it was a VERY unpleasant time. I never knew what were real and was hearing voices. Its made me scared of poisoning myself as a ctb method. While I did drift off and there was no pain physically, the mental stuff I was experiencing was worse imo. I also woke up at one point confused screaming I was dying and I couldn't do anything about it. There was a window of consciousness that I knew I was about to lose again any minute. All I can remember is seeing the door handle. I stumbled outside (no idea how) feels like your legs are jelly. I was found on the road. People say they want a peaceful death I feel like that's almost impossible taking something that alters your brain?
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