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freakshow
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- Jun 30, 2024
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I was left alone unsupervisioned for a few hours and i had everything prepared, i tied the nose and the anchor but i couldnt overcome my SI... its not even that im scared to die but im scared of failing again. this sucks.
i dont have a proper rope to hang myself so I used a bedsheet. It does seems like it can hold my weight, i tested it like i was climbing it and it seemed sturdy enough but i wasnt so sure so i gave up... it was also really fucking scary, seeing the noose in front of me like this.
Im scared the ligature is strong enough to hold me for a few minutes but eventually break at some point and I get brain damage...
fuck i hate life so much, im so miserable, im crying everyday all day, i cant stand my reflection, even my looking at my hands makes me breakdown crying... cant live like this
i dont have a proper rope to hang myself so I used a bedsheet. It does seems like it can hold my weight, i tested it like i was climbing it and it seemed sturdy enough but i wasnt so sure so i gave up... it was also really fucking scary, seeing the noose in front of me like this.
Im scared the ligature is strong enough to hold me for a few minutes but eventually break at some point and I get brain damage...
fuck i hate life so much, im so miserable, im crying everyday all day, i cant stand my reflection, even my looking at my hands makes me breakdown crying... cant live like this