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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
I wish other human beings well but it's so hard to endure encountering joy in other people while feeling this wretched.

When you dedicated yourself to saving another human being and sacrificed your well-being on their behalf only to Find yourself betrayed.

Left alone And abandoned.

If I were able to express my emotions properly I would probably be smashing plates and putting my fist through the wall. But I only ever just blamed myself and turn the violence inward Creating mortal depression and now this desire for suicide.

It's truly a horrible predicament. I can see how this makes people evil. Inspires people to become mass shooters. I would never want to harm other human beings but I can see the process. It's hideous.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,770
It just makes me feel empty when I see people who appear to be enjoying life. I think they must be delusional, what is there to be happy about in a life as painful as this.
Betrayal must be one of the worst feelings. Of course all people are selfish and they would do anything to make themselves feel better. It is better not to associate with others in my opinion.
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
2,473
You dont have a moral obligation to be happy for others. People who espouse that are often virtue signalling or lying to themselves so to feel like they are good people
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
You dont have a moral obligation to be happy for others. People who espouse that are often virtue signalling or lying to themselves so to feel like they are good people
I don't feel any obligation whatsoever. And these people seem genuinely happy which is great for them. It's just painful to not be able to share and their joy. That's all.
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
2,473
I don't feel any obligation whatsoever. And these people seem genuinely happy which is great for them. It's just painful to not be able to share and their joy. That's all.
Happiness is fleeting. If its any consolation to you to know that their joy is temporary and passing even if it doesnt seem so. You had your joyful moments which passed and so would theirs.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
Happiness is fleeting. If its any consolation to you to know that their joy is temporary and passing even if it doesnt seem so. You had your joyful moments which passed and so would theirs.
I'll take it fleeting or not :-)
 
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Aeathelina

Aeathelina

Little Homeless Girl
Feb 5, 2020
307
I do through phases of being resentful of those who are happy but then it quickly dies and is replaced with feelings that I don't deserve happiness because I'm a worthless piece of trash that doesn't even deserve to breathe air
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
I do through phases of being resentful of those who are happy but then it quickly dies and is replaced with feelings that I don't deserve happiness because I'm a worthless piece of trash that doesn't even deserve to breathe air
I don't resent their happiness at all. I would just like some for myself
 
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Mae

Member
Dec 18, 2021
9
Some of us are riddled with pain. Others, blissfully unaware of the suffering of others. Some just oblivious. A few truly happy. Each one of us has to decide how to best adapt to our circumstances.
 
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rationalis

Student
Nov 25, 2021
158
From my perspective emotions are electrochemical processes so I don't envy them in others. People are wired differently.
 
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Dragon's Heart

Dragon's Heart

Well, that didnt go as planned.
Dec 14, 2021
77
I don't feel any obligation whatsoever. And these people seem genuinely happy which is great for them. It's just painful to not be able to share and their joy. That's all.
Yes, when I see someone is happy or joyous, I feel drawn to share the feeling with them. Disconnection from others in general stops that feeling cold. The dissonance then adds to feeling even more isolated.
 
OnlyTheWind

OnlyTheWind

Serena / Meatball head
Aug 29, 2020
962
People who have the life I want but will never have, make me jealous and bitter.
 
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HelloAllYouPeople

Member
Jul 6, 2021
65
Good for them if they are. I quit socmed because I cant stand seeing happy people. I always end up comparing myself to them, even if I know we have very different goals in life.

But when they spill pro-life "get help uwu" bullshit I cant stand it. We live in very different worlds. They have no right to vomit that "life gets better" garbage on me
 

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