Goodbye.

[Lilium]

I'm finally Ready to CTB! After years of contemplation and some roadblocks along the way, I've finally decided on a method.

I'll be going by way of Partial Hanging. for the Ligature, i'm using a necktie with the other end tied to a screwdriver on the outside of a closed door to act as a support. I tested it, and it should be good enough to hold my full weight.

I can't say that my life was all bad and I can't say it was good either, what I can say is that it has taken it's toll on me. With the way things are right now, if I continue living, my life would just keep going downhill. I regret having to leave my family and friends behind, I regret the things that I have done, and the things that I won't get to do. The beautiful thing about it is that regret, pain... everything will cease to matter. You might think that I'm a horrible person, you might call me a coward or a miscreant for doing this, and you're probably right. To everyone who I have hurt or may hurt, I'm sorry for everything, I wish there was a way to erase my existence.

I'm really glad that I found this place, and I'm glad that I was able put down my final thoughts. I wish you all the best of luck, and I hope that you can find peace.

After I post this I'm going to log out, clear my history then proceed to CTB, and if I'm not back again this time tomorrow (carry on... carry on...) ban me.

Thank you,
Goodbye.

-Lilium

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

Good luck to you, wether you succeed, fail or give up. I wish you peace. Rest well

 

[Sadkitty]

So sorry to hear you're leaving....I understand but never get used to it. I hope you have tried to make your situation better and I'm sure you have. We will be here if you change your mind. And don't be afraid if it doesn't go as you plan. Most of us have been there. Peace to you.

 

[idontwannadothisanym]

good luck hope you find peace

 

[FriendofDeath]

Sending light and love for whatever journey you choose. Peace

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

May you find your peace away from this awful world.

 

[I screwed up]

RIP my friend. Hope to follow u soon

 

[Saddaisy]

Rest well. Hope we can meet soon. I'll be out in 8 days.

 

[idontwannadothisanym]

Rest well. Hope we can meet soon. I'll be out in 8 days.

I'm out Wednesday :,)

 

[Saddaisy]

I'm out Wednesday :,)

If there is anything on the other side I hope we all can meet up. Although dumb pos was around someone who was around someone with corona so why knows what will happen. I can't go much longer.

 

[idontwannadothisanym]

If there is anything on the other side I hope we all can meet up. Although dumb pos was around someone who was around someone with corona so why knows what will happen. I can't go much longer.

messages are open if you would like to talk I am so lonely it will have to the email looking one though I is banned from chat room

 

[Saddaisy]

messages are open if you would like to talk I am so lonely it will have to the email looking one though I is banned from chat room

I know the feeling. I'll try to figure out the message thing.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

I burn a little candle for you...I hope it's light will guide you to love and peace

 

[KUA]

I'm finally Ready to CTB! After years of contemplation and some roadblocks along the way, I've finally decided on a method.

I'll be going by way of Partial Hanging. for the Ligature, i'm using a necktie with the other end tied to a screwdriver on the outside of a closed door to act as a support. I tested it, and it should be good enough to hold my full weight.

I can't say that my life was all bad and I can't say it was good either, what I can say is that it has taken it's toll on me. With the way things are right now, if I continue living, my life would just keep going downhill. I regret having to leave my family and friends behind, I regret the things that I have done, and the things that I won't get to do. The beautiful thing about it is that regret, pain... everything will cease to matter. You might think that I'm a horrible person, you might call me a coward or a miscreant for doing this, and you're probably right. To everyone who I have hurt or may hurt, I'm sorry for everything, I wish there was a way to erase my existence.

I'm really glad that I found this place, and I'm glad that I was able put down my final thoughts. I wish you all the best of luck, and I hope that you can find peace.

After I post this I'm going to log out, clear my history then proceed to CTB, and if I'm not back again this time tomorrow (carry on... carry on...) ban me.

Thank you,
Goodbye.

-Lilium

It was good speaking to you. I hope you find peace

 

[lostangel]

I wish you the best.

 

[disabledlife]

Good luck, I hope your departure will go well. I wish you the best.

