Hanging or Overdose?

[HappyChipEater]

Hey everyone, (not so)HappyChipEater here. After 6 years of debating ending my life I have finally come to the conclusion over the past few weeks that it is something I would like to go through with.

Currently, my preferred method would be through an overdose as I have access to whatever illegal drugs I would like. The only issue is that I have previously failed an overdose attempt last 3 weeks ago (tried overdosing on valium, codeine and alcohol- forgot to bring enough codeine pills with me). I am now thinking that it may be better for me to attempt this again using a large dose of xanax, tramadol (maybe heroin?) and alcohol. Only issue is that there is a girl that lives in the same accommodation as me that walked into my room the first time and called emergency services, this is why I'm thinking walking to a secluded wooded area and hanging myself via partial suspension would be better.

Does anyone know how effective overdosing on xanax, tramadol and alcohol would be? or should I play it safe and take all 3 drugs just before hanging myself?

 

[Grumpy Bear]

The things about overdosing on drugs is the unpredictability. Narcotics with the exception of a few such as N can led to serious consequences other than death. I know one person who is paralyzed from an OD and another who can't walk. Hanging has its own risks too. I just wanted to give my 2 cents.

 

[HappyChipEater]

The things about overdosing on drugs is the unpredictability. Narcotics with the exception of a few such as N can led to serious consequences other than death. I know one person who is paralyzed from an OD and another who can't walk. Hanging has its own risks too. I just wanted to give my 2 cents.

Oh ok, mind if i ask what they tried to OD on?

 

[virginiawoolfe]

Like you I've tried OD a few times .. still here to tell the tale. Hanging .. well from what I know it can be a long process - friend of a friend ended his life this way recently. The police who discovered him reported that he was still "gurgling" and had shown signs of trying to free himself .. but he was irretrievably damaged by then . I understand your wish to end it - I've been there. Right now though I'm glad my attempts failed. New medication is helping. I empathise with your pain but equally wish you hope all and strength to stick around

 

[HappyChipEater]

Like you I've tried OD a few times .. still here to tell the tale. Hanging .. well from what I know it can be a long process - friend of a friend ended his life this way recently. The police who discovered him reported that he was still "gurgling" and had shown signs of trying to free himself .. but he was irretrievably damaged by then . I understand your wish to end it - I've been there. Right now though I'm glad my attempts failed. New medication is helping. I empathise with your pain but equally wish you hope all and strength to stick around

Thanks friend. I think I'm a little too scared to hang myself. All I remember from my overdose attempt was just blacking out and then waking up in hospital (previous attempt was only 500ml of vodka, 100mg of valium and 210mg of codeine), so i think this is the way I'm going to try again. Am ordering 60mg of xanax (unsure whether to go with 120mg (would be 120 tablets opposed to 30 for 60mg) or 60 mg) and 3 grams of tramadol which should arrive on Thursday. I hope that this along with 700ml of vodka will be enough to see me through. Think I'll also tape a bag to my head too before i pass out. Glad to hear your new medication is helping.

 

[Grumpy Bear]

Oh ok, mind if i ask what they tried to OD on?

Both were accidental. The one who is paralyzed OD'd on heroin. The other got a counterfeit Oxy that was laced with a research chemical.

 

[virginiawoolfe]

Thanks friend. I think I'm a little too scared to hang myself. All I remember from my overdose attempt was just blacking out and then waking up in hospital (previous attempt was only 500ml of vodka, 100mg of valium and 210mg of codeine), so i think this is the way I'm going to try again. Am ordering 60mg of xanax (unsure whether to go with 120mg (would be 120 tablets opposed to 30 for 60mg) or 60 mg) and 3 grams of tramadol which should arrive on Thursday. I hope that this along with 700ml of vodka will be enough to see me through. Think I'll also tape a bag to my head too before i pass out. Glad to hear your new medication is helping.

