Discussion Has anyone dismissed any of your reasons to die?

[Circles]

Like has anyone invalidated or said that any of your reasons to die were not worth it or reasonable or even to say stupid? And if so what's a reason of yours that someone didn't agree with? For example for myself one of my top reasons why I want to die is loneliness and the thought of being lonely all my life, and I remember I talked about this on Reddit one time and got numerous of people telling me how my reasons to die weren't worth it and such.

 

[justtiredofit]

I usually got the "other people have it worse" line to invalidate any reason I have.

 

[ameliacecelia]

My father has said that he believes one day I'm going to wake up and my illness will be gone. I realize that's his coping strategy for seeing me deteriorate. My mom says that miracles happen everyday and that there's probably a treatment out there we just haven't found yet. I realize they are trying to maintain hope. It's tough for me though, because I know they see me getting worse, and it feels dismissive.

 

[tieiwi]

Yes! Even worse it's the people I live with so I get the privilege of being constantly reminded that they don't find my feelings important. I was told that I was throwing a tantrum one time when I had a breakdown over being suicidal. I want to die because of my abusive childhood and dysfunctional family. No matter where I go they will always be there and I'm not that strong of a person to just ignore them or cut them out of my life. Best thing for it all to stop is to die.

 

[Sea Turtle]

People who haven't felt this way tend to think there is no valid reason to want to die. They think everything can be fixed with medication and therapy and that it'll make us realize the world is all sunshine and rainbows once again.

 

[Symbiote]

All the time! Some even have tried to one-up me like it's a competition. Experienced it in the real world and on here too. Even my family has done it. And they all wonder why I never speak to anyone about my feelings.

 

[Red Scare]

Yes... I think probably they can't admit or see that this really is that bad for me... everyone wants to insist I will feel better with time, that this can and will get better.

I especially can't express myself in support groups or around people who are dealing with the same problem. Because me saying I want to die, invalidates the "progress" they have made, and dispels their toxic positivity, drives home the reality that it really does get this bad. I have been kicked out of Facebook groups, Reddit subs, other support forums, for people who are in my position, because I refuse to blindly accept this will get better or lie to myself about the progress I make, when shit really is bad and isn't getting better.

 

[Superdeterminist]

Yes, even some on this site, which is sad to see.

 

[_Seeking]

Yes, a relative was shocked that anyone would want to kill themself over anything, much less debilitating pain conditions. I was told that people do not think the way that I think. I think it is shocking for people that do not have suicidal thoughts to hear that some of us do.

 

[quothTheRaven9]

Every reason I have had been invalidated or minimized by family, friends, and clinicians.

As if being told that none of the things that are tearing me up matter makes me want to ctb any less.

 

[vapauttaa]

All of the time.

I feel more and more despondent and detached from people. Broke things off with my partner recently as I prepare to CTB.

I was trying hard to "make it work" but the trauma is so deep and twisted, I just want all of this to be over.

 

[Green Destiny]

I never told my mom the reasons why I wish to CTB, she simply said "It's not good to think like that" and the whole "Be grateful we have a roof over our heads" schtick. She just doesn't want to acknowledge my suicidal feelings.

 

[Life sucks]

I want to ctb now and everyone will misunderstand or downplay if I say the reason

 

[whatevs]

All the time! Some even have tried to one-up me like it's a competition. Experienced it in the real world and on here too. Even my family has done it. And they all wonder why I never speak to anyone about my feelings.

That's because your feelings are overrated. I'm much sadder than you.

 

[Ednospatient]

I vomit multiple times a day and nobody knows why, but a staff member here harshly said "You're almost healthy you have nothing to worry about" like REALLY?

 

[Buddha.e.c]

All the time:( in my case they dont realize at the moment but when the day comes all the emotions you wanted them to show will come after you CTB.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Often. To be fair, my reason seems pretty trivial since boohoo I'm 12 years away from being a movie starring Steve Carrell.

Too bad that I'm an obsessive and evil person overall so it's an objective fact that as long as I'm alive and my life isn't a perfect fantasy then I'm going to bring down the people around me to make their lives worse too.

The people trivializing my reasons to CTB are either too stupid to realize I need to be killed or they know and are even more evil themselves for willfully wishing for the suffering I am going to inflict.

 

[Cathy Ames]

I vomit multiple times a day and nobody knows why, but a staff member here harshly said "You're almost healthy you have nothing to worry about" like REALLY?

That's horrible and callous. I don't understand why they don't try to figure out what's going on with your health. [Actually, I do, assuming you live in the U.S.] Do you have anyone to advocate for you against the healthcare industrial complex? I have noticed that people with money and/or relatives who are doctors seem to get far better care. But sometimes a "squeaky wheel" situation will suffice.