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Anyone? It's really getting me down tonight. I have no one irl who cares. They all tell me I should get over it. I try to but I was pretty so so much of people's reaction to me included my appearance.
 
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Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
1,515
An acid cleaner just won't stop offgassing... it peels off my skin every day... I look awful. But it's my eyes, lungs, gut & brain that hurts most... I hope you're not in pain.
 
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Littlewittlelight

Littlewittlelight

Specialist
Sep 3, 2022
347
Anyone? It's really getting me down tonight. I have no one irl who cares. They all tell me I should get over it. I try to but I was pretty so so much of people's reaction to me included my appearance.
I can say how it feels to hear that it just hurts if you aren't 10/10 and they say they don't care but they keep making us feel less. We can't even talk about how we feel. When I tried to be concious of my appearance I was told you act like a girl they do skincare you are a guy and now I skip showers proudly and would say to anyone to fuck off anytime because I know humans and It's hurtful this is the end. Humans have advanced too much in making others feel bad they do it by all means and have all the means. Some like satire some just want to say things ahh I am tired of this I will keep doing it badly so half of these stay away from me. It's fucking with my mind how they don't and do care.
 
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Julgran

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,427
Anyone? It's really getting me down tonight. I have no one irl who cares. They all tell me I should get over it. I try to but I was pretty so so much of people's reaction to me included my appearance.

What's bothering you about your appearance...?

A friend invited me and another person to his home when we were about 11 years old. That other person was suffering from DAMP with severe rage outbursts, so he kept being angry and didn't seem to be able to control himself. The host finally said that this other person needed to leave, at which point I was standing in the host's hallway while the other person was about to leave - and then he punched me on the nose, and I have had a broken nose ever since. I think that this is a very mild type of a facial deformity, though, so it hasn't bothered me that much throughout life.
 
Littlewittlelight

Littlewittlelight

Specialist
Sep 3, 2022
347
Anyone? It's really getting me down tonight. I have no one irl who cares. They all tell me I should get over it. I try to but I was pretty so so much of people's reaction to me included my appearance.
I can say how it feels to hear that it just hurts if you aren't 10/10 and they say they don't care but they keep making us feel less. We can't even talk about how we feel. When I tried to be concious of my appearance I was told you act like a girl they do skincare you are a guy and now I skip showers proudly and would say to anyone to fuck off anytime because I know humans and It's hurtful this is the end. Humans have advanced too much in making others feel bad they do it by all means and have all the means. Some like satire some just want to say things ahh I am tired of this I will keep doing it badly so half of these stay away from me. It's fucking with my mind how they don't and do care.
 
GasMonkey

GasMonkey

Nitrogen Master Race
May 15, 2022
1,878
I hit hard my face at 9 while skating and I broke my nose -> deviated septum + nasal blockage -> sinusitis + allergies -> mouth breathing.

It affected my facial growth and harmony, definitely one of the reasons why I'm a KHHV.
 
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humaneyes__

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Aug 27, 2022
15
I'm sorry to hear about your experiences.

I cannot relate specifically to facial injuries - and even less to the difficult sense of loss of something that you once had. But in a more general sense, I can commiserate with the social invisibility resulting from atypical physical features.

Not a great time in human history to carry visible injuries or to be unattractive in general, given the ubiquity of visual media and the perception of an infinite source of better alternatives.

Not that I am doing anything noble to lower the average of mankind's superficiality...
 
Suicidebydeath

Suicidebydeath

No chances to be happy - dead inside
Nov 25, 2021
3,558
I have quite a few scars and a broken nose. I don't mind them.
 
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fullofregrets

Member
Jul 25, 2021
35
Yes, I have severe deep acne scars. It's the main reason I want it end it as well.

Had social anxiety all my life, but it was manageable before I had these scars. People used to approach me and I had a lonely yet okayish life. The scars made me look absolutely hideous. I want to live badly but the quality has sunken so much that I'd rather die than live my shitty life.
 
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John-LW

Member
Sep 3, 2022
38
I've had my face rebuilt after a bad motorbike crash. I lost 14teeth, broke my lower jaw in 3 places, 2 brakes to the upper jaw and 17 facial fractures along with a pierced right cornea. Atleast I don't have to look at me every dau
 
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Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
1,120
I broke my nose x2 pushing it upwards. I now look like a pig tbh. I injured my eyes so they are now a different colour than before and are also a different colour from one another. I have scarring on my skin and I have a skin condition called rosacea. My body's also been affected badly by medication but that's another story.

Do you guys get sympathy for it? I get none personally.
 
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makethepainstop

Visionary
Sep 16, 2022
2,029
I'm sorry to all who have suffered injuries. It'd a sad fact the if someone is different, other humans see us as undesirable. They never look at the what is inside the container. They only look at the container. Stupid like judging books by their covers.
 
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purella

Member
Sep 15, 2021
65
What's bothering you about your appearance...?

A friend invited me and another person to his home when we were about 11 years old. That other person was suffering from DAMP with severe rage outbursts, so he kept being angry and didn't seem to be able to control himself. The host finally said that this other person needed to leave, at which point I was standing in the host's hallway while the other person was about to leave - and then he punched me on the nose, and I have had a broken nose ever since. I think that this is a very mild type of a facial deformity, though, so it hasn't bothered me that much throughout life.
Yeah my dad broke my nose, I haven't breathed normally and struggle to fall asleep every day since because of it, can't afford surgery. Noticeable drop in interest from girls
 
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Jul 3, 2022
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Yeah my dad broke my nose, I haven't breathed normally and struggle to fall asleep every day since because of it, can't afford surgery. Noticeable drop in interest from girls
My dad didn't break my nose but he didn't want me going to the doctor's in case he was blamed and seeing as he's been violent before I was scared. I look normal...well my skin looks pretty bad,but in general I look normal but I look a lot worse. A very noticeable drop in interest also, even given the fact I'm older now.
 
