Discussion Hardest thing regarding CTB?

[silligant]

What's the hardest thing to get over before/preparing for CTB?

I'll go first and say the hardest part so far has been psyching myself into actually doing it. What I mainly mean is disregarding the feelings of others. I'm not entirely past it yet. At times it feels irredeemably selfish, like a huge waste to destroy my mind and my place in others' hearts; it feels like murder, as though I am killing someone, some thing that still partially desires to survive.

Finding a method and planning it out has been relatively easy so far.

 

[zeek]

actually buying a method has been my roadblock. It feels like once I really have a painless way out, its over and I can't be saved

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case it's the fact that all the suicide methods are either risky or inaccessible, it disgusts me how suicide is purposely made as difficult as possible in this cruel world where there is endless potential to suffer. If there was a guaranteed way to just peacefully leave this existence I'd have no problems in going through with ctb, it would be such a relief if that's the case.

 

[TransientEternal]

Getting all the materials for a method and doing it at a time where you won't be found. Also, SI is a bitch.

 

[SVEN]

Getting the means for a relatively easier ctb presents the main problem, certainly in the UK.

 

[SmollMushroom]

Getting all the materials for a method and doing it at a time where you won't be found.

+ gathering all the infos about how to use what you acquired in the best way, and plan everything carefully before going for it.

 

[InLoveWithAGhost]

Going to have to agree with disregarding the feelings of others. It is pretty selfish, the only thing to be done is accept the selfishness inherent in the act. Finding a working method is probably #2 for me though lmao

 

[silligant]

Going to have to agree with disregarding the feelings of others. It is pretty selfish, the only thing to be done is accept the selfishness inherent in the act. Finding a working method is probably #2 for me though lmao

I have to say that at the moment the only reason a method seems so easy is because of naivety. I haven't attempted it in earnest any time recently.

 

[InLoveWithAGhost]

I have to say that at the moment the only reason a method seems so easy is because of naivety. I haven't attempted it in earnest any time recently.

Yeah. It's easy thinking "I can do this" until SI and pain show up like