Help Handcuffed.

[Livingvsdying25]

Handcuffed and FORCED To the hospital while I was checking out at a store.

FUCK EVERYTHING. I AM SO ANGRY. I AM GOING HOME TODAY. I WILL NOT LET THEM FORM ME.

FUCK EVERYONE ACTING LIKE I SHOULD BE CALM RIGHT NOW. WHILE IM BEKNG WATCHED BY WHITE MALE COPS.

I AM UGHHHHHH. I WANT TO SCREAM AND HURT SOMETHING BUT I AM POWERLESS NOW.


NOW I HAVE TO SUBMIT AND PRETEND AND BE DOCILE SO I CAN LEAVE.


FUCK THIS AND FUCK EVERYONE.

 

[freedomfreezerstar]

i am sorry if it helps i don't think you are crazy because that sucks

 

[TowerUpright]

Dear God. That just sounds so.... Wrong.

As a white male, i am embarrassed by their actions. While I can say it isn't all of us, that's of little comfort. I hope things work out for you, FWIW.

 

[Livingvsdying25]

I already wanted to die today and I just feel worse guys...

And im suposed to be calm and collected bc i just wanna go home

 

[Teal_Blue_Dreams]

omg! i wish i could help you. what the fuck is going on? also, be careful bc it's open season on poc right now. what state are you in? are you safe (all things considered)?

 

[Superdeterminist]

It's so lame, really.

 

[Livingvsdying25]

omg! i wish i could help you. what the fuck is going on? also, be careful bc it's open season on poc right now. what state are you in? are you safe (all things considered)?

Im in Canada its ok but honestly not much better
The staff can't say shit bc now its in the doctors hands y'all

Its COVID... so if anyone comes in emergency then they are ahead of me...

I just wanted to go home and smoke and now I have to spend new years ever in the hospital and I was already feelings alone and now I feel worthless and alone
I just want to go home now and cry...

I'm not giving in. Im not gonna kill myself on whim but damn im sad.

Now the police are discussing me with a doctor outside.

I have to present well. Wish me luck. Everyone in here is going crazy too so extra PTSD anxiety.

 

[Teal_Blue_Dreams]

i am so sorry you are dealing with this. we are here. i am here. hopefully, this will be over quickly.

 

[Nymph]

You were just at a store and they handcuffed you? Tf?

 

[Brick In The Wall]

You were just at a store and they handcuffed you? Tf?

Something missing here for sure. I doubt I'd be making much sense on a message board either in that situation tho.

 

[Livingvsdying25]

OKKKKK I JUST TALKED TO THE CRISIS NURSE Y'ALL!!!!!!!

I DID A GOODT!!!! JOB

I did so good i could cry but I think its SOOO sad that we all have to pretend to get help...

I SHOULD!!!! BE outta here in like??? 30 mins at most??

You were just at a store and they handcuffed you? Tf?

Bruh i was leaving the store and got stopped!!! I thought it was to receipt check(which u dont have to stop for)

So it was 5 mins of confusion and me like yelling wtf

You were just at a store and they handcuffed you? Tf?

Bruh i was leaving the store and got stopped!!! I thought it was to receipt check(which u dont have to stop for)

So it was 5 mins of confusion and me like yelling wtf

 

[Ghost2211]

OKKKKK I JUST TALKED TO THE CRISIS NURSE Y'ALL!!!!!!!

I DID A GOODT!!!! JOB

I did so good i could cry but I think its SOOO sad that we all have to pretend to get help...

I SHOULD!!!! BE outta here in like??? 30 mins at most??

Bruh i was leaving the store and got stopped!!! I thought it was to receipt check(which u dont have to stop for)

So it was 5 mins of confusion and me like yelling wtf

Bruh i was leaving the store and got stopped!!! I thought it was to receipt check(which u dont have to stop for)

So it was 5 mins of confusion and me like yelling wtf

Oh, didn't want to comply with receipt check and got upset so they called the police?

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Im not good with replies(as you can see)

I have time so lemme write clear.


