profoundexperience
You can feel the punishment but you cant commit ts
- Jun 29, 2020
- 436
You give up the world bit by bit. You become an accomplice to your own annihilation. Everything you do closes a door somewhere ahead of you... Finally there's only one door left. (from: The Sunset Limited)
Someone asked, "Being on the verge... the point of absolute immediacy - what is that like?" Zen master Joshu said, "Pissing is a small thing to do, but I have to do it myself."
I've had enough of life/existence and just want out... To turn-off this stupid, pointless, sad "TV show" and just go back to blissful "sleep": So, finally, it's time to go: I'm "catching the bus" right the heck now*.
~4.45 human beings are born on this Earth EVERY SECOND... So, ~534 new lives will begin in just the 2 minutes it takes you to read this note... All are "forced" into life without any of them having consented to it. Most will have to "bow and scrape" for mere survival**; the vast, vast majority will languish in "wage slavery"; many will be raped/assaulted/abused (in one way or another); most will sadly bring even more humans into this; ALL WILL DIE... it's inevitable for all of us, regardless of what we do.
And for what? What does my life matter compared to the tsunami of suffering here? Does anyone's life "matter"? Just what do we think we're accomplishing here? Are ice creams and orgasms and temporary feelings of "love" worth all the costs...? Can't we see that all our "pleasures" are merely manipulations to force us to keep-on "surviving"...?
I grieve deeply for all of those 534... I grieve deeply for all of us.
So I'm returning this "gift of life" -- a tacky, selfish gift of being a "meat robot" and puppet to so many vulgar impulses***... Knowing what I do now, I never would have asked for this.
Regarding committing suicide, for many of us it can be a very difficult — even an agonizing thing to do. Society & other people purposefully make it extremely hard (in a way we are not free, but this makes us slaves to them). I myself procrastinated/delayed so many times... it took me years to "get ready". So, I'd ask you to "let yourself off the hook": If it needs to happen... it will happen, at exactly the right time... when you're truly "ready".
I wish to deeply thank you, dear reader, as well as the owners, admins, & moderators of SS: All of you have helped reduce my suffering. There are many kind and understanding people here!
Now, as I take my leave from you, dear reader, please allow me to dedicate some words to you... both for right now in this very moment -- but also, if you must, for whatever may come -- up to and including the moment of your death -- and also for whatever (if anything) that lies beyond. I sincerely hope and wish that everything in your remaining life, as well as your death, goes exactly as you would want.
May you be free of suffering, dear reader (now and always).
May you have mental happiness, dear reader.
May you have physical happiness, dear reader.
May you have ease of well being, dear reader... dear friend.
So I begin "the end"... I should be unconscious within just a few minutes from posting this -- and be dead within around 400 seconds. Based on my life expectancy, I am saving myself from ~800,000,000 (eight-hundred million) seconds of pointless/meaningless, pedestrian and unendurable suffering/pain/agony.
400 for 800,000,000... a ratio of 1:2,000,000: That seems like a very small price to pay, and a good trade indeed!
I wish you great thanks, great success (in whatever you do), and great wellness dear reader...
Love, @profoundexperience
P.S. Sorry there is no possibility now of discussion (e.g., talking with me about it, etc.). Instead, what I'd kindly request is simply good wishes of luck and success for my future. Please "cross your fingers" for me... that is enough.
* By the inert gas/exit-bag method... following instructions in the "Five Last Acts" book and double-checked by the PPeH. Hood/bag instructions here:
** Appropriately 25,000 human beings die every single day from starvation.
*** Our programming and constantly "being gamed" both from within: biological/genetic and without: societal/interpersonal/economic.
Someone asked, "Being on the verge... the point of absolute immediacy - what is that like?" Zen master Joshu said, "Pissing is a small thing to do, but I have to do it myself."
I've had enough of life/existence and just want out... To turn-off this stupid, pointless, sad "TV show" and just go back to blissful "sleep": So, finally, it's time to go: I'm "catching the bus" right the heck now*.
~4.45 human beings are born on this Earth EVERY SECOND... So, ~534 new lives will begin in just the 2 minutes it takes you to read this note... All are "forced" into life without any of them having consented to it. Most will have to "bow and scrape" for mere survival**; the vast, vast majority will languish in "wage slavery"; many will be raped/assaulted/abused (in one way or another); most will sadly bring even more humans into this; ALL WILL DIE... it's inevitable for all of us, regardless of what we do.
And for what? What does my life matter compared to the tsunami of suffering here? Does anyone's life "matter"? Just what do we think we're accomplishing here? Are ice creams and orgasms and temporary feelings of "love" worth all the costs...? Can't we see that all our "pleasures" are merely manipulations to force us to keep-on "surviving"...?
I grieve deeply for all of those 534... I grieve deeply for all of us.
So I'm returning this "gift of life" -- a tacky, selfish gift of being a "meat robot" and puppet to so many vulgar impulses***... Knowing what I do now, I never would have asked for this.
Regarding committing suicide, for many of us it can be a very difficult — even an agonizing thing to do. Society & other people purposefully make it extremely hard (in a way we are not free, but this makes us slaves to them). I myself procrastinated/delayed so many times... it took me years to "get ready". So, I'd ask you to "let yourself off the hook": If it needs to happen... it will happen, at exactly the right time... when you're truly "ready".
I wish to deeply thank you, dear reader, as well as the owners, admins, & moderators of SS: All of you have helped reduce my suffering. There are many kind and understanding people here!
Now, as I take my leave from you, dear reader, please allow me to dedicate some words to you... both for right now in this very moment -- but also, if you must, for whatever may come -- up to and including the moment of your death -- and also for whatever (if anything) that lies beyond. I sincerely hope and wish that everything in your remaining life, as well as your death, goes exactly as you would want.
May you be free of suffering, dear reader (now and always).
May you have mental happiness, dear reader.
May you have physical happiness, dear reader.
May you have ease of well being, dear reader... dear friend.
So I begin "the end"... I should be unconscious within just a few minutes from posting this -- and be dead within around 400 seconds. Based on my life expectancy, I am saving myself from ~800,000,000 (eight-hundred million) seconds of pointless/meaningless, pedestrian and unendurable suffering/pain/agony.
400 for 800,000,000... a ratio of 1:2,000,000: That seems like a very small price to pay, and a good trade indeed!
I wish you great thanks, great success (in whatever you do), and great wellness dear reader...
Love, @profoundexperience
P.S. Sorry there is no possibility now of discussion (e.g., talking with me about it, etc.). Instead, what I'd kindly request is simply good wishes of luck and success for my future. Please "cross your fingers" for me... that is enough.
* By the inert gas/exit-bag method... following instructions in the "Five Last Acts" book and double-checked by the PPeH. Hood/bag instructions here:
** Appropriately 25,000 human beings die every single day from starvation.
*** Our programming and constantly "being gamed" both from within: biological/genetic and without: societal/interpersonal/economic.
