Happy Birthday to Me; guess this is my life

[SimplyTopHat]

As the title suggests, it's my birthday.

I'm alone, pissed off &the more I think about it, I can't wait until my time is up.

My plans have changed &I need to support another person before I can go on. This person means the world to me &I would do anything to make them feel better, though on the other hand I am finished with this life. I'm so angry right now that I cut myself &felt no relief, so now I'm just laying in bed watching All the Bright Places for the 3rd time this month so I don't feel so alone with suicidal thoughts...

 

[faust]

Happy Birthday, @SimplyTopHat
It is very noble to help somebody before you go, especially if that person means much to you.
On your Birthday I wish you find peace soon, whether it is this world or another and find some decent people on your way

 

[Jean4]

You aren't alone!! You have your family here!!

 

[Cjaf]

As the title suggests, it's my birthday.

I'm alone, pissed off &the more I think about it, I can't wait until my time is up.

My plans have changed &I need to support another person before I can go on. This person means the world to me &I would do anything to make them feel better, though on the other hand I am finished with this life. I'm so angry right now that I cut myself &felt no relief, so now I'm just laying in bed watching All the Bright Places for the 3rd time this month so I don't feel so alone with suicidal thoughts...

I wish I could wish you a happy birthday but I won't. Because it's not reading from your post.
I'm sorry you're suffering so much and it must feel very lonely. I hope watching TV and talking with people on this forum will distract you a little.
All the best.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Happy Birthday! Don't feel too bad my Birthdays usually suck too. An you're not alone we are here for you!

 

[Cjaf]

I wish I could wish you a happy birthday but I won't. Because it's not reading from your post.
I'm sorry you're suffering so much and it must feel very lonely. I hope watching TV and talking with people on this forum will distract you a little.
All the best.

I don't know you but if there is anything I can do, pm me. Whether it's for small talk or venting. You're not alone.

 

[Anon2662]

Sorry you are feeling shitty! :( here if you need to talk

 

[SimplyTopHat]

Happy Birthday, @SimplyTopHat
It is very noble to help somebody before you go, especially if that person means much to you.
On your Birthday I wish you find peace soon, whether it is this world or another and find some decent people on your way

Thank you.This is something I've been doing since I was young. It hurt me to see people feeling so down, I had to step in, bd their support, help them find things that make life worthwhile. I'm exhausted but this person is worth the pain.

You aren't alone!! You have your family here!!
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Thank you, this gif's pretty cute.

I wish I could wish you a happy birthday but I won't. Because it's not reading from your post.
I'm sorry you're suffering so much and it must feel very lonely. I hope watching TV and talking with people on this forum will distract you a little.
All the best.

Thank you, I appreciate the distraction but I would rather feel halfway decent on my birthday.

 

[Jumper Geo]

As the title suggests, it's my birthday.

I'm alone, pissed off &the more I think about it, I can't wait until my time is up.

My plans have changed &I need to support another person before I can go on. This person means the world to me &I would do anything to make them feel better, though on the other hand I am finished with this life. I'm so angry right now that I cut myself &felt no relief, so now I'm just laying in bed watching All the Bright Places for the 3rd time this month so I don't feel so alone with suicidal thoughts...

Happy Birthday

I hope you can treat yourself to a few nice films

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm sorry that you feel so alone on your birthday, that isn't right. Here, have some cake.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Curious what you're doing to support this other person.

Sending hugs for your frustration.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Have as good a birthday as you can given the circumstances. I always hated my birthdays.

 

[SimplyTopHat]

Happy Birthday

I hope you can treat yourself to a few nice films

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Thank you. :)

Curious what you're doing to support this other person.

Sending hugs for your frustration.

Collectively we lost someone &they were much closer to my friend than I. So as I've always been able to turn to them for support, I need be there for them &keep them steady until they have the tools to stand alone. It's my chance to do something right, so when my turn comes around they don't completely fall apart.

 

[bpdteacher]

How incredibly selfless to help another. I think that makes you quite awesome.
Birthday? Nah, you've just levelled up.

 

[Lostandfound7]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE!

I know the feeling tho..My last bday in august SUCKED! I was pissed at my husband n ended up leaving him in the house n taking myself out to dinner..I actually had a great time..I was pretty good company..lol

Take time today n try to do something for YOU..whatever that may be.. Sending u love and a cake

 

[Beautiful_Disgrace]

Happy birthday. I wish it was happier. I used to love my birthdays, but now they're cursed. Last year I lost my job the day before and this year I became homeless. So I know how crappy it feels.

 

[TheLastGoodbye]

Happy birthday!

