Hi, I been considering my solutions for a while now. Reading forums, asking question here and there. Googling for information and stuff. While I'm still trying to somehow get my life to a point where it would be worth continue living. But I feel like sooner or later it will come to the end point.
Few things...I don't want to do it in my apartment, or anywhere around where I currently live. I would also by driving for a quite a while to get to my destination and will have to pass the border patrol. As from my experience, it's not much as the border patrol is the real problem but there is a lot of attention from police near the roads to the border crossing. Police Stop is very likely. They usually search everywhere and ask question if there is something little odd.
I have read some suicide methods. And to be honest, just 2 of them seems be realistic to me. 1 - Hanging, 2 - Exit bag. I already got my rope prepared in my car. It's on very nice spot. Doesn't look strange at all. Despite I have a really nice and long, thick rope. Beautiful! Car is not on my name, therefor I could say something silly like ''Oh, I have no idea. That's my xx. xx probably use it for a work or something.'' Or know you like are those car ropes? When an accident happens, and the car is unable to drive they sometimes use car rope. I could say that. But also, rope is not illegal. What can they really do? I have rope in my car? So what? I'm correct here? So, I think the rope method could go smoothly without stress.
Now, I would love to get it done with exit bag. Cause from what I have read you don't feel shit. You just pass out. I really want to have my ear buds and get my music on. Close my eyes and just fall asleep peacefully. But I can't really imagine, going cross border or just generally driving with the stuff back in my car. What would I say then? All the equipment that it requires. The exit bag method seems so pleasant that I was actually thinking doing it in my apartment. But I can't imagine the emotion and facial expression one would had if xx would find me here.
I was thinking. Is there some legal that would knock me out for like 5-10 mins while I'm hanging? Something I could put in my car without worry or too much questions from the police. Easy to buy? Something that I wouldn't be aware of my self or something that would make my way more pleasant? I don't know.
Any thoughts? Ideas? Thanks.
Few things...I don't want to do it in my apartment, or anywhere around where I currently live. I would also by driving for a quite a while to get to my destination and will have to pass the border patrol. As from my experience, it's not much as the border patrol is the real problem but there is a lot of attention from police near the roads to the border crossing. Police Stop is very likely. They usually search everywhere and ask question if there is something little odd.
I have read some suicide methods. And to be honest, just 2 of them seems be realistic to me. 1 - Hanging, 2 - Exit bag. I already got my rope prepared in my car. It's on very nice spot. Doesn't look strange at all. Despite I have a really nice and long, thick rope. Beautiful! Car is not on my name, therefor I could say something silly like ''Oh, I have no idea. That's my xx. xx probably use it for a work or something.'' Or know you like are those car ropes? When an accident happens, and the car is unable to drive they sometimes use car rope. I could say that. But also, rope is not illegal. What can they really do? I have rope in my car? So what? I'm correct here? So, I think the rope method could go smoothly without stress.
Now, I would love to get it done with exit bag. Cause from what I have read you don't feel shit. You just pass out. I really want to have my ear buds and get my music on. Close my eyes and just fall asleep peacefully. But I can't really imagine, going cross border or just generally driving with the stuff back in my car. What would I say then? All the equipment that it requires. The exit bag method seems so pleasant that I was actually thinking doing it in my apartment. But I can't imagine the emotion and facial expression one would had if xx would find me here.
I was thinking. Is there some legal that would knock me out for like 5-10 mins while I'm hanging? Something I could put in my car without worry or too much questions from the police. Easy to buy? Something that I wouldn't be aware of my self or something that would make my way more pleasant? I don't know.
Any thoughts? Ideas? Thanks.
