Guilt leaving pets behind 🐱

[Funeralprincess]

The days are going by so slow. I have a good chunk of time until I can CTB, and every day I feel immense amounts of guilt. I have made sure my cat will have a good loving home, but I know she won't be fully happy because that home isn't me and I saved my cats life so she has a very strong loyalty to me and I've seen how she is without me, but I have to do this. I love my kitty cat so much, and wouldn't ever leave this earth without making sure she was in the best hands possible. She is an amazing pet whom I saved from a horrid situation, and it kills me to know she will have to adjust to new people, and rarely does she. She put all her trust into me after being abused to death by evil humans, and here I am letting her go after we've spent five good years together. I look into her big blue eyes and see how happy she gets when I come home. She loves to be held, because she put a lot of trust building into me after being severely hurt before… I think about how she needs me… how I know she won't be happy somewhere else because… because when I've had to leave before on trips she didn't eat, didn't sleep, and all around was very anxious when I was gone. Even when I spent months in the psych ward and she had a trusted friend, my poor kitty wouldn't do much. She would wait by the door for me to come home, and would freak out and yowl. I know she loves me more than anything, and I cry knowing I have to leave her behind, even though she will have a good family.

Does anyone else feel guilty about leaving their pets, especially if you saved them from an abusive home? Animals are so wonderful and that part is what's eating away at me the most at this moment.

 

[Murasa]

I understand your feelings, I had to abandon my pets when I moved, I was able to leave them in the hands of someone I trust a lot but I miss them too much, I feel particularly stupid for leaving them to come to die sad sometimes I feel that I should have waited for them to leave this world and accompany them.

 

[CursedSoul]

i feel a shit ton guilty, i just wish she could understand with her smol kitty cat brain that i died by my own hands... My poor cat will think i just left and abandonned her, it makes me so sad, and i'm in the same situation. I highly doubt i can go on in life much longer, to be fair, i'm resisting every single second to get a knife and cut my neck arteries, but i almost cry thinking of the pain i'l inflict on my poor cat :(

Can't not die, and can't handle abandonning my sweetie, man, this life is fucking hell.

 

[Funeralprincess]

That's how I feel. My sweet kitty just loves me and I know your kitty loves you too. It's so unfair we have to make these fucking choices

 

[Tortured Existence]

That is actually the only reason I'm still here. The only other person that knows and loves him almost as much as I do, and with whom my cat feels totally comfortable, can't take him because his cat became aggressive with mine after us all peacefully living together from the time mine was a kitten until a couple years ago.

We now live 2 hours away in our own home.

He's the most passive, sweet boy who doesn't have an aggressive bone in his body. But he's very afraid of strangers, and he wouldn't even come out from under the bed for the sitter who dropped by every day until the second time I went away in a month. I'd never left him alone here before.

Even taking him out of this/our home is extremely traumatizing to him.

My cat isn't even 4, and he's got a health issue right now which seems to be resolving, but it's too early to tell. Until it's completely resolved, I'm not going anywhere anyway.

My baby was never abused. What happened to yours is horrific and way too common. I adopted him from a shelter when he was very young and extremely sick. An incredible vet saved his life.

I'm losing my ability to care for him, mainly cleaning his box, because I'm no longer able to lean over for more than a few seconds. I'm literally getting stuck from pain of rapidly worsening arthritis and degenerative disc disease in my back and neck. Narcotic pain relievers are impossible to get.

I'm TOTALLY alone, and don't know a single person in the huge county where I live. I don't trust people in general, but even less to care for my cat properly, or any animal really. With shelters overflowing here (I would NEVER put him in one or with a rescue organization), finding him a proper home which I am certain he will be loved and cared for until he gets too sick and is suffering is literally impossible.

People let cats outside, which is deadly and horribly irresponsible here, and as you know, they abuse, neglect, and abandon them.

I value the lives of all sentient beings which is why I'm vegan. Most people are self-centered, selfish, and have sociopathic and/or narcissistic traits in the area where we live.

I desperately wanted to have my peaceful exit last night and many days during the past year, and if it wasn't for him, I'd be gone.

Sorry for the ramble. I have severe insomnia, and last night was even worse than usual. But, I TOTALLY get where you're coming from, as you can tell

 

[alliebear]

The days are going by so slow. I have a good chunk of time until I can CTB, and every day I feel immense amounts of guilt. I have made sure my cat will have a good loving home, but I know she won't be fully happy because that home isn't me and I saved my cats life so she has a very strong loyalty to me and I've seen how she is without me, but I have to do this. I love my kitty cat so much, and wouldn't ever leave this earth without making sure she was in the best hands possible. She is an amazing pet whom I saved from a horrid situation, and it kills me to know she will have to adjust to new people, and rarely does she. She put all her trust into me after being abused to death by evil humans, and here I am letting her go after we've spent five good years together. I look into her big blue eyes and see how happy she gets when I come home. She loves to be held, because she put a lot of trust building into me after being severely hurt before… I think about how she needs me… how I know she won't be happy somewhere else because… because when I've had to leave before on trips she didn't eat, didn't sleep, and all around was very anxious when I was gone. Even when I spent months in the psych ward and she had a trusted friend, my poor kitty wouldn't do much. She would wait by the door for me to come home, and would freak out and yowl. I know she loves me more than anything, and I cry knowing I have to leave her behind, even though she will have a good family.

Does anyone else feel guilty about leaving their pets, especially if you saved them from an abusive home? Animals are so wonderful and that part is what's eating away at me the most at this moment.

Yes. I understand how you felt. They're wonderful creature and sometimes when im not in a good situation, or about to harm myself, my cat always distract me from it by playing around me/climbing onto me. We speak languages we both doesnt understand, but deeply we understand each other.

Theres no doubt youre the best one for her, take your time while youre being with your kitty, talk to them, spends time with them, maybe things can turn around?;)

I watched crime scene cleaners at youtube cleaning one guy's house. He passed away by suicide and he got one cat. The cat looked so traumatised and shaking when the crime scene cleaners found them. It is pretty sad especially looking around the house the owner looked like he really loved his kitty theres so many cat toys and snacks