Venting Guess who’s back

[lifewasawillow]

So it turns out the pro lifer bs of "it gets better with time" is just that- bs. Got caught during a co attempt months ago and still nobody in my life gave a flying fuck. Despite this, still decided to give this whole life thing another go and for a little bit, things weren't good (I can't remember the last time they were) but they weren't necessarily bad either. The thing is I tried, I actually really tried to get better which is the worst part of all this. To be a normal (what even is normal anymore??) functioning human being. But here we go again, look where I find myself crawling back to. My anxiety has gotten to the point I can't even go to the store without having a panic attack and crying. What friends I had on here have long since passed to the other side (at least, I hope it worked and they didn't end up incapacitated). I'm so done. Jumping out of my attic window seems better than having to deal with all of this, it sure as hell won't kill me but maybe being a vegetable wouldn't be so bad after all. If you made it this far into the rant, congrats I guess. I think what I'm trying to say is I'm just so tired. But aren't we all.

 

[Roseate]

Hey if you want to talk, feel free to reach out. Sounds like you're going through a lot and if you just want to vent, that's okay. Sometimes talking about it can help or just talking to someone in general.

 

[Iris Blue]

Hey, I'm not sure if you remember me, I changed my username a while back (tbh I'm not quite sure the exact name but it was something with anonymity in it) I'm sorry to hear things have gotten bad. If you ever need to talk I'm still here and available to chat :)