Got Scammed $400 Buying N

[RhapsodyinBerserk]

Beginner mistake, I know. Was looking up ways to OD on prescription drugs on YT, found an email for someone advertising a distributor for N, gmailed them, then fell into the rabbit hole. Looking back there were like 500 different things that were wrong, like the fact they did business on Gmail, used PayPal for transactions, never showed me a picture of the product, the fact that there were two different emails referring to the same source, and the fact that dispensaries don't even sell N. Honestly, I'm just so desperate for a peaceful method that I didn't even really care if I was being scammed, this was before I found SN and I'm now using it as my method of choice. The ironic thing is I'm barely 20, I should know when people are trying to scam you online, especially when it comes to N. If someone could book me a flight to Tijuana and give me some two-star Spanish lessons and a couple hundred USD, I think we'd be all good.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I'm so sorry this happened. Disgusting how people try to take advantage. I guess desperation can really cloud our judgment and we can miss all the alarm bells. I got scammed a fee months ago of something (nowhere near as valuable as your loss however) and there were plenty of signs that should've given me pause. Ultimately it's their choice to be dishonest and that's why they are to blame.

It's pretty sad you want to die at a such a young age. Would you like to share what led you to that decision (you don't have to)?

 

[FuneralCry]

That is really awful, I hate how exist in a world where N isn't available as a legalised peaceful way to exit, as humans we should just be able to have the option to pass away in peace without risks and complications. Just the fact that people try to scam suicidal people just proves that this world is undeniably such a hellish place.

 

[RhapsodyinBerserk]

I'm so sorry this happened. Disgusting how people try to take advantage. I guess desperation can really cloud our judgment and we can miss all the alarm bells. I got scammed a fee months ago of something (nowhere near as valuable as your loss however) and there were plenty of signs that should've given me pause. Ultimately it's their choice to be dishonest and that's why they are to blame.

It's pretty sad you want to die at a such a young age. Would you like to share what led you to that decision (you don't have to)?

I've had chronic constipation and pelvic floor dysfunction that has caused evacuation difficulties. Started out as garden variety IBS before transitioning into slow transit constipation. Had a colonoscopy and anorectal manometry where they diagnosed me with tight pelvic floor muscles. Been going to physical therapy to try and relax the muscles so I can go to the bathroom easier, but I haven't had the motivation to get better. I spent my first semester of sophomore year of college depressed before things hit the shit back in January. I've also had episodes of passive stool leakage. I can't get over the fact that I was once "normal", and how my GI condition has fucked up my life. I also have autism and OCD so my mental health has been screwed over. I never had these issues 2 years ago, and I can take measures to be better, but I tell myself I don't have the motivation to get better, and since I'm depressed and life is shit right now, why not just end it all. Going to the bathroom is hell and not being to shit like a normal human being is just too much. I constantly alternate between suicidality and the desire to live, the hope for things to get better, but I'm honestly just fucking around until I eventually get the money and kill myself.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I've had chronic constipation and pelvic floor dysfunction that has caused evacuation difficulties. Started out as garden variety IBS before transitioning into slow transit constipation. Had a colonoscopy and anorectal manometry where they diagnosed me with tight pelvic floor muscles. Been going to physical therapy to try and relax the muscles so I can go to the bathroom easier, but I haven't had the motivation to get better. I spent my first semester of sophomore year of college depressed before things hit the shit back in January. I've also had episodes of passive stool leakage. I can't get over the fact that I was once "normal", and how my GI condition has fucked up my life. I also have autism and OCD so my mental health has been screwed over. I never had these issues 2 years ago, and I can take measures to be better, but I tell myself I don't have the motivation to get better, and since I'm depressed and life is shit right now, why not just end it all. Going to the bathroom is hell and not being to shit like a normal human being is just too much. I constantly alternate between suicidality and the desire to live, the hope for things to get better, but I'm honestly just fucking around until I eventually get the money and kill myself.

Sounds like a horrific time and one you have to face every day and with such a sensitive part of the body. I have autism too and developed a pain condition out of the blue as well. So based on that I can understand your desire to leave at 20. It must be so painful to realize the loss of what you had. When you lose your health everything seems to be put in perspective.