Discussion Goodbye

[coyotestark]

Unless I can pull a (financial) rabbit out of a hat, tomorrow, I'll be turning my chest into a firing range. AMA.

 

[Someone123]

I hope you can find peace. For finances, could bankruptcy help, or is there any other option that could help?

 

[coyotestark]

I hope you can find peace. For finances, could bankruptcy help, or is there any other option that could help?

No, I made sure to fuck myself good and proper. I'm one of those people that has inexplicably lived three lives as it is, I refuse to go back financially 20 years, my pride won't allow it. Regardless, I quit my job like 6 weeks ago, even if I'm able to swing some more cash it's just going to keep me alive until the end of the month, as that was my planned departure time anyhow.

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

Unless I can pull a (financial) rabbit out of a hat, tomorrow, I'll be turning my chest into a firing range. AMA.

Hoping you get your rabbit! If you do, please tell me how you did it, b/c I need a rabbit too!

 

[coyotestark]

Hoping you get your rabbit! If you do, please tell me how you did it, b/c I need a rabbit too!

You would be amazed by what one can do with their cell phone. I may just go anyhow, I've been planning this for months and I'm finally not scared anymore. I slept like a baby last night, first time in years. Not sure if it's stoicism or if I've just become comfortable with the idea after thinking about it every day for 12 weeks.

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

Good luck to you, whatever happens.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

It must be nice to not feel afraid anymore, especially considering the method you chose. Even going with a more peaceful option, I'm still worried about not being able to go through with it when the time comes, even though I just want out most days.

I hope things go well for you anyway, whether you manage to save your life with a surprise magic trick or not.

 

[coyotestark]

The financial stuff is an aside, my peril in that realm was completely self-inflicted. I'd kind of like to (continue to) live like a rockstar for the next couple of weeks, but it's not completely necessary. And thank you.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed.

 

[Cathy Ames]

Hoping you get your rabbit! If you do, please tell me how you did it, b/c I need a rabbit too!

Yes, I, too, would appreciate a rabbit or two (and the living like a rock star thing, too).

If you're serious about the AMA, I'm curious about what plans you have made for having your body discovered without traumatizing anyone, and etc.

 

[coyotestark]

It is not uncommon to find overdose or suicide deaths in the area that I chose, some type of law enforcement is going to find me, I would argue that folks in this line of work are better equipped to handle such a thing. ie they have seen it before.

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine that it must be a relief not to feel scared anymore. I hope that you find what you are looking for.

 

[OuttaTIme]

I hope you get your rabbit.

 

[coyotestark]

I can imagine that it must be a relief not to feel scared anymore. I hope that you find what you are looking for.

It took me awhile to come to terms with it, I woke up a mess everyday for two and a half months. It's strange, my anxiety surrounding it has seemed to go away. All that remains is this like nervous energy, sort of like a kid on Christmas Eve. I am beyond relieved, I have never felt this much peace, nor has my mind ever been so clear.

 

[September5th]

The feeling of detachment is great, right? When you somehow fucks everything up and there's nothing left. Sad, because you know that your past self would be disgusted with whom you turned out. However, liberating.
If you take the rabbit, please tell us how you did it XD