supergold#2
sapphic, suicidal, and stupid
- Oct 20, 2024
- 85
if you, like me, have been seeing quite the uptick in posts about "H2S" or "hydrogen sulfide", and you maybe even may have considered it a viable option; well i'm here to hopefully provide you with some information (that you're probs not gonna find on pubchem) that might make your bus ride more successful than mine!
first, though, a little about me: i've been a member on and off for like 6 years, i enjoy playing guitar, i am, like, ridiculously mentally ill, and for some reason i just can't seem to die lmao
that being said, i recently tried to ctb with hydrogen sulfide, and here are the things i've learned:
1. unless you have access to decent lab equipment, there's next to no way to calculate when your concoction with reach the LD50 (insufflation, 1 second exposure) dose of 800+ppm (also some reports claim survivability up to 1400ppm, idk)
2. close proximity to H2S causes near immediate noseblindness (and rEaLlY fun burns), which is a MAJOR issure, because H2S becomes orally detectable in the immediate vicinity at preperations as low as 0001ppm; you NEED to be isolated for this to work properly
3. unfortunately, SI most deffinitely is still a factor in this method. While if "perfect" scenarios, you'd pass out immediately, that "perfect" scenario is highly unrealistic (again, unless you have access to a lab), according to most pubmed articles i've read, it usually takes anywhere from 5 seconds to 5 minutes to pass away
4. you might be thinking, "oh that's not THAT long"; it is. i'm not the religious type, but lemme just say, i COMPLETELY understand why Dante described purgatory with sulfur lmao. immediately after inhaling, you will feel ever hair, fiber, and muscle tissue literally burn from your body. H2S is extremely flammable when exposed to oxidizing agents, water, and most metals, which sounds fine until you consider that your lungs provide ALL 3 combustion risks (veinouse gasses fulfill the oxidizers, the iron in your blood, and just water, which you're 72% made of). YOU WILL FEEL IT.
5. after experiencing how it feels to be a creme brulee, unfortunately, you are most likely still alive. if you're like me, you'll be coughing hard enough to black out for a few seconds at a time here and there. it is very important that you CANNOT escape the situation if you're looking for success. i unfortunately can't tell you how long you'll have to tough it, but it most likely will feel like too long. i imagine opiates designed for nerve pain may help in this scenario, maybe tramadol, codeine, or ODSMT?
6. hopefully. you're not me, and you're not at this point: the lasting damage. if you do fail (which, for your sake, i hope you don't), you should be prepared for several casualties, most notably lungs/trachea/asophegus; it's been over a week since my attempt and i still am unable to speak outside of faint whispers (which do actually require quite a bit of effort), and unfortunately no doctors have been able to to even guarantee that my voice will eventually return.
7. teeth. my teeth are HORRIFIC, but, like, inhaling the gasses, i could literally feel the acid burn holes right through them, like, genuinely probably faster than a dentists drill; it's SO fucked
8. the only good part: if you survive all this, you get a nice lil trippy halucinations. i imagine it's kinda what it'd feel like to do ketamine, as a vietkong in the mountians south of ho chi minh city, anytime in the late 60's; kinda cool, but also stupidly fucked up painful
idk how to end this so: the end.
first, though, a little about me: i've been a member on and off for like 6 years, i enjoy playing guitar, i am, like, ridiculously mentally ill, and for some reason i just can't seem to die lmao
that being said, i recently tried to ctb with hydrogen sulfide, and here are the things i've learned:
1. unless you have access to decent lab equipment, there's next to no way to calculate when your concoction with reach the LD50 (insufflation, 1 second exposure) dose of 800+ppm (also some reports claim survivability up to 1400ppm, idk)
2. close proximity to H2S causes near immediate noseblindness (and rEaLlY fun burns), which is a MAJOR issure, because H2S becomes orally detectable in the immediate vicinity at preperations as low as 0001ppm; you NEED to be isolated for this to work properly
3. unfortunately, SI most deffinitely is still a factor in this method. While if "perfect" scenarios, you'd pass out immediately, that "perfect" scenario is highly unrealistic (again, unless you have access to a lab), according to most pubmed articles i've read, it usually takes anywhere from 5 seconds to 5 minutes to pass away
4. you might be thinking, "oh that's not THAT long"; it is. i'm not the religious type, but lemme just say, i COMPLETELY understand why Dante described purgatory with sulfur lmao. immediately after inhaling, you will feel ever hair, fiber, and muscle tissue literally burn from your body. H2S is extremely flammable when exposed to oxidizing agents, water, and most metals, which sounds fine until you consider that your lungs provide ALL 3 combustion risks (veinouse gasses fulfill the oxidizers, the iron in your blood, and just water, which you're 72% made of). YOU WILL FEEL IT.
5. after experiencing how it feels to be a creme brulee, unfortunately, you are most likely still alive. if you're like me, you'll be coughing hard enough to black out for a few seconds at a time here and there. it is very important that you CANNOT escape the situation if you're looking for success. i unfortunately can't tell you how long you'll have to tough it, but it most likely will feel like too long. i imagine opiates designed for nerve pain may help in this scenario, maybe tramadol, codeine, or ODSMT?
6. hopefully. you're not me, and you're not at this point: the lasting damage. if you do fail (which, for your sake, i hope you don't), you should be prepared for several casualties, most notably lungs/trachea/asophegus; it's been over a week since my attempt and i still am unable to speak outside of faint whispers (which do actually require quite a bit of effort), and unfortunately no doctors have been able to to even guarantee that my voice will eventually return.
7. teeth. my teeth are HORRIFIC, but, like, inhaling the gasses, i could literally feel the acid burn holes right through them, like, genuinely probably faster than a dentists drill; it's SO fucked
8. the only good part: if you survive all this, you get a nice lil trippy halucinations. i imagine it's kinda what it'd feel like to do ketamine, as a vietkong in the mountians south of ho chi minh city, anytime in the late 60's; kinda cool, but also stupidly fucked up painful
idk how to end this so: the end.