I went to a store with staff. Forgot my debit card. Went back in an uber.

On my way out of the store, I got stopped by worker and then police.

I was confused as I thoght it was just ab receipt check.... 5 mins of confusion and being pushed around later...

Im handcuffed in the back of the police card omw to the hospital.

The staff called bc they got worried bc i was "banging my head in the elevator"

Sooo 30 mins of me yelling and stupid cop interactions im at the hospital.

cue me now in hospital and im waiting..

Ugh im sick of being mentally ill and penalized for showing it.

Im not good with replies(as you can see)

I have time so lemme write clear.


I went to a store with staff. Forgot my debit card. Went back in an uber.

On my way out of the store, I got stopped by worker and then police.

I was confused as I thoght it was just ab receipt check.... 5 mins of confusion and being pushed around later...

Im handcuffed in the back of the police card omw to the hospital.

The staff called bc they got worried bc i was "banging my head in the elevator"

Sooo 30 mins of me yelling and stupid cop interactions im at the hospital.

cue me now in hospital and im waiting..

Ugh im sick of being mentally ill and penalized for showing it.

Alsoo FUCK COPS. She handcuffed me and somehow i got my right hand free(i dunno I feel a lil pride with that.)

I'm not good with replies(as you can see)

I have time so lemme write clear.


I went to a store with staff. Forgot my debit card. Went back in an uber.

On my way out of the store, I got stopped by workers and then the police.

I was confused as I thought it was just ab receipt check.... 5 mins of confusion and being pushed around later...

I'm handcuffed in the back of the police card omw to the hospital.

The staff called bc they got worried bc I was "banging my head in the elevator"

So 30 mins of me yelling and stupid cop interactions im at the hospital.

cue me now in hospital and I'm waiting.

Ugh, I'm sick of being mentally ill and penalized for showing it.

Also, FUCK COPS. She handcuffed me and somehow I got my right hand free(i dunno I feel a Lil pride with that.)

ALSO, they brought me my tablet and some shit cord that doesn't fit any of my devices like??? Phones dying but I should hopefully make it FFS.

 

[Ghost2211]

Im not good with replies(as you can see)

I have time so lemme write clear.


I went to a store with staff. Forgot my debit card. Went back in an uber.

On my way out of the store, I got stopped by worker and then police.

I was confused as I thoght it was just ab receipt check.... 5 mins of confusion and being pushed around later...

Im handcuffed in the back of the police card omw to the hospital.

The staff called bc they got worried bc i was "banging my head in the elevator"

Sooo 30 mins of me yelling and stupid cop interactions im at the hospital.

cue me now in hospital and im waiting..

Ugh im sick of being mentally ill and penalized for showing it.

Alsoo FUCK COPS. She handcuffed me and somehow i got my right hand free(i dunno I feel a lil pride with that.)

Thank you for explaining all that. I was curious and confused. I'm sorry you had such stressful ordeal. Good to hear you got through ok. Sounds like a rough day.

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Oh, didn't want to comply with receipt check and got upset so they called the police?

Nah sorry im not clear like im genrally really sorry for how erratic im coming off.

I THOUGHT*** it was a receipt check. I thought they called the police but nope the residential treatment im at called.
I'm pissed too bc the staff that called and hit will be off for the weekend.

Like they really just tried to put me in the fucking hospital over new Year while they spend it with their loved ones...

I get procedure and stuff but UGH. Another dehumanizing experience.

I feel so pissed but when I go back I'm going to feel so stuffy and closed up and not trusting so. That's life.

 

[Teal_Blue_Dreams]

omg! i wish i could help you. what the fuck is going on? also, be careful bc it's open season on poc right now. what state are you in? are you safe (all things considered)?

Alsoo FUCK COPS. She handcuffed me and somehow i got my right hand free(i dunno I feel a lil pride with that.)

go you!

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Someone here is FREAKING OUT.

The staff I talked to that's working couldn't WAIT to get off the phone with me.

I can't explain how awful this feels tbh. Like I got fucked over and then go through this emotionally insensitive experience and go back home like it's nothing. As usual.

Like I really want a hug and I have no one that I trust... I feel so sad. I haven't felt like I deserved shit in awhile but I dunno.

I dunno what ima do this weekend either.

I'm such a fail omg. I'm moving soon and I could not even keep it together long enough to not have something like this happen...




Either way, good convo with the crisis worker and I'm hoping to be home soon.

I'll try my best not to bring up any alarms anymore. I'm so sorry. I'm not sure who I'm apologizing to but I am so sorry for existing this way.

Someone here is FREAKING OUT.

The staff I talked to that's working couldn't WAIT to get off the phone with me.

I can't explain how awful this feels tbh. Like I got fucked over and then go through this emotionally insensitive experience and go back home like it's nothing. As usual.

Like I really want a hug and I have no one that I trust... I feel so sad. I haven't felt like I deserved shit in awhile but I dunno.

I dunno what ima do this weekend either.

I'm such a fail omg. I'm moving soon and I could not even keep it together long enough to not have something like this happen...




Either way, good convo with the crisis worker and I'm hoping to be home soon.

I'll try my best not to bring up any alarms anymore. I'm so sorry. I'm not sure who I'm apologizing to but I am so sorry for existing this way.

Phone is on 10 percent and yeah.. My tablet is charged enough. Will update and hopefully be more clear later.

Thank you to everyone that replied and sent support. I feel the energy and im grateful

 

[Teal_Blue_Dreams]

so someone stopped you for no reason. and because of your reaction to them stopping you they called the police?

I'll try my best not to bring up any alarms anymore. I'm so sorry. I'm not sure who I'm apologizing to but I am so sorry for existing this way.

we are here for you! no need to apologize. i am glad you are ok and headed home soon. here's a big virtual hug!

 

[Livingvsdying25]

so someone stopped you for no reason. and because of your reaction to them stopping you they called the police?

Naahh I THOUGHT they were stopping me for no reason but bruh my housing called the police before I even checked out... They found me as I was leaving the store.

It was embarrassing....

The cop was like tryna shuffle me somewhere without explaining anything so I didn't get it till we were outside and I was in full freakout mode.

 

[Teal_Blue_Dreams]

i would have freaked out too!

 

[Livingvsdying25]

I am leaving now!!! uber called and should be home very very soon.

thank you guys. ima check in later tonight

 

[Nymph]

Congrats, I'm glad you got to leave. Sorry this even happened tho, I mean jeez. We are being watched everywhere

 

[sleepytourist]

Hey nottrying23 are you ok?

 

[noaccount]

Holy shit that is awful, and not your fault. Thought police everywhere. Sorry you have to put on acts just to get free. FWIW, The Absconding Archives (https://theabscondingarchives.com/) showcase people's stories of escaping psychiatric b.s. and also pay people stipends for writing their stories of how they got free.

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Hey nottrying23 are you ok?

Hiii, sorry I just saw this.

Im ok physically i guess. I got home on Thursday night. So was only there fir a few hours.

Emotionally though i feel p. Awful...

Thank you fot checking in

Holy shit that is awful, and not your fault. Thought police everywhere. Sorry you have to put on acts just to get free. FWIW, The Absconding Archives (https://theabscondingarchives.com/) showcase people's stories of escaping psychiatric b.s. and also pay people stipends for writing their stories of how they got free.

Woow that looks really interesting ima check it out. I lve always used emotional/mental tactics to leave. Its sad one has to do that but its like some people take pleasure in that "healing is hardwork" to an extreme...

 

[Istanbulite]

wow

 

[Soapie]

I'm so sorry, that's so fucking horrific. Cops can fuck off and die

 

[forgetme]

Cops like to abuse their power

 

[Shu]

I've been held down and given booty juice for no reason and sent to a hospital before. Nothing I could do about it. I wasen't suicidal and I did nothing wrong but deny my mental health history to the ER because I was having vision problems/blacking out and they said I was seeing stuff.