Once in my life, I was trying to help a girl. This girl was suffering from self-harming.
She had numerous horrible scars on her hands, legs, belly and other parts of her body.
Her hands were very horribly abnormal because of these scars.
When I initially met her, she had bandages on both her hands after her last try.
I tried to lift her mood up, I tried to talk to her, I even lived with her for a while.
It tried this for more than a year.
But very soon I realized that self harming was not her only issue.
I would say that self harming was only a result of what she experienced during her whole life.
And I would say that self harming for her was just only a relief of her pain inside.
She was suffering from schizophrenia, depressions, anxieties, sexual abuse from her family member in childhood, bad relations between her dad and mother, bullying from her older brother and also she tried multiple drugs, was addicted also.
I tried all I could do.
I tried to keep her aways from bad members of her family. I tried to keep her away from drugs.
I tried to activize her and find something she would love to do
But I realized I cannot help her, I cannot cure her and she pulls me down also with her.
She also tried to convince me about self harm myself.
I wished her all the best, but I disconnected with her.
I pray for her soul, but I know she tried multiple times CTB before she knew me.
I do not know if she is still alive
I also did few very horrible things in my life...