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Kyotospade

Kyotospade

After grief , only pain remains.
Jan 5, 2025
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I'm curious to know people's experiences with being brought back to life and what they saw on the otherside.
 
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StrawberryRed

StrawberryRed

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Oct 16, 2024
38
Oh I died! I drowned when I was 5 in a pool and had to be resuscitated. My heart stopped. The drowning part was very peaceful, I didnt freak out at all. It didnt hurt, it felt like goingto bed. Maybe because I was so young and didnt under and what was happening. I didnt see anything but I remember it felt very warm and like cozy, like being hugged really tight. I remember being resuscitated and it was like having the sheets pulled off of you, and I was really annoyed because of the yelling. Like I was just taking a REALLLY good nap. Yeah, idk, not that interesting but that's my experience. I was only unconscious for like a minute or two , so maybe If I was dead a little longer I would have seen something?
 
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Kyotospade

Kyotospade

After grief , only pain remains.
Jan 5, 2025
73
Oh I died! I drowned when I was 5 in a pool and had to be resuscitated. My heart stopped. The drowning part was very peaceful, I didnt freak out at all. It didnt hurt, it felt like goingto bed. Maybe because I was so young and didnt under and what was happening. I didnt see anything but I remember it felt very warm and like cozy, like being hugged really tight. I remember being resuscitated and it was like having the sheets pulled off of you, and I was really annoyed because of the yelling. Like I was just taking a REALLLY good nap. Yeah, idk, not that interesting but that's my experience. I was only unconscious for like a minute or two , so maybe If I was dead a little longer I would have seen something?
Thank you so much for sharing!
 
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DavidWong

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Oct 7, 2024
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I'm not too sure what details you are looking for, but back in September I attempted suicide by flipping my vehicle. I don't remember anything after flipping it until I woke up in an ambulance with an officer performing chest compressions on me. I apparently woke up and screamed, "Don't save me. I want to die." Then I promptly fell unconscious. Everything was kind of foggy and blur in the ambulance. The next thing I clearly remember is waking up in the hospital.

I originally thought that I was just knocked unconscious after wrecking my vehicle. The doctors later told me that I had actually "died" for about three minutes. No pulse, no breathing, no nothing. All I "remember" is darkness. It was like I fell asleep, I guess. Like I said, after wrecking my car, the next thing I remembered was waking up in an ambulance.

I had a bit of philosophical discussion with my best buddy who is Christian while I am, hell idk, agnostic. I told him that during those moments where I was technically dead, all I remembered was darkness. I jokingly said that it must have been hell. All he said was maybe, but that me remembering only darkness didn't sway his beliefs; I wasn't trying to change his beliefs and he knew that, fyi. He also told me that I wouldn't have ended up in hell since I'm a "good" person, and that I just hadn't reached heaven yet since it wasn't my time to go. He's too good of a buddy; I don't deserve him.

Anyway, if you have questions ask. That's my story.
 
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Kyotospade

Kyotospade

After grief , only pain remains.
Jan 5, 2025
73
I'm not too sure what details you are looking for, but back in September I attempted suicide by flipping my vehicle. I don't remember anything after flipping it until I woke up in an ambulance with an officer performing chest compressions on me. I apparently woke up and screamed, "Don't save me. I want to die." Then I promptly fell unconscious. Everything was kind of foggy and blur in the ambulance. The next thing I clearly remember is waking up in the hospital.

I originally thought that I was just knocked unconscious after wrecking my vehicle. The doctors later told me that I had actually "died" for about three minutes. No pulse, no breathing, no nothing. All I "remember" is darkness. It was like I fell asleep, I guess. Like I said, after wrecking my car, the next thing I remembered was waking up in an ambulance.

I had a bit of philosophical discussion with my best buddy who is Christian while I am, hell idk, agnostic. I told him that during those moments where I was technically dead, all I remembered was darkness. I jokingly said that it must have been hell. All he said was maybe, but that me remembering only darkness didn't sway his beliefs; I wasn't trying to change his beliefs and he knew that, fyi. He also told me that I wouldn't have ended up in hell since I'm a "good" person, and that I just hadn't reached heaven yet since it wasn't my time to go. He's too good of a buddy; I don't deserve him.

Anyway, if you have questions ask. That's my story.
That's the exact information im looking for, thank you so much!
 
sleepforever81

sleepforever81

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Aug 23, 2021
67
In July last year i was resuscitated twice after taking an unsurvivable about of amitriptyline and zopiclone. I was resuscitated at the scene where I was found and again in resus. While I was dead in resus I remember looking down at my body as I was floating above it. Everything felt so peaceful and the love was powerful. I saw all the doctors and nurses working on me, desperately trying to save me, one said we are losing him. My next sensation i was in a massive courtyard with marble colloms that went on forever into the sky. The buildings looked like Greek buildings from 2000 years ago. I its really hard to describe the colours, they were so vibrant and colourful, nothing like the colours on earth 🌎
I flew through a countryside filled with animals just like a scene from earth, but it was filled with love.
I wanted to stay there, but was told it wasn't my time.
 