Thanks friend. I think I'm a little too scared to hang myself. All I remember from my overdose attempt was just blacking out and then waking up in hospital (previous attempt was only 500ml of vodka, 100mg of valium and 210mg of codeine), so i think this is the way I'm going to try again. Am ordering 60mg of xanax (unsure whether to go with 120mg (would be 120 tablets opposed to 30 for 60mg) or 60 mg) and 3 grams of tramadol which should arrive on Thursday. I hope that this along with 700ml of vodka will be enough to see me through. Think I'll also tape a bag to my head too before i pass out. Glad to hear your new medication is helping.

Well I can see you are determined to leave and I respect your right to make that choice. However I am curious as to what has brought you to this point. I would also like to ask you to consider where you make your exit and who might be the person to discover you .

 

[alwaysdopesick]

Hey everyone, (not so)HappyChipEater here. After 6 years of debating ending my life I have finally come to the conclusion over the past few weeks that it is something I would like to go through with.

Currently, my preferred method would be through an overdose as I have access to whatever illegal drugs I would like. The only issue is that I have previously failed an overdose attempt last 3 weeks ago (tried overdosing on valium, codeine and alcohol- forgot to bring enough codeine pills with me). I am now thinking that it may be better for me to attempt this again using a large dose of xanax, tramadol (maybe heroin?) and alcohol. Only issue is that there is a girl that lives in the same accommodation as me that walked into my room the first time and called emergency services, this is why I'm thinking walking to a secluded wooded area and hanging myself via partial suspension would be better.

Does anyone know how effective overdosing on xanax, tramadol and alcohol would be? or should I play it safe and take all 3 drugs just before hanging myself?

I wish I could just od as a reliable method, unfortunately I'm scared my tolerance to these drugs might make it pointless. I used to do very powerful opiates and I'm not sure I can get pure fentanyl. unfortunately this makes my plan getting very intoxicated and then a partial suspension hanging.

 

[HappyChipEater]

Well I can see you are determined to leave and I respect your right to make that choice. However I am curious as to what has brought you to this point. I would also like to ask you to consider where you make your exit and who might be the person to discover you .

I have been depressed/thinking about suicide since I was 15 (21 now). Through every period of my life I said to myself that I would feel happier but it never really happened. Since I have come to uni for my postgrad degree, I have realised that my life won't ever really get better and I won't achieve the goals I wanted to (basically the only thong that was keeping me going). I recently broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years and I'm not considering suicide because I'm sad about the break up. In fact, I am surprisingly fine with it and I think it was the best thing for both of us. I think that I am ready now because I have less people in my life which I would harm. I'll be taking my overdose in my university halls and will leave a note on my door to tell people to call the emergency services (this is also part of the reason I don't want to hang myself- want to try my best not to traumatise anyone). The only difficulty now is that I'm seeing another girl that has put a considerable strain on my own mental health (gas lighting, arguing every day etc.) and doesn't want to leave me alone because she thinks I am going to end things.

I wish I could just od as a reliable method, unfortunately I'm scared my tolerance to these drugs might make it pointless. I used to do very powerful opiates and I'm not sure I can get pure fentanyl. unfortunately this makes my plan getting very intoxicated and then a partial suspension hanging.

When was the last time that you did opiates? would your tolerance not have gone down by now? Partial hanging is definitely my second choice, I just found overdosing before so peaceful

 

[Ta555]

Like you I've tried OD a few times .. still here to tell the tale. Hanging .. well from what I know it can be a long process - friend of a friend ended his life this way recently. The police who discovered him reported that he was still "gurgling" and had shown signs of trying to free himself .. but he was irretrievably damaged by then . I understand your wish to end it - I've been there. Right now though I'm glad my attempts failed. New medication is helping. I empathise with your pain but equally wish you hope all and strength to stick around

Not sure if you're still around but would like to know how long your friend had been hanging for before being found as this is my method. Thanks.

 

[virginiawoolfe]

From what I've been told it must have been over 30 minutes - quite possibly an hour. I'm sorry you are feeling this low and wish you some inner peace in your life