Discussion Happy New Year

[CuriousAboutThis]

New Years Poem

The old year dies,
Full of tears and blood,
Death of loved ones,
And loss of hope.

The new year is born,
Empty with loneliness,
Death waiting for so many,
And hope is still lost.

Art and Poetry is one of the few things I like about life but suicidal thoughts is what makes me wish for death and of course other people depending on the people and also depends on myself.

 

[CuriousAboutThis]

I am planning to hide in the corner of the chat box, munch on snax, chain smoke, and take a few sleeping tablets. Maybe some wine. It's a shame really, I should be out and about enjoying life instead but alas, this is my reality.

I don't expect 2019 to be much better, if at all. However, I hope everyone has a better year than those prior and they are able to move forward or find peace.

May we find peace in life or peace in death quickly and painlessly

 

[CuriousAboutThis]

The same old things I do everyday. Video games, listening to music, browsing the Internet, and just watching porn. I've kinda decided to just live life aimlessly, expectations set at the absolute minimum, don't really care much about anything as everything is just bullshit and futile, so superficial. If I don't ctb in 2019 or die from something else, I'd probably just help people out in our small community here and maybe contribute more interesting topics and threads here as well as try to debunk pro-life shit, and try to push for pro-choice stuff assuming I have enough energy to do so.

@JJ-NOHOPE This is a good poem, it summarizes the state of the human life time and time.

More or less the same life style as me except I live off the state getting Social Security Disability Check's which I probably don't deserve or maybe I do maybe volunteer or just go with the flow and deal with everyone's bullshit including my own and try to support myself while also going out to the vape shop because I like supporting that store cool people there and I like the flavors not certain if I could ever do another suicide attempt or CTB try not to let others control my emotions or feelings wish I had a switch to turn off sensitivity but if needed I'll keep checking this site or if I reach that point hope that someone helps me out with a CTB if am ready for it you have to have no cowardice, fear, thought of pain and or survival instincts then you can practically do anything either get broken down like last time or reach the point where I am ready to go.

 

[Skathon]

I slept until 23:30, had been in the shower during the celebration, then played one of the RPGs, drinking coffee, and leafed through a few fan artworks. "How can I feel this empty?" ©
It was far better when alcohol and other psychotropic substances still, hm, worked.