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Kyotospade

Kyotospade

After grief , only pain remains.
Jan 5, 2025
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In July last year i was resuscitated twice after taking an unsurvivable about of amitriptyline and zopiclone. I was resuscitated at the scene where I was found and again in resus. While I was dead in resus I remember looking down at my body as I was floating above it. Everything felt so peaceful and the love was powerful. I saw all the doctors and nurses working on me, desperately trying to save me, one said we are losing him. My next sensation i was in a massive courtyard with marble colloms that went on forever into the sky. The buildings looked like Greek buildings from 2000 years ago. I its really hard to describe the colours, they were so vibrant and colourful, nothing like the colours on earth 🌎
I flew through a countryside filled with animals just like a scene from earth, but it was filled with love.
I wanted to stay there, but was told it wasn't my time.
I bet that was a interesting experience
 
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NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
32
I remember when I was pretty close to dying when I first had a seizure during my sleep. I didn't feel anything during it, but apparently my face was completely pale and blue. Only when I woke up is when I felt a big headache and my limbs hurting all over. I could have had the chance to die in my sleep, but oh well.
 
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Daxter777

Daxter777

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May 22, 2023
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Oh I died! I drowned when I was 5 in a pool and had to be resuscitated. My heart stopped. The drowning part was very peaceful, I didnt freak out at all. It didnt hurt, it felt like goingto bed. Maybe because I was so young and didnt under and what was happening. I didnt see anything but I remember it felt very warm and like cozy, like being hugged really tight. I remember being resuscitated and it was like having the sheets pulled off of you, and I was really annoyed because of the yelling. Like I was just taking a REALLLY good nap. Yeah, idk, not that interesting but that's my experience. I was only unconscious for like a minute or two , so maybe If I was dead a little longer I would have seen something?
I've read of so many people's accounts that are like yours. It being peaceful and comfortable like a nice sleep. Usually they stated dying was the best thing I've experienced and coming back is the worst" usually followed by a lot of pain thanks to cpr and whatever else trauma they recieved.

Honestly I find it comforting that people like it that much.
I'm not too sure what details you are looking for, but back in September I attempted suicide by flipping my vehicle. I don't remember anything after flipping it until I woke up in an ambulance with an officer performing chest compressions on me. I apparently woke up and screamed, "Don't save me. I want to die." Then I promptly fell unconscious. Everything was kind of foggy and blur in the ambulance. The next thing I clearly remember is waking up in the hospital.

I originally thought that I was just knocked unconscious after wrecking my vehicle. The doctors later told me that I had actually "died" for about three minutes. No pulse, no breathing, no nothing. All I "remember" is darkness. It was like I fell asleep, I guess. Like I said, after wrecking my car, the next thing I remembered was waking up in an ambulance.

I had a bit of philosophical discussion with my best buddy who is Christian while I am, hell idk, agnostic. I told him that during those moments where I was technically dead, all I remembered was darkness. I jokingly said that it must have been hell. All he said was maybe, but that me remembering only darkness didn't sway his beliefs; I wasn't trying to change his beliefs and he knew that, fyi. He also told me that I wouldn't have ended up in hell since I'm a "good" person, and that I just hadn't reached heaven yet since it wasn't my time to go. He's too good of a buddy; I don't deserve him.

Anyway, if you have questions ask. That's my story.
Damn you need to get a DNR, I would have been livid
 
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AuroraB

AuroraB

Student
Oct 20, 2024
192
In 1976 I had a valium and booze intentional overdose. Friend called my mom. I don't remember anything at all except waking up floating above my body for a few minutes in a glass medical room and feeling myself pulling a tube out of my nose and seeing my parents (divorced, hated each other) both outside the glass room looking very concerned. I remember seeing machines and medical staff. It was peaceful. I don't know if medically I had died at that point but I was pretty much unconscious except for seeing myself and the scene from above.
 
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supergold#2

supergold#2

sapphic, suicidal, and stupid
Oct 20, 2024
39
almost exactly a year ago i intentionally overdosed on an absurd amount of temazepam and fentanyl and was legally dead for >15 minutes (no pulse, breathing, etc.), and subsequently was in a coma for 3 days following. i had been discovered by some bystander who apparently immediately started cpr and gave me 2 doses of narcan, but my vitals didn't return until paramedics arrived and repeated the proccess.

i genuinely don't remember anything; from my perspective, i did the deed, everything went black, then suddenly i was awake in the hospital 3 days later. for me, it wasn't scary, i didn't feel any pain (until i woke up in the hospital with like, all of my ribs broken from cpr), it was just a warm, gentle drift into nothing, kinda like a dreamless sleep

Edit: i should mention that, yes, i do have some noticable brain damage from the attempt
 
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Lo$t95

Lo$t95

Hello Darkness my old Friend
Jul 16, 2024
113
Couple of drug overdoses (5 I think) in my early 20s but remember nothing after passing out losing consciousness - bouncers, paramedics or friends always intervened. Longest I was dead was 2:36.
 
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pleaseletmein899

pleaseletmein899

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Oct 30, 2024
16
I didn't die but was very very close. I kept going in and out and it felt like I would blink and be somewhere else and blink again.

I begged to God to take me. Lots of darkness. Eventually I woke up in ICU. I was very mad.
 
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Kyotospade

Kyotospade

After grief , only pain remains.
Jan 5, 2025
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I've overdosed a lot and I've hung myself but fell as soon as I started to fade away but one od I was dead for a full minute.
I took 3000mg of benadryl in a dumb attempt to see how big of a high I could get and I definitely got what I was asking for. It was as if I was in hell and then I started seizing up only to wake in the hospital later that night .
I was having seizures and delirum for like a week .

I have permanent brain damage from it .
 
magicalsarcoma

magicalsarcoma

sending love to cats
Apr 4, 2022
105
All i saw was vague shit. I was very-very confused and couldn't move
 
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