Been on these forums for a few days having just discovered them. I'm glad to find a community that can discuss the feeling of despair openly and honestly.
I plan to die soon but I have a few concerns. One namely being my family and friends. I know what I will do will completely devastated them and even though nothing i can do could lessen what will happen i still need to try, I also understand this may be a higher profile suicide. I'm someone with a significant online profile so I doubt this will be a completely quiet situation and I know that will magnify the unfortunate circumstances they face. I can leave them with money but that won't heal any wound, especially my mother who i know will be most hurt by it.
I suppose the big question is how can I achieve a guaranteed death by SN? Before coming here I thought of parking my car in the garage and letting it run or even taking a dosage of drugs but I've been warned against that. If anything the megathread on SN was my biggest repo of info. I can get SN that's 98 percent pure i think, but I have to ask how could I get the anti emetic or the benzos. I know these are prescription drugs and I'm wondering if I can say something to a doctor to get it prescribed or should I attempt to find these on the dark net?
I also wouldn't be against having someone to witness me in my last stage but that's a very personal and very dangerous thing to ask and I would be willing to pay for time if someone pms me (that being said I'm not even sure if I want to take this risk either, I'm just hoping to not fail and end up in a worse state).
I should add that if assuming I have the means to go anywhere. Is it better to leave the country, go remote and do this? I feel not being discovered or just missing may be better
I should also ask that assuming I have the means to exit the country, is it better to fly somewhere as a tourist, go remote and then attempt to ctb so that I can possibly not be found? I feel being missing is better than being found dead to family.
I should also ask that assuming I have the means to exit the country, is it better to fly somewhere as a tourist, go remote and then attempt to ctb so that I can possibly not be found? I feel being missing is better than being found dead to family.
I plan to die soon but I have a few concerns. One namely being my family and friends. I know what I will do will completely devastated them and even though nothing i can do could lessen what will happen i still need to try, I also understand this may be a higher profile suicide. I'm someone with a significant online profile so I doubt this will be a completely quiet situation and I know that will magnify the unfortunate circumstances they face. I can leave them with money but that won't heal any wound, especially my mother who i know will be most hurt by it.
I suppose the big question is how can I achieve a guaranteed death by SN? Before coming here I thought of parking my car in the garage and letting it run or even taking a dosage of drugs but I've been warned against that. If anything the megathread on SN was my biggest repo of info. I can get SN that's 98 percent pure i think, but I have to ask how could I get the anti emetic or the benzos. I know these are prescription drugs and I'm wondering if I can say something to a doctor to get it prescribed or should I attempt to find these on the dark net?
I also wouldn't be against having someone to witness me in my last stage but that's a very personal and very dangerous thing to ask and I would be willing to pay for time if someone pms me (that being said I'm not even sure if I want to take this risk either, I'm just hoping to not fail and end up in a worse state).
I should add that if assuming I have the means to go anywhere. Is it better to leave the country, go remote and do this? I feel not being discovered or just missing may be better
I should also ask that assuming I have the means to exit the country, is it better to fly somewhere as a tourist, go remote and then attempt to ctb so that I can possibly not be found? I feel being missing is better than being found dead to family.
I should also ask that assuming I have the means to exit the country, is it better to fly somewhere as a tourist, go remote and then attempt to ctb so that I can possibly not be found? I feel being missing is better than being found dead to family.
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