 

[MeriDeath]

Truly saddening. I wish you a smooth and painless transfer. I'm really happy to hear life won't be a burden for you anymore ❤

 

[Notwinnernotawin]

I wish you find peace. I'm going with the same method anytime soon. I hope you're somewhere better now.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

 

[Isadeth]

I hope you have found your peace ♡

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Best of luck. I hope you find the peace you are seeking.. Much love. x

 

[DecidedMnl]

May the universe grant you peace.

I'm finally Ready to CTB! After years of contemplation and some roadblocks along the way, I've finally decided on a method.

I'll be going by way of Partial Hanging. for the Ligature, i'm using a necktie with the other end tied to a screwdriver on the outside of a closed door to act as a support. I tested it, and it should be good enough to hold my full weight.

I can't say that my life was all bad and I can't say it was good either, what I can say is that it has taken it's toll on me. With the way things are right now, if I continue living, my life would just keep going downhill. I regret having to leave my family and friends behind, I regret the things that I have done, and the things that I won't get to do. The beautiful thing about it is that regret, pain... everything will cease to matter. You might think that I'm a horrible person, you might call me a coward or a miscreant for doing this, and you're probably right. To everyone who I have hurt or may hurt, I'm sorry for everything, I wish there was a way to erase my existence.

I'm really glad that I found this place, and I'm glad that I was able put down my final thoughts. I wish you all the best of luck, and I hope that you can find peace.

After I post this I'm going to log out, clear my history then proceed to CTB, and if I'm not back again this time tomorrow (carry on... carry on...) ban me.

Thank you,
Goodbye.

-Lilium

 

[Ulisses]

Goodbye my friend.

 

[BlackCatTalk]

Its been a long year
Since we last spoke
How's your halo?
Just between you and I
You and me and the satellites
I never believed you
I only wanted to
Before all of this
What did I miss?
Do you ever get homesick?
I can't get used to it
I can't get used to it
I'll never get used to it
I'll never get used to it
I'm under that night
I'm under those same stars
We're in a red car
You asleep at my side
Going in and out of the headlights
Could I have saved you?
Would that betrayed you?
I wanna burn this film
You alone with those pills
What you couldn't do I will
I forgive you
I'll forgive you
I'll forgive you
I forgive you
For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue…


I wish you peace

 

[Close_to_freedom]

I'm noticing posts by people saying they want to meet up after death. Why not just meet up now? Such people don't really want to die. To want to die is to want oblivion.

 

[WinterFaust]

Hope you find the peace you're looking for. Rest easy

 

[itsamadworld]

I wish you well whichever way you go. I hope you find clarity and peace, sending those vibes your way...Best wishes.

 

[Brackenshire]

Peaceful journey friend

 

[Lilium]

Update: I failed, miserably. the method is sound, I was able to pass out but the tie snapped, so if you are going to attempt this use a strong tie or a sturdier ligature.

And as to why it took me this long to update: after coming to I wasn't able think straight and in a fit of rage I tried to cut my wrist and upper arm, and I couldn't cut deep enough to get to an artery. my sister found me bleeding then called an ambulance and I ended up having to get stitches. To top it all off I now have an appointment with a therapist tomorrow, I just hope I don't get sent to a mental hospital. I am convinced that the universe is acting against me at this point.

I am sorry if I disappointed any of you.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Update: I failed, miserably. the method is sound, I was able to pass out but the tie snapped, so if you are going to attempt this use a strong tie or a sturdier ligature.

And as to why it took me this long to update: after coming to I wasn't able think straight and in a fit of rage I tried to cut my wrist and upper arm, and I couldn't cut deep enough to get to an artery. my sister found me bleeding then called an ambulance and I ended up having to get stitches. To top it all off I now have an appointment with a therapist tomorrow, I just hope I don't get sent to a mental hospital. I am convinced that the universe is acting against me at this point.

I am sorry if I disappointed any of you.

No need to be sorry for anything. I'm happy you didn't end up injured in a way that made your life even worse. I don't think anyone here would be disappointed. Maybe someone on here can give you some ideas on what to say to your therapist.