I would die for to be unconscious in less than 15 seconds.
I am terrified of the pain doing full suspension when the airway is constricted.
From lostallhope.com:
"If the airway is constricted, and full suspension achieved (i.e. feet fully off the floor), this method, at least initially, is likely to be very painful, as the person struggles for air against the compression of the noose and against the weight of their own body, being supported entirely by the neck and jaw. Clark3 quotes estimates of 1 to 3 minutes before unconsciousness sets in, with full death within 20 minutes."
1 to 3 minutes does not seem much, but the thought of the immense pain is what's keeping me from doing it.
But currently this is the only viable option left for me. So close yet so far away.