Story Graduating From Sanctioned Suicide

[itsmeagain]

Angels... All of you.
​

My lovely angels. My honeys. my absolute darlings. I do not know a lot of you that have come in place of the lovely ghosts before us, but I wanted to tell you that I am going to be moving on from SS.

When I first came to SS, I was lost. I had every intention of dying. I had every intention of giving the last drops of kindness my bruised heart could give out, and wring them out into a goblet of love that the people on the site can drink from.

I never expected that I would be here. Things are going better and I really want you all to know that I really cherished all the people I got to know.

When I made my name, "Itsmeagain", it was kind of symbolic. I felt that I would come back here so many times after I've taken the last blows to my knees until I fall, crippled on the floor. Unable. Unmoving. I would crawl to my computer, looking through the methods, and say to myself...

"Hello Sactioned Suicide... It's me again."

I had fortune for the first time in my life. Recovery isn't something that's easy, but I had a small bit of fortune which turned into a beautiful flower. A beautiful place for me to try and grow. I'm stretching now. I can finally use the gorilla tape to tape things, and don't have to worry about buying cornhole sacks at Walmart.

I want to wish all of you strength in the face of adversity. As long as I'm still on SS, I feel as though there is something I will be unable to find in myself. I feel as though I would give too much of myself to the point where I can no longer function. I don't want to hurt any of my lovely friends or family I've made anymore. I want to be able to give people my all whenever I can, and being on SS is just a bit too complicated for me.

The slashes through all my lovely honies names is something that'll shake me to my very core. It's something that will shake my core, that will petrify me every time. To see people come and go is something I was used to, but now it bares a heavy burden on me. Although I am not pro life, I want to be able to make a necessary change I need to see for the people I can.

If you come across this, please know that there is someone out there blessing your beautiful hearts.

Please, keep well lovelies. All the people I used to know that have passed, I want for them to rest in peace.

And I hope... I hope I can find my peace among the living.

And SS...

It's me.
again.

for the last time.

<3

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

i'm glad you've decided to give life another try. wishing you the best with your recovery and in life

 

[almost_dead]

 

[CC123]

Congratulations and thank you for sharing your good news and not just disappearing from the forum

 

[nitroautnz]

What a great post Go and have an happy life, I wish you to not come back here!

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Angels... All of you.
​

My lovely angels. My honeys. my absolute darlings. I do not know a lot of you that have come in place of the lovely ghosts before us, but I wanted to tell you that I am going to be moving on from SS.

When I first came to SS, I was lost. I had every intention of dying. I had every intention of giving the last drops of kindness my bruised heart could give out, and wring them out into a goblet of love that the people on the site can drink from.

I never expected that I would be here. Things are going better and I really want you all to know that I really cherished all the people I got to know.

When I made my name, "Itsmeagain", it was kind of symbolic. I felt that I would come back here so many times after I've taken the last blows to my knees until I fall, crippled on the floor. Unable. Unmoving. I would crawl to my computer, looking through the methods, and say to myself...

"Hello Sactioned Suicide... It's me again."

I had fortune for the first time in my life. Recovery isn't something that's easy, but I had a small bit of fortune which turned into a beautiful flower. A beautiful place for me to try and grow. I'm stretching now. I can finally use the gorilla tape to tape things, and don't have to worry about buying cornhole sacks at Walmart.

I want to wish all of you strength in the face of adversity. As long as I'm still on SS, I feel as though there is something I will be unable to find in myself. I feel as though I would give too much of myself to the point where I can no longer function. I don't want to hurt any of my lovely friends or family I've made anymore. I want to be able to give people my all whenever I can, and being on SS is just a bit too complicated for me.

The slashes through all my lovely honies names is something that'll shake me to my very core. It's something that will shake my core, that will petrify me every time. To see people come and go is something I was used to, but now it bares a heavy burden on me. Although I am not pro life, I want to be able to make a necessary change I need to see for the people I can.

If you come across this, please know that there is someone out there blessing your beautiful hearts.

Please, keep well lovelies. All the people I used to know that have passed, I want for them to rest in peace.

And I hope... I hope I can find my peace among the living.

And SS...

It's me.
again.

for the last time.

<3

What a lovely parting statement. I too hope you can find your peace amongst the living. Good luck!

 

[WinterFaust]

Very poetic and moving. I'm so happy for you and wish you the most peace and happiness moving forward. I hope one day I can move on as well.

Best of luck, friend. Be well.

 

[helpmehelpme]

Angels... All of you.
​

My lovely angels. My honeys. my absolute darlings. I do not know a lot of you that have come in place of the lovely ghosts before us, but I wanted to tell you that I am going to be moving on from SS.

When I first came to SS, I was lost. I had every intention of dying. I had every intention of giving the last drops of kindness my bruised heart could give out, and wring them out into a goblet of love that the people on the site can drink from.

I never expected that I would be here. Things are going better and I really want you all to know that I really cherished all the people I got to know.

When I made my name, "Itsmeagain", it was kind of symbolic. I felt that I would come back here so many times after I've taken the last blows to my knees until I fall, crippled on the floor. Unable. Unmoving. I would crawl to my computer, looking through the methods, and say to myself...

"Hello Sactioned Suicide... It's me again."

I had fortune for the first time in my life. Recovery isn't something that's easy, but I had a small bit of fortune which turned into a beautiful flower. A beautiful place for me to try and grow. I'm stretching now. I can finally use the gorilla tape to tape things, and don't have to worry about buying cornhole sacks at Walmart.

I want to wish all of you strength in the face of adversity. As long as I'm still on SS, I feel as though there is something I will be unable to find in myself. I feel as though I would give too much of myself to the point where I can no longer function. I don't want to hurt any of my lovely friends or family I've made anymore. I want to be able to give people my all whenever I can, and being on SS is just a bit too complicated for me.

The slashes through all my lovely honies names is something that'll shake me to my very core. It's something that will shake my core, that will petrify me every time. To see people come and go is something I was used to, but now it bares a heavy burden on me. Although I am not pro life, I want to be able to make a necessary change I need to see for the people I can.

If you come across this, please know that there is someone out there blessing your beautiful hearts.

Please, keep well lovelies. All the people I used to know that have passed, I want for them to rest in peace.

And I hope... I hope I can find my peace among the living.

And SS...

It's me.
again.

for the last time.

<3

Way to part in peace

 

[Caspers]

Here's your graduation hat! Source

 

[Deleted member 8975]

I miss you and wish we could have traded contacts. I wish you the best itsmeagain. Youre a truly lovely human being.

 

[watereyes]

i already miss you.

 

[almost_dead]

miss you , please come back

 

[Lost in a Dream]

The slashes through all my lovely honies names is something that'll shake me to my very core. It's something that will shake my core, that will petrify me every time. To see people come and go is something I was used to, but now it bares a heavy burden on me.

I feel like I can relate to this completely. When I first came here, I knew that it was normal for people to come and go, but now that I'm becoming attached to some members, I know it will be harder on me each time a name gets a slash through it. At least with a goodbye thread in the Recovery section, it's a much better feeling. It means that one of us managed to escape from the dark abyss we find ourselves in and it's a great thing when that person is a kind and compassionate person. We need more people like that in the world, that's for sure.

 

[Surgeon]

My stomach sank when i saw your name crossed out.
I wish you the absolute world. You're an angel you deserve it.
I'm genuinely happy you're gonna play the game.