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makethepainstop

Visionary
Sep 16, 2022
2,029
I'm sorry to all who have suffered injuries. It'd a sad fact the if someone is different, other humans see us as undesirable. They never look at the what is inside the container. They only look at the container. Stupid like judging books by their covers.
 
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Hope:-)

Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
1,120
Mine really, really get me down. I used to know I was pretty because I was. Now I know I'm not and when anyone mentions appearance I get so down and I don't like watching tv anymore because of it. Even though we're not on speaking terms anyway I wouldn't want to go out with my sisters because of it. Whenever I was introduced as my sister's sister I wanted to say 'I didn't always look like this,' because people tend to compare sister's looks. There are so many references to appearance on tv and in life. My injuries were due to medication induced mania and they do contribute to my decision to hopefully ctb. Now I would be seen by my sisters friends etc as the mentally ill, (because that's what my family propagates about me,) and the unattractive one whereas I was pretty as them before and once led a successful life. Really hope I have the commitment and courage to not do this anymore.
 
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Suicidebydeath

No chances to be happy - dead inside
Nov 25, 2021
3,558
I broke my nose x2 pushing it upwards. I now look like a pig tbh. I injured my eyes so they are now a different colour than before and are also a different colour from one another. I have scarring on my skin and I have a skin condition called rosacea. My body's also been affected badly by medication but that's another story.

Do you guys get sympathy for it? I get none personally.
In my experience there's no such thing at all as sympathy for looks, it's the exact opposite, I hate that the most about this world. I'm not ugly and get called good looking so maybe it doesn't affect me enough to get sympathy.

My facial scarring is from cuts & stabs (other people not me), I've never had acne. I also have rosacea and my scleara are a little/lot red, and my body was physically very badly affected by a misdiagnosis but not medication. I ignore all these mostly, and there's probably treatments for them. I don't think people notice them too much.

Personally I think upturned noses and heterochromia look really nice. I'm sorry you have to go through all of this.
 
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Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
1,120
So much for me feeling better about it. I feel terrible about it again...
 
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Jumper Seoirse

Jumper Seoirse

Student
Apr 8, 2022
160
Thank you for a trip down, in 1996 there was a competition before the new football stadium opened in Bermondsey Ok I will add a few vid's for info, :smiling:

My bloody Turkish mate said there is a competition if we win we play in front of the Millwall crowd before the main match at the new Den, what can I say young and stupid anyway I mustered my mates together we had never played together haha just typical give us a few grams of charlie and we are up for anything.

So my white crowd and the Turk, there were 600 young black guys in a South London park we mustered a team on the day haha we lost 8-0, 8-0 and low and behold I scored 1 goal well I was a hero we lost 8-1 the whole park erupted in celebration but when I went for a header one guy come up and headbutted me and there was blood everywhere and the next thing his brother come on and battered the shit out of him, :smiling: don't know why maybe because I'm fucking Millwall but he bro was cool.





Cheers

Geo
 
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SuzeWantsOut

Member
Sep 17, 2022
13
I had my front teeth smashed at age 10 by a neighborhood bully. He was hurtmgvny little sister, and I felt protective of her,trying to stop him, he threw me to the ground and I hit the pavement teeth first. This has me very very down right now, because my vriehs—which I myself had to pay for last time—are finally too worn and need to be replaced. It will cost about $7000 to replace both crowns, extract one that now needs to be removed, forget the cost of an imlabt, all because I thought my sister needed help. Today? She has shared every private bit of information about me she can, including my suicide attempt in 2010, and has managed to get even with me because our deceased father didnt rally care for her and her bullshit. (She's histrionic personality disorder)

I'd love to give the bill to her and her husband, in their pretty house in the 'burbs. It's a nice fantasy, but they're greedy and would never help me.m

How I wish I'd just let that kid keep shoving grass down her shirt. When I look in the mirror, I'm so disgusted by what I see. I try to hide my teeth when I talk. It's also really rally expensive and panful. It contributes to my desire to Ctb. No one will help me. My family laughs at my troubles. I'm a source of perverted entertainment for them, snd my idiot sister is the ring leader—all that over envy of a sister who loved her enough to put herself in harms way to safe her.

Fuck my sister.

I'm going to have to change my phone number again, because she got it and now won't stop texting me. Amazing, the girl-woman snickering about her sister's suicide attempt and sharing that confidential info with every person she could,now keeps texting: do I want to call and talk? She's the same ass hat she was at age 15, addicted to the phone, talking about her great beauty, and of course, sharing and fishing for gossip.

She's such a Christian. A saint. That's rally how she sew herself. I was the "smart one," but I was pretty too. Now, as a sex worker, I am horrified by my teeth. Yah, fuck her.

I know this not anywhere near the facial damage others are talking about, but when I heard this week how much to fix it, I felt so defeated. If I just let the existing crowns fall off, as they are doing, it won't solve the problem. I have to do something about it.

How the hell do people afford life? And why are teeth not considered part of our bodies? Re health insurance, I mean?

I hate this life. I just want to be done.
 

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