 

[Final Escape]

Happy birthday
Well shit, I'm sorry u are having such a terrible birthday. I know what those are like, I've had many bad ones.

 

[SimplyTopHat]

Happy birthday. I wish it was happier. I used to love my birthdays, but now they're cursed. Last year I lost my job the day before and this year I became homeless. So I know how crappy it feels.

I've been homeless for a stint too, it's not a pleasant feeling. Thanks for theBirthday wishes.

Happy birthday
Well shit, I'm sorry u are having such a terrible birthday. I know what those are like, I've had many bad ones.

As far as Birthday days go, this is pretty shitty:
- No HBD text from Best Friend
- Excluded from family trip, asked only as an after thought when I brought it up
- Told "I didn't think you would want to come bc of your issues with your mother." (Thanks Dad, nvm what she's done to me over the years)
- Body so banged up, that extended walking/standing is problematic
- Crying alone in my bedroom

Happy 30th to me.

 

[Jumper Geo]

I've been homeless for a stint too, it's not a pleasant feeling. Thanks for theBirthday wishes.



As far as Birthday days go, this is pretty shitty:
- No HBD text from Best Friend
- Excluded from family trip, asked only as an after thought when I brought it up
- Told "I didn't think you would want to come bc of your issues with your mother." (Thanks Dad, nvm what she's done to me over the years)
- Body so banged up, that extended walking/standing is problematic
- Crying alone in my bedroom

Happy 30th to me.

Sorry man, can't you get out and buy a few beers.

 

[bpdandme]

Happy Birthday - look after yourself. People would have only been a let down anyway!

 

[SimplyTopHat]

Sorry man, can't you get out and buy a few beers.

I've been mulling that over in my mind, but I don't know if I should be drinking alone.

 

[Lostandfound7]

I've been homeless for a stint too, it's not a pleasant feeling. Thanks for theBirthday wishes.



As far as Birthday days go, this is pretty shitty:
- No HBD text from Best Friend
- Excluded from family trip, asked only as an after thought when I brought it up
- Told "I didn't think you would want to come bc of your issues with your mother." (Thanks Dad, nvm what she's done to me over the years)
- Body so banged up, that extended walking/standing is problematic
- Crying alone in my bedroom

Happy 30th to me.

Im so sorry to hear that...Def painful

 

[Jumper Geo]

I've been mulling that over in my mind, but I don't know if I should be drinking alone.

It's your birthday just enjoy a few beers it won't hurt.

 

[SimplyTopHat]

It's your birthday just enjoy a few beers it won't hurt.

Yeah, I guess your right. It's not like there's anyone around anyway who can judge me.

 

[Jumper Geo]

Yeah, I guess your right. It's not like there's anyone around anyway who can judge me.

Go for it you may feel better with a couple of beers in you.

 

[Noel17]

Happy birthday fella. Split from my wife on my 50th, so share your view on Birthdays, but looks like there are a few people out there thinking about you.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I hope for the rest of the day you have a Happy Birthday.

 

[Final Escape]

I've been homeless for a stint too, it's not a pleasant feeling. Thanks for theBirthday wishes.



As far as Birthday days go, this is pretty shitty:
- No HBD text from Best Friend
- Excluded from family trip, asked only as an after thought when I brought it up
- Told "I didn't think you would want to come bc of your issues with your mother." (Thanks Dad, nvm what she's done to me over the years)
- Body so banged up, that extended walking/standing is problematic
- Crying alone in my bedroom

Happy 30th to me.

Omg it sounds like u might be the black sheep of your family. If that's the case it is best for u to ditch your toxic family as soon as u are able so u can begin to heal. My narcissist mother pulled that same shit. Her and my bro the golden child went back to Hungary she said she was going to pay for me to go with them but then when they are leaving she asks me why I didn't have the money? Like that gas lighting bullshit they do? I didn't know what gas lighting was or bait and switch. Yea sounds like u will have to cut yourself out of that and start your own life away from those people. Thankfully you are only 30, there's still time to have a happier life. Why is your body banged up?

 

[stevieu]

As the title suggests, it's my birthday.

I'm alone, pissed off &the more I think about it, I can't wait until my time is up.

My plans have changed &I need to support another person before I can go on. This person means the world to me &I would do anything to make them feel better, though on the other hand I am finished with this life. I'm so angry right now that I cut myself &felt no relief, so now I'm just laying in bed watching All the Bright Places for the 3rd time this month so I don't feel so alone with suicidal thoughts...

I'm a grumpy b*stard when it comes to Birthdays, but I shall wish you a Happy Birthday all the same! I hope your situation improves and your friend gets the help they need :)