
BitterlyAlive_
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- Dec 8, 2020
- 2,394
I tend to get more agitated at night. During the morning and the day, I'm tired/bored/miserable and it's hard to really do things. I feel foggy. At night I get agitation tacked on. Yay. Then I kinda feel like my brain is on fire.
I was laying in bed with a pillow over my head, all that was really going through my mind was "This is awful and I want the pain to just stop." Was in this super stressed state for a while. Then I started feeling weird; I generally feel kinda detached from my body but here I just disconnected. I was behind my body, limbs felt far away, I somehow got the pillow off my head and things in general felt farther away. Felt vaguely scared as it started then I went numb. Typical stuff.
Feel a bit more with it now, I'm exhausted and will hopefully be able to sleep. This post really has no point, I'm just talking into the void.
Sigh. I'm just so tired of existing.
I was laying in bed with a pillow over my head, all that was really going through my mind was "This is awful and I want the pain to just stop." Was in this super stressed state for a while. Then I started feeling weird; I generally feel kinda detached from my body but here I just disconnected. I was behind my body, limbs felt far away, I somehow got the pillow off my head and things in general felt farther away. Felt vaguely scared as it started then I went numb. Typical stuff.
Feel a bit more with it now, I'm exhausted and will hopefully be able to sleep. This post really has no point, I'm just talking into the void.
Sigh. I'm just so tired